I died the day you left me..

Last day of PA...

2010-07-15T22:42:00.002+08:00

It has come to this day.

Tomorrow will be Friday; not just any Friday but the 16th of July which is also my last day of professional attachment.

Mixed emotions. Although I can finally rest (because I haven't had any since exams), I also will miss all those people at work. They're really nice people and they've guided me all along. I can count on them for work assistance as well as great friends. Thanks for accompanying me this 10 weeks.

After my PA ends, will probably be busy with the 2 FOCs and then I'm off to school for my last 2 semesters. Can't believe that 16 weeks just passed like that; my last holiday of my life :(

Met up with some secondary friends recently. They're one of the best. Have you ever heard of the saying that old friends are like wine? The more mellow the better. I guess there are some you keep close to you no matter where you go.

If only university was forever, if only I can be young forever. Haha... badly need rest anyway. Between a fulfilling life, going out everyday and a "me" time life, spending time alone, which would you prefer?

Monday!

2010-07-05T14:47:00.002+08:00

Several of my friends have already finished their attachments, the reason being some PAs are 8-week programmes and some, like mine, are 10-week ones.

So last friday apparently was the last day for many of them. Holidays begin now!

As for me, so goes another weekend and back to mondays. I never realize how precious fridays were until I came on PA. Boy, are they precious!

I hope to catch up with my friends too during this week. I heard there're lots of nice movies recently and a few that I've been recommended are Karate Kids, A-team, Toy Story 3 (some say nice others say not so) and yes, how can I forget the good old Twilight. My last movie was like Iron Man 2 so things are looking pretty bleak for me. Watch movies with me soon please!

So goes monday. Just ate a light lunch of some Oreo cookies and looking forward to 1800hrs on this lazy, humid, sleep-inducing afternoon.

See you soon!

Professional Attachment and July..

2010-07-01T09:54:00.003+08:00

The month of June comes to an end and July has started. What an eventful month June was for me: so many surprises lined with gatherings and meet-ups; get to catch up with old friends whom I didn't have the chance to during semester time.

Life is so unpredictable, sometimes even tiring to live.

Attachment is ending on 16th July. Looking forward to that day when my holiday really begins, for 2 weeks that is. After that it's HSS FOC followed by Hall 16 FOC and then off to school I go, for my final run of year 4. Really dreading it already. I don't want to leave so soon, I wish I can just stay in uni forever. The school life, hall life, friends that I've experienced is something money can't buy.

Sometimes it'll be good if you can stop to smell the flowers. But things just went on too quickly for me; beneath the bustle and partying, how many times have you really smiled?

Will update again soon :)

Attachment..

2010-05-18T00:59:00.002+08:00

Second week of attachment now, at Forbes.

Working is tiring. The attachment is rather fun and the people are nice but working is just tiring i guess. The sheer mention of it drains away my energy.

Anyway been out of town for a hall trip as well. Sandy beaches and nice coral reefs and hall friends. Had some fun and it was really nice to snorkel. I never thought I will have the chance but I did and it was memorable. The fishes literally fly into our hands for you to touch; and the corals were rather huge and majestic. Very fulfilling getaway indeed.

1 week down, 9 weeks to go. Guess I will have to sacrifice a lot of sleep then. Luckily still have a bit of school holidays after attachment, then can enjoy.

Recess week

2010-02-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

Oh it's recess week again! My 6th one since my time in NTU.

Think I'm gonna have to study. Have 2 quizzes after this week and projects are starting to come in. o my.. holidays never seem long enough =(

But before that let me enjoy my sunday first. Feels good to wake up naturally without the alarm clock. I can do things at my own pace and have some time to myself. Feels relaxing, maybe a bit too relaxing oops.

Anyway I've been taking 1 day at a time, not looking too far out into the future. But it occurred upon me what will happen to me 1 year from now when I graduate? The future is so uncertain. I do not know the answer myself, sometimes I wonder whether I should do something about it. Sigh.

Blog restarted..

2010-02-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

It's reli been a while since I blogged. Not that I don't want to, but rather because of technical errors on my blog. Those who have visited will know that there's something wrong with the background and the whole blog is down. I didn't have time to bother about it plus I didn't know html so I don't know what's wrong. Hence it has been inactive ever since.

A very big thanks to stefe who helped me resolve this problem just 2 days ago. Thank you stefe =)

Anyway since I didn't blog for so many months, I doubt anyone will be reading this entry. I mean, most of you will not visit my blog anymore right since it has been inactive. I'm not sure who can see this but if you can, can you please tag me to know I'm still being heard? If not I blog also defeats half the purpose already =(

Anyway lots of things have happened ever since october (last entry before this). I didn't know when to begin but basically after exams comes the holidays and hence IHG period, lots of playing in hall and crazy stuff. After that comes school and just slacked as usual, have CNY holiday and is now approaching recess week! Love is in the air, lots of people around me are now in scandalous mode or attached. As usual, so I guess the cycle repeats itself then.

I met lots of old friends as well. Example yanni and ellie and lai yan and laytin. Anyway it's good to know I'm not forgotten. Sometimes I feel that way nowadays.

October..

2009-10-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

October comes once again..

Exams are drawing near.. another semester just zoomed by..

Reports are almost down but more just keep coming.. busy with hall stuffs mostly.. has been staying in hall and going to school.. has not get a good chance to see the outside world yet.. =X

No interesting events recently.. looking forward to life after the exams.. haven't have time to do the things i like.. in fact have not had time to do slacking things.. where did all the time go?

Have not been to a cinema, go out for a meal, go east coast, go steamboat, go K box for a long time.. sigh.. life, as it seems, has lost much of its colours..

friends are all i have now.. dun leave me =(

September..

2009-09-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

September comes around once again.

I haven't been updating my blog I realize, I didn't know why time just slipped by. Oh my, well I know busy is not a good excuse. But for me I feel like my life has no exciting events anymore. Everything has settled and I'm just a plain average Joe.

What has been happening recently:

-Reports & tutorials and school in general
-Living in hall still
-Occasional birthday parties

That's about it. There's no good news to share. Maybe plain is a good thing too I guess. But half of my uni life is gone and I'm still stuck at the same spot.

I doubt anyone will read this anymore right?

FOCs..

2009-08-02T13:46:00.002+08:00

It's the FOC period once again! The most fun period of the year..

Been to HSS FOC 2009.. it was fun as usual and I found myself leading another group of freshies from 1990 for the gals and 1988 for the guys.. had some wild and fun time and was totally drained and shagged out..

Now getting ready for hall camp.. hope it will be a blast too! Getting ready and gearing up.. feeling very happy this period.. seeing everyone and meeting lots of interesting and new friends! I believe FOC's success and funness lies in the freshies.. and every year you see a different type of freshmen that creates a different culture.. nice! I wonder how hall camp will be..

I just hope my body can take it.. think im getting old already..

Change is constanf..

2009-07-13T01:45:00.002+08:00

I know that I have not been blogging for a while. Apologies. Sometimes there's too much to do and too little time, sometimes there's time but I can't think of meaningful events to jot down. I guess life has been simple for me and hence there isn't any big major events that shock me. I prefer it somewhat; routines and repetitive schedules.

But still, to summarize what has been happening so far for these 3 months, basically I have been:

1. Taking Special term 1 from may (right after semester 2 exams) to 10th june (Special term exam)
2. Playing from 11th june onwards right up till this day
3. Upcoming orientations so going to get really tanned, out of voice and shagged

Yup that's about it. Playing (pt. 2) can be further broken down into clubbing, pubbing, gaming, suppering, stay-overs, gossiping, gatherings and more. The list is not exhaustive and sometimes the events happen concurrently. I like how things are now, at least I have not touch any material with words and economics rules on it. That's really an achievement! =)

Anyway, one last point before I end. I realize that, no matter how hard I tried to deny, ignore, act ignorant and pretend, I have changed. I do not know whether this is a good or bad thing, but it's a certain thing. Change is constant. People DO change eventually I guess, I looked back at Jackson in the past and marvelled at numerous silly things that I did; how did I ever find the courage to do them? I must be really crazy. Did a lot of silly and foolish stuffs. Made quite a number of mistakes and upset many people. Jackson has not been a very popular kid I guess. Even I myself would not like Jackson as my friend. Tsk tsk. Why did I ever act like that?

exams again..

2009-05-29T02:02:00.002+08:00

exams coming again..

this time I'm studying alone when most of the people are enjoying their holidays. Special semester don't feel good when it's ending. Hope 10th June can come fast so that my REAL holidays can start.

I don't remember my last special semester to be so taxing. It seems pretty ok in my memory. How come this time so stress? Is it because of the module I'm taking? Accounting is shag, super underrated for a 3AUs course. It should be 10AUs or something. Everytime lessons say end 5 end up end at 6. Always drag and so much work to do. Sigh.

Just get it over and done with, want to have some real rest.

once again..

2009-05-04T18:25:00.002+08:00

Once again exams come and exams go, though they never fail to come again. Normal semester has come to an end with my conclusion of exams on 27th april last monday. Ever since I make full use of every minute to play as much as possible in this fruitful week. After all, one is never too tired to play right?

Within this week between the moment they announced "you may leave the hall now." till today when special semester starts again, I've been to town and harbourfront once again after cooped up in this palau for long. I've finally seen a movie in a cinema instead of a computer screen! Also, sang K (always a compulsory activity after exams) and went beerfest to swim in the embrace of alcohol. Visited pitstop cafe to play mind-boggling games (I don't know why I still want to use my brain after all the wear-and-tear during exams), and attended 2 birthday celebrations; one being a lunch and the other being a party. Lastly not forgetting returning to home sweet home. Life is good this week. Enjoy.

Well of course special semester starts today and the vicious cycle moves on. Though reluctant, I guess I will have to take my brain out again. Went for the 1st lecture today and realize that accounting is not the kind with a breeze, which mocks at my reluctance somewhat. There are still programmes lining up these few weeks and I'm starting to wonder if I'm packing up my schedule too quickly? Perhaps I should spend some time with the fat lady lying in my bookshelf call MB101.

On a more social note, the ending of this AY marks the ending of the 1st half of my university life. Sad. The hands of time can never be slowed. I'm already half done and I don't feel like I played enough. Want to play more! Always wanted to play like there's no tomorrow but tomorrow always catches up. Sigh~

Enjoy the moment as it is. Live for the moment! Speaking of which, perhaps on this argument on a second thought, the fat lady should wait =)

argh..

2009-04-06T17:57:00.003+08:00

Next week is exams. The pressure is immense. The torture is unbearable. Having so many information stuck in my head is painful and I can't wait to get it out after the paper. I wish that the paper was there the moment I finish studying. So I can get it over and done with instead of bearing until next week and by then some information would have leaked out.

27th april is end date. I await desperately.

Tuesday..

2009-03-31T22:32:00.002+08:00

Marketing presentation went ok. Luckily there's still a ray of hope in my life amidst all the bad stuffs.

Sometimes I really hope life would be simpler. If I were a flower by the roadside and not a human, then I wouldn't need to care about all this right? Such complicated matters. Sigh.

If being a happy-go-lucky joker = childish, and people don't like chidish people, so shouldn't I stop being childish and stop being the joker? No point being funny anyway.

All the best for exams!

Friday..

2009-03-27T21:19:00.001+08:00

Finally! It's friday!

The dreadful week is over. Handed in some papers and met some deadlines. Now all that's left is marketing presentation next week.I kind of like this blogging exercise actually, started off as a obligation for me but now I'm looking forward to penning my thoughts down at the blog. Helps me to reflect and flush out those negative feelings. Looking forward to a studious weekend ahead.

With the exam cloud looming overhead, stress is in the air.

P.S. Been participating in some psychology research recently that involves blogging.

Wednesday..

2009-03-25T12:22:00.000+08:00

It was a normal day for me at school, too tired as usual to think about other things other than academic.

The day made itself difficult for me. I sort of flopped a quiz which I studied very hard for, and that it totally demoralizing, and I had troubles with my marketing presentation. What a stressful week, and I didn't even have time to start studying yet.

I really dislike exam periods in the university. Although university life is rather fun, it is periods like this that make us all feel very miserable. Argh.

monday..

2009-03-23T19:39:00.001+08:00

It was a rather regimental day for me as I went ahead with the tasks for the typical school day. Going about lectures and tutorials and rushing for those venues. It's one of those days that you get pass and then pondered what you actually did because you didn't have time to process it.

However it was rather enjoyable with good company over those boring lectures. I enjoyed marketing lectures every monday because it was less technical and I have great company whom I can chat with, although I'm not suppose to talk during lessons. We had a lot of fun and I really hope time can slow down for us all. As everyday went pass I would hope that I was at the previous, but few can turn back the hands of time.

I have a quiz tomorrow so I hope everything will be okay. Endless quizzes and papers. Gosh, when will this ever end?

deadlines are so alive..

2009-03-16T01:42:00.002+08:00

Well, so goes another week.

Exams are looming overhead once again. Pressure is starting to build up, but by now it would be the 4th time for me experiencing this vicious cycle of the academic life. Shouldn't be too surprised about the stress and all.

Openhouse theme for NTU this year is "L.I.F.E at NTU". Stands for Learning Is Fun and Exciting. I guess exams are fun and exciting as well? Life in NTU as a student sure is fun and exciting right? Yeah right.

It was held yesterday. Went over to take a look after my project meeting. However didn't really see anyone familiar there even though the male's batch coming in this year would be my batch (1988), strange. It seems pretty happening though, with the freebie giveaways and the nice ambassadors and helpers around. There were new courses available too! Cutoffs for this year still remained high overall. I guess it is quite hard to get to uni after all, well at least not that easy. CCA booths were also up, with the various exciting stuffs to join. Even the halls are propped up for visits and campus tours.

Not bad in general. I still feel a sense of belonging being a student here. I guess uni life is indeed an unique experience. Should have it like 8 years so as to spread out the stress and also have more fun. Well wishful thinking is allowed right? =P

fine and dandy..

2009-03-10T01:41:00.002+08:00

No worries no worries..

I was just ranting I suppose. The world continues to turn and nothing has yield to me. I suppose I still have to live on.

So I expect everything to be fine and dandy. That flowers will bloom and the sun will shine, everything will be back like before and I'm suppose to be happy and smiling. Normality, as it seems, has bred much contempt. Conversely, contempt itself has develop much familiarity to me.

Perhaps one day I will look back on this and realize that this is all gibberish. A truly happy man is one who doesn't hanker. I'm alright.. alright.

suffocated..

2009-03-09T00:57:00.002+08:00

I can't really breathe properly, and I can't find an avenue to let it out. It's choking me and this feeling is not nice at all.

I don't want any of this. But sometimes things are not within my control. After all if they are then there will be no unhappiness in this world right? Obviously I should have realize by now that there are few happy endings in this world. Maybe there are but maybe in my life there won't be any for me. What a sad reality to accept. Things never went smoothly for me and I'm always the onlooker for others' happily-ever-after. What more, I don't have a clue how to solve this problem.

Perhaps I'm going to be different. No more nice guy. The good guys always die first in reality. Furthermore I always talk too much, a big no no. Passive is the way to go nowadays.

Life seem to have lose its appeal for me. I no longer find any meaning other than living for the sake of living. Such a painful irony.

life..

2009-03-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

I suppose most of you have heard of the NTU stabbing case that happened yesterday right? Was quite shocked when my friend told me around 11am about the incident. I was still half awake and half alive from the saturated lecture previously when I learnt about the news. Later in the day when I went to library and saw the channel news asia report then I realise the seriousness of the whole thing.

Life and death is just separated by a thin thread don't you think?

Sigh. I suppose when you no longer find anything to live for in life, and that it has lose its meaning, then death won't seem so scary. After all we all have to die eventually, right?

One thing's for sure, living for the sake of living feels equally lousy. Ironic.

Valentines'

2009-02-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

It's valentines' all over again.

Didn't do much this year. Spent my day with hot babes in my room. I brought several of them in fact; there's labour economics, chinese economy and even marketing. Each one a different genre. Hot!

I do hope the saying is true though, that there's always this other half meant for you waiting somewhere out there. Honestly it feels a bit chilly in hall, and for a moment there I thought loneliness dropped by my room. Am I such a lousy catch?

Today..

2009-02-15T22:29:00.003+08:00

This is a backdated post.

Today (13/2/09) I sent a close friend off. She went australia to further her studies. It's not my first time sending people off at the airport and I know it won't be the last. Nevertheless it's always heart-wrenching to see people go, especially those that matter to you. For those that are reading this post, can you tell me whether sending people off is more painful? Or watching your dear ones send you off being worse?

Today we bid her farewell in sync
Today we embark on new steps we think
Today we reminisce deep from our hearts
Today we seem yet so far apart
Today we appeared smiling and waving
Today we camouflaged our begging and wailing
Today we had no courage to say such
Today we miss Su Xian very much

Today we bid her farewell together
Today in our busy lives we gather
Today send her off to a faraway land
Today our eyes all filled with sand
Today confusion swarmed our minds
Today we affirm she'll just be fine
Today our thoughts silently concur
Today we pray that god bless her

Today our heartiest meal we dined
Today our chattering came sublime
Today we tried postulating tomorrow
Today we promise to devoid of sorrow
Today so goes the hand of time
Today so fast has left us behind
Today we pen down our thoughts with rhyme
Today saw the friendship contract we sign

Today we bid her farewell it seemed
Today our memories all flood in
Today we'll always remember a friend
Today onwards we'll miss her rant
Today we tie the inseparable band
Today we press on hand in hand
Today filled lives with spectrums of feel
Today we realize we can't live without you

Today we bid her farewell within
But remember from today, a new chapter begins..

the clown..

2009-01-11T14:03:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been to a circus?

There are lots of attractions to watch and every one of them will satisfy your viewing pleasures at the end of the show, much less say the clown. The clown, ever so funny, always doing silly things that cracks the audience up. They put up a smile, literally with those thick make-ups, juggling balls and falling over them, make a fool of themselves in exchange for the audience's happiness. If you ever notice, the clowns always come up at the beginning of the circus show or at intervals between those daring acts to serve as an appetizer to entertain the audience, it's their purpose anyway.

But at the end of the day, it's always the flying Dutchman, the tiger that jumps over the ring of fire, the muscle hulk who can lift all weights and the cannon man who fires out of it that conjure the most applause from the audience. The circus can never do without them yet the clown is all too dispensable. The clown can never be as spectacular as any one of them even though he may yearn to be. At the end of the day he knows that his sole job in the whole show is to make a fool of himself time and again to make way for those real acts later. Then again, how many of the audience actually remember the clown at the end?

Maybe that's why the clown needs a really thick make up to draw a smile on his face. After all, who can be happy making a fool of himself? Have you ever seen a clown after shedding his make-up? Few have. The audience never know what the clown looks like, or how he feels deep beneath. Perhaps it is best that they remember the clown as the always happy guy who never fail to put on a smile.

I would suppose it takes a lot of courage and endurance for the clown to act smiling when he's not, to give it all up for the audience. We must give him some credit though, he's really good in what he's made for: making a fool and making others laugh. Even though that's nowhere near a daring act, he seems to have quite a bit of talent performing his silly stunts.

A clown that always puts on a smile: a truly ironic scene indeed.

a brand new year 2009..

2009-01-10T13:56:00.002+08:00

a brand new year has come, in fact it has already been 1 week into the new year.. time flies i guess..

my bday passed too! just like that.. it fell on a wednesday and thus had school, in fact wednesday's my most tiring day: 6 hour non stop lectures plus the day starts at 0830. Hence spend most of my bday in lecture theatres with the notes and lecturer.

the people in hall did give me quite a surprise though, and I was very touched by their efforts. As you would have conjecture I didn't plan anything for my 21st, so the hall surprise was the only thing I got on my actual day. I only live once and I will never forget that day, truly touched =). To summarise it they strap me to a chair and dyed my hair (including the ones on my leg) and caked me a little. Dirty good fun I guess, now if I don't smile I look like a gangster, or should I say lion? But anyway I would have liked it even if they dyed it any colour, it's the thought that counts right?

Hence want to thank the hall peeps, ying and all who remembered my birthday! You all have made my life and I would have no regrets with friends like you all. I would also like to wish Jeanne, Wensen, Lynette and pearly who are all jan babies. Happy birthday to us!

I really hope this year would be a happy year for me. =)

lonely christmas..

2008-12-24T19:48:00.002+08:00

It's christmas eve today, currently 7.56pm. I'm sitting here on my chair in my room, in fact I've been doing so the whole day today. Didn't go out nor have any programmes on. Not that I don't want to, but I guess all my friends are busy creating romance with their other halves or they have stuffs on outside too. I looked out of my room window to confirm my suspicion, and sure enough my room is the only room to have the lights on; everyone's out. Sigh, pathetic me.

It's 8.03pm now, I went to the kitchen to cook instant noodles for dinner and am now back on the chair continuing this post. When I stepped out of my room just now the cold winds swept pass the whole foundations of the hall. Seems to bring on some untold sorrow. It's exceptionally cold this christmas, or maybe it's just me. I surveyed the whole hall again to see if anyone's around on my way to the kitchen. Not a soul. I could almost laugh in sarcasm at myself: haha Jackson eating instant noodle in his room on christmas eve and probably christmas also. Perfect! Suddenly there's a knock on my door, let me minimise this window first..

Back. Now it's 8.11pm. A hall friend of mine just came by to say hi and chit chat. He's going out in a while to party and has a little time to spare since he did his preparations a bit early. Sheer coincidence? Or maybe heaven seems to make a sport of men. Now I'm feeling just great!

It's starting to drizzle again now at 8.20pm. At least now it's not so quiet with the trickling of the raindrops accompanying me, and not forgetting my good buddy the radio. Well now I guess I better finish my noodles and watch a few movies and maybe head for bed. Another year has gone by. Merry christmas everyone!

i noe..

2008-12-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

jackson noe jackson shud be happy since holidays are here rite? no stress no studies no sadness.. Jackson u ought to be thankful and be happy.. learn to be contented with what u have k.. shudnt be too greedy to ask for more o..

dun always be so greedy and keep asking for things that u noe u cant get and ask for things that are beyond your control.. sometimes shud believe in fate and maybe, wats not urs is not urs.. noe ur limits jackson dun expect too much le k..

juz enjoy the holiday and smile in front of ur frens =) all will be well in e end, after all thats wat pple always say rite? all will be juz fine.. remember.. dun expect much.. dun care about anything le since jackson got nothing to lose in e 1st place.. k?

i noe i noe.. but y i still commit such mistakes.. sighhhh..

over..

2008-11-21T14:27:00.002+08:00

after much ordeal, after the mundane and stressful period in the dark tunnel.. finally i have reached the light at the end.. finally we prisoners can be released.. and although i can't say that i did well, im juz glad that:

IT'S OVER!!!!

P.S. apologise for not updating recently, inside dark tunnel no internet reception ar..

tired.

2008-10-19T02:01:00.002+08:00

Suddenly got the urge to scream~ but then again felt too tired to let out any sound..

tried to blog but can't think of anything anymore.. it took me staring at the screen 10 mins to realise that im too tired to feel tired.. i guess im human too *sigh*

tired.

argh!

2008-10-16T15:04:00.002+08:00

1. counting down 1 mth.. stress and strain's starting to build up.. argh!

2. fallen sick on monday.. recovering though not to worry XD.. trying hard to catch my running nose.. lol..

3. tired. year 2's no fun at all.. haha..

4. very glad to receive ping's call last night.. had a great chat and felt very honoured! Thanks ping!

5. wishes han to be happy and carefree! happy belated 19th bday o! *smiles* 4gt me not!

that's all for now den.. =) add oil everyone!

worried..

2008-10-02T23:42:00.002+08:00

recess week zoomed pass juz like that.. din even have time to realise that it was here..

so starts sch again and more quizzes and projects coming.. okay la luckily not all at once.. only left 1 more quiz next week and a project due in a month..

but that quiz is getting me very uneasy.. the lecturer warned us that the module has a "high fail rate" and there is going to be "little moderation" as quoted.. lol.. true enough because i actually got to know a year 3 senior who's doing it for a second time already.. =X

this is very worrying especially for me who is not very mathematically inclined.. usually econs write essay smoke thru still okay.. but this is stats and regression and it's quite disgusting.. like F maths standard last time in JC..

i shall hope for the best.. maths also cannot study de ma rite? must practise..

*prays* shud be alrite la hor? this is the oni quiz and it constitutes 20% =X

recess week XD

2008-09-21T15:21:00.002+08:00

recess week has come to town!!! *jumps* finally some time to rest our tired souls.. okay la i know everyone of us sure have lots of catching up to do BUT at least we're not timetable-bound this week rite? so at least can wake up later and not have to drag ourselves to school.. at least most of us dun have to.. =(

which here i want to lament: y do i still have tutorials during recess week?!? =( bo bian lo tutor says so.. haiz.. some more is the monday morning tut which is totally full of blues.. bleahz..

okay la dun complain so much.. so far have been resting well and keeping myself in good mood~ must live each day to the fullest and treasure all the loved ones around.. sometimes impulse is good.. when u think and think and hesitate and dun do it in e end u actually miss out a lot of good stuff! so juz do wat u wanna do and dun think too much!

take care o darren.. stay strong! we're all here by u.. same goes for danielle.. must rest aplenty and not think too much le k! =)

*wishes speedy recovery for stefe*

monday blues..

2008-09-15T12:04:00.003+08:00

another monday.. and not juz any monday.. on 0800 of a very cold and rainy monday i have to drag myself out of bed into the cold winds and and freezing tap water.. and drag my feet all e way to LT28 to realise that.. the lecturer was late once again.. haiz.. okay juz my usual complaining because my normal wake up time is like 1300-1330 if i were to wake up naturally.. yawns..

which brings me to my next point! Yes! recess week is coming to town~ (lalala singing to the tune of "santa claus is coming to town").. looking forward to the last week of sch XD.. even though i noe that it's not meant for playing.. but the tot of waking up late never fails to thrill me..

rainy mid autumn this year.. cant get to see the clear moon.. haiz.. heard today's gonna be rounder though.. keke =)

happy happy bday!!!

2008-09-07T23:04:00.004+08:00

today's 3 pple's bday! happy bday to 1. Dina (20th), 2. Fang Ling (19th) and 3. Yi Qi (19th)!!! Hope everyone has enjoy this lovely sunday and may the monday blues never come o! okay la if u pon lessons means no monday blues rite? oops!

trying to test out the upload image function after cherie told me to upload some photos.. so here it is: a pic taken during ming hui's 21st bday celebration last week..

manage to see it ma? haha.. yea.. will upload more in the future de..

*dreads* school again tml.. haiz.. quizzes next week.. argh.. haha.. o wells.. cares everyone!!!

happy bday to min hui =)

2008-08-31T16:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday was min hui's bday party at her residence at yun nan crescent (very near school)..

went there with the econs peeps.. wow her house is huge! 3 storeys landed property sia.. i lost count of the number of plasma TVs in her house and there's even a K box room at the 2nd floor with sound system and song dedication systems and all.. is reli like K box where u dedicate the song by pressing numbers den u sing the MV when it comes up.. imagine installing one of that in ur house.. shuang! haha we sang and sang until dinner time.. but couldn't continue because her other frens took over the room.. lol.. can see that everyone's amazed and wants to have a go at the mic.. haha.. is like relay like that everytime u go sure got someone inside singing de..

there's jacuzzi at the 3rd floor with steam room equipped.. lol! steady rite? and her masterbed room is the size of my house's whole floor lo.. haha okay maybe it's juz me frog in the well la.. but i was reli amazed at the decor and everything.. very cosy and posh.. did i mention there's CCTV installed in her house also? =P

ok la back to the party.. i saw some pioneer peeps as well.. turns out that min hui comes from BPGHS so those were her sec sch frens.. and many BPGHS pple went PJ after that so looks like a very small world.. lol.. me and alvin were there identifying all the PJ pple.. ok la not reli a lot.. about 4.. but there were a lot of BP pple.. saw ming na too!!! *waves* haha.. very happening and fun with all the picture taking and singing and talking.. keke.. overall a very enjoyable and pleasant evening! thanks and happy 21st to min hui!!! keke..

other than that the week has been rather normal.. studying lo.. i guess it happens to everyone ba.. like my frens told me "u cant possibly stay in FOC mood forever de ma" true true.. gotta study a bit here and there le.. haha.. normal can be good sometimes.. but somehow i dun seem to get enuf rest.. there's still the gossiping every night in hall.. oops! guess that's considered normal???

we are going to the school school school..

2008-08-27T20:24:00.002+08:00

4th week.. getting harder and harder, getting more and more blur =X

so last saturday 23rd august was my hall's dinner and dance at M hotel.. it was spectacular! well.. it is a dnd so ur suppose to go there and eat like wedding banquet style and then see pageants and take lots of photos of your glamour selves! o ya which reminds me.. the theme's glamour.. haha

took lots of pics but haven get them yet.. haha.. after that some went clubbing some got book hotel room so go up gossip and some went downstairs bar to drink.. haha.. happening and memorable evening.. and the most happy news to me was that my OG's pageant contestants Hui heng and Tong tong won!! Hui heng was hall king and mr photogenic, Tong tong was hall queen and best freshmen! and to top it all up like chocolate icing on the ice cream, Yu yan, my OG freshie who din go hall dnd that evening because she was selected in NBS (nanyang business school) dnd which took place on 23rd too so she cant split.. she won too! NBS queen and miss photogenic~ so i have 2 queens and 1 king in my OG now.. EXTREME!!! lol.. juz very pleasantly surprised.. i guess act blur live longer reli is effective huh.. because that was our OG motto.. lol..

yea.. tonite rina (hall fren) bday.. gonna dunk her in the pond soon! *evil laughters*.. scandals and rumours aplenty around hall!

2 weeks..

2008-08-17T14:18:00.002+08:00

school reli zooms by.. 2 weeks of schooling passed juz like that.. life slowly returns to the normal boring and mundane pace ever since the orientation period.. back to books and lecture notes and tutorials.. sort of looking forward to next year's orientation period already.. though that would have to wait for 2 semesters to pass first.. it's like a cycle of uni life.. from august when school starts till next year april when sem 2 ends.. den long holiday den orientation period and then the whole calendar repeats itself AY after AY.. i can see myself so vividly this time last year when i was a freshie.. doing almost the same thing.. having fun, not doing tutorials, having a happening hall life and meeting lots of new pple and making new frens.. the oni difference is that i dun get lost in sch anymore and not as blur about admin stuffs.. but the feeling is the same.. it's like i can already see myself here this time next year, and the year after that.. doing almost the same thing still.. going thru the cycle.. i dun even noe if it's good or bad.. BUT i do know that every year is so similar yet different in that although the things u do are the same, u meet different pple every year and i guess thats wat makes uni life a truly memorable one..

had my fair share of fun this year.. apart from attending 2 FOCs, i also went to joint hall bash (jash) at zouk at 4/8, had gossiping and the classic HTHT (heart to heart talk) in hall almost every night and foregoing tutorials.. heard lots of scandals coming up (after FOC period is very normal one la).. and in hall news spread like wild fire.. lol.. went to chalets and parties and next week's hall's DnD (dinner and dance).. something like hall scale prom nite.. so it's all happening again.. keke.. now u noe wat im talking about? it's the same activities year after year..

oh.. and pple are getting attached everywhere.. i guess it's normal after FOC period as well.. happens year after year.. haiz..

1st week..

2008-08-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

sorry for the delayed update.. last week was at hall's freshmen orientation camp so my whole week was burnt rite till sunday.. den of cuz i slept that day away because i slept less than 10 hours in total from last monday to saturday due to the super shagged programme.. hence i sorta "stumbled" into the new semester in a blur and sub-conscious state.. lol.. not forgetting completely burnt physically.. oops!

well.. shall summarise hall camp here.. the classic programmes are still there, programmes like fright night, secret pal (SP), initiation games, field games, night games, sentosa beach games and SRC pool games are all present..

the only more special ones are the cluedo and finale night.. cluedo is of cuz the freshies have to solve the mystery of the murder and go various stations around the hall to watch the seniors put up a good act and find clues along the way.. the underlying objective is of cuz to get them to be familiar around the hall because there are lots of link bridges to link the blocks together and moreover all the blocks look the same (trust me they reli look the same) and hence some freshies even wandered off to the wrong block and got lost in some corners of hall 16.. yeap.. when i was a freshie i got lost too.. it's like a maze because of the weird terrain on which the blocks are built.. shan't go too deep into that.. yep.. it was quite a success and the freshies looked impressed.. yay!

the finale night's also special because it's at SIA sports complex.. i dunno where's that also.. 1st time going there during the finale night.. and it's special because the theme is pyjamas party! there's booze and food and mattresses for us to lie on while eating/playing games among ourselves/gossiping/watching the jam band perform/play silly forfeit games.. quite fun! wat a night.. when i was a freshie i din get all these lo.. haha.. can see that they had fun la.. they look so young and fresh and untainted.. suddenly i realise im so old already.. how i wish i dunno anything about uni.. den i can feel like a freshie again.. i dunno y but it feels good to get lost around school and learn to use STARS all over again.. o wells..

yep.. so sch's started.. in fact one week's gone already! o ya.. happy national day everyone!! haha enjoy e long weekend!! 1st week nth much la.. juz add/drop period and the no-tutorial week.. so far so good.. but this semester i taking more modules than my last 2 semesters.. dunno can cope or not.. hope everything goes well for me den.. keke.. that shud be all for now.. at home recuperating at the moment.. cough cough faster go away!

o ya.. and i wan vion to be happy o! =)

hall camp.. counting down again!!

2008-07-26T15:21:00.002+08:00

okay.. sorry for the slow update.. was recuperating/gearing up again for hall camp next week.. unfortunately came down with a sore throat yesterday.. hope can recover by monday.. need to use a lot of voice next week for shouting and cheering so have to store up for now.. trying to talk as little as possible although i think the attempt was futile.. oops! juz cant close my mouth eh..

haha.. so as i was saying these few days was preparation for hall camp.. called up the freshies to brief them about next week and learned the mass dance so that we can teach them during the camp.. the dance was hard.. because the song they chose was very fast.. techno kinda fast.. "everytime we touch" by cuscada.. yep the techno one with all the bass and electronic background music.. relatively tough for a mass dance in my opinion.. lol.. it looks reli nice when u get everything correct and with the beat but because the song was so fast i usually got lost in e middle and end up tangling my hands and legs together.. oops! but okay la now learn finish already.. hope everything will be alrite next week *prays*

had TORCOs (HSS FOC 08 OG) outing on thurs!!! it was a blast! had sooo much fun match-making.. *ahemx* i mean K-boxing with the freshies.. oops! haha.. dining together and gossiping about the ever-present mars VS venus issues of guys and gals.. love the vigorous debate and the funny conclusions/analogies that we end up with.. lol remember the car park analogy? no coupons no parking ar.. wahaha.. love them to bits.. wat a cute and cosy bunch of pple.. think will join back FOC again next year.. =)

watched the dark knight with stefe (sry for being late!) and serene and her boy boy on wed too! haha it was 2.5 hours of thrill!!! nice! it's not those typical kinda action packed movies whereby every scene has explosions or computer graphics etc etc.. there are lots of dialogues in between where u can reli see the actors' acting skills and i must say joker is reli good man.. when a bad guy can act until everyone hates him and thinks he's psycho.. den he has acted the character successfully.. lol.. actually in my view a villian is harder to act compared to the good guys.. dun u think so? nevertheless 2 thumbs up at cheek~ must watch!

*heaves a sigh of satisfaction* o wells.. this holiday has been rather fulfilling for me.. i studied special sem, met up and catch up with frens, attended chalets, prepared and enjoyed orientations and made lots of interesting pple, slacked of cuz.. and juz enjoy the simplicity of happiness.. the oni imperfect, if any, was that.. SCH'S GONNA START!!! awww.. o ya which reminds me.. ellie's coming back next week o! haha.. yays..

tagged!

2008-07-20T17:58:00.002+08:00

oops! tagged by my sugar sis juney juney! so here are my answers:

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

I will be very hurt, since it's my lover, one who i trust. But i will tell her that i have faith in her and if she still loves me she will know what to do for the best of both of us. No point scolding and quarrelling la.. If i love her i will not push the scolding to her.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what will it be?

I don't have much dreams now le.. haiz.. if die die must choose then i hope i can find true love and be happy lo.. simple simple la..

3. What will your dream wedding be like?

Well.. juz a simple one.. under the starlit sky with a gentle breeze in the field.. looking into her eyes and whisper into her ears the magical words of feel..

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Actually yes.. haiz.. actually yes..

5. What is your ideal lover like?

One who can sense when im weak and needs her without me explicitly saying it.. simple.. one who loves me back..

6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?

I would choose to give. Loving someone. It feels satisfying when the love is returned. Though the risk of not returning my love is there too.. but i prefer to be the giving party lo..

7. How long do u intend to wait for someone you reli love?

No definite answer leh.. depends on the feeling~ (HK accent) if feeling gone le jiu gone la.. very impt factor o!

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached,what will you do?

Just move on lo.. i also cannot force.. I believe in fate a lot.. meeting the rite person at the rite time.. if im fated to be with her.. we will still be together after 1 big round de..

9. Is there anything that has made u unhappy these days?

well.. nothing much la.. plain old simple me..

10. Is being tagged fun?

eh not reli.. answering so many questions can be tiring.. lol..

11. How do u see urself in 10 years' time?

As i answered juz now i do not know what is ahead of me.. so.. ya..

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?

Family and all my dear dear frens!

13. What kinda person do u think the one who tagged u is?

Juney! my sugar sister! keke.. she nice and bubbly and she's happy and im happy for her happiness.. always takes care of me in school last time.. cheerful also..

14. Would you rather be rich but single or married but poor?

Eh.. married but poor.. money cannot bring into grave but memories can..

15. What is the 1st thing you do every morning?

Open my eyes lo.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?

Yes! my all and oni my 110%!

17. If you love 2 people simultaneously, what will you do?

I haven experience that before.. but i think i will not make a choice because if it's 2 people then it's oni attraction but not love..

18. What type of frens do you like?

Frens who cares about me when i care for them.. frens who will not wear masks in front of me and those who like me for who im lo..

19. What type of frens do you dislike?

huh? if dislike then still frens?

20. If you have to choose between love and frenship, which will it be?

Different league la.. like wat juney said.. they are both as important as one another.. so i would give 110% for both..

done!

back!

2008-07-20T15:44:00.002+08:00

back to the real earth from middle earth!!!!!!! HSS FOC 2008 rocks to the max!!!!!!!!

now now, where shall we begin? TORCO rocks!!!!!! we're the most bonded OG!!! woot woot~ *2 thumbs up at the cheek* the past 5 days from 14th to 18th has been breath-taking. First day we had NTU expedition, where we explored NTU campus all over again and night games whereby we played the candle fight and the classic HSS "big square game" passed down from year to year..

Day 2 was followed by the dirty dirty dirty.. fun fun fun field games!! ketchup curry sauce and fish sauce etc. etc. all mixed up on canvass sheet and we roll on it! yea dirty good fun =P.. got other classics like the peg game! dirty rite? dun worry.. after that pool games jump down SRC pool to clean ourselves up! haha.. dog and bone + tele match is a must de la.. needless to say.. at nite we have the fright, oops sorry ahemx i mean mambo nite~ lol! oops! yea.. cool and frightening, oops i mean happening~ haha.. know a lot of scary places around the sch now.. lol..

Day 3! Amazing race around singapore!! haha.. very funny! our OG's clue got a typo error.. it was suppose to be NS17 - bishan but the clue wrote NE17 - punggol.. haha so guess wat.. we went to punggol.. all the way there from NTU!!! super duper ulu la! field everywhere oni.. the MRT staff also more than the passengers there.. lol.. punggol and bishan got a lot of difference leh! so in e end search for 1 hr also cant find programmer.. called then found out.. lol.. but who cares? we had fun rite? yes! and that's all that matters!!!!

Day 4! sentosa + SP nite! haha.. sunburnt but neh mind neh mind! *index finger at temple and breast action* hehe.. games are very fun! of cuz got the classic HSS game of 300 seconds no NG!! haha use every year one.. lol.. the secret pal (SP) nite has improved this year! no longer in sch but at a romantic restaurant overlooking the sea at sembawang beach! quite serene and scenic.. keke.. again they have not enuf guys de la.. so all seniors have to play lo.. haha.. HSS ma.. lol..

Day 5! break camp day! haha performances + pageant + prize giving!! congrats to us for being the most bonded OG! and to veron for being the best female GL!! after that OG dinner at new york new york at Ehub! haha.. we took lotsa pics and juz refuse to go home!!! so many silly and funny poses~ haha.. pictures will be out soon o!

reli reli had a very fun 5 days with my TORCO!! woot woot!!~ (do the m1 advertisement pose) haha.. looking forward to hall camp too! but HSS FOC 08 has juz been superb! it feels so different to be a GL from being a freshie. GLs have a lot more responsibility and they look at the whole camp from a whole new different angle.. but at e end of the day when the freshies are happily bonded and when they thank u u juz feel like everything's worth it.. haha.. i think i will go try out as GL again! hehe.. love them to bits.. it's reli heartwarming to see them putting in effort to try and join the camp as much as possible! because got 1 freshie got accepted into NUS FASS in the middle of the camp.. nonetheless she went off to do her admin stuff and quickly came back! the travelling alone takes a toll on her (she lives in yishun and we're at sentosa so it's a 2 way trip to and fro).. moreover her parents want her to leave since she is no longer going to HSS.. but she insisted and came back! words cannot describe how i felt.. it was juz.. magical~

okay enuf about the camp, wooohooo! haha.. now for the answer to the psy question:

if u choose to starve till next morning, you're the kind that can put things down easily and not dwell on stuff for too long. yes u will still be affected with relationship hiccups but u will use ur logical thinking to quickly disperse that feeling and let ur brain take over. you will focus ur energy on positive stuff as much as possible to keep the problem out. However sometimes u give up too easily before even trying.. u never know, maybe if u had persisted things would have turn out very differently o!

if u choose to eat the noodle anyway you're on the other extreme end. sometimes when things go awry u juz choose to be the one suffering and gif in no matter wat. u think that as long as he/she is happy ur okay. ur not okay. giving in does not solve the problem, it oni aggravates it.. though they say determination is good, sometimes u need to look at the situation as a whole before making a decision. Maybe letting go doesn't seem so bad after all!

if u choose to find something to eat outside, your rather stubborn, but not to the point of dragging his/her leg when he/she walks off. You will persist for some time but when things reli seem like there's no other way out you will slowly back away.. however, ur emotions does not seem to match with ur actions.. though u will back off after some trying, u will reminisce and harp on what has been rather than look forward at what will be.. close the door behind and there will be many others in front.. ur more attractive than u think!

countdown..

2008-07-12T02:10:00.002+08:00

alrite.. so starting from next monday will be orientation period already.. *excited* haha.. last 2 days to HSS FOC 08!! reli looking forward to having some fun and letting our hair down! tml will be going out to shop with cheryl for some FOC stuffs and sunday will have the final meeting.. wow.. can u feel the heat?

yeap.. thats y i wanted to blog now because after this entry i may not be able to blog again soon.. hope everyone's doing fine o! o ya which means officially last 2 days before i become a senior~ =( *wrinkles wrinkles* o no.. i need SK2!!!

juz watched "what happened in vegas".. very nice show.. how hilarious the male and female lead try to make life difficult for each other.. but a touching ending.. seriously how often can we be in a state that we do not need to please the people around us so much such that we forget the joy of being ourselves? if you can be urself in front of the person and u like him/her.. dun let the opportunity slip by o.. remember the rose question? haiz..

speaking about questions.. yeap the answer to the cup noodle question will be out.. in my next post! haha.. okay la sorry sorry because quite long then have to type out properly ma.. pardon me pardon me =X i wish everyone well o! hey and ellie.. u shud start packing soon!

back to school as a year two~

2008-07-11T21:06:00.002+08:00

haha.. yep thats rite! holidays ending soon and after that it's back to school as a year two~ (hey that rhymes eh? and it oni rhymes with year 2 not 1 or 3 or 4) lol.. k la enough said.. later stefe =( again, dun say too much..

the roses question is to test whether you're a passive or active person when it comes to issues of the heart. Well obviously if you choose to pick the rose anyway you're more on the active side. You have rather good self esteem and you're confident that if you try hard enough you should succeed. More often than not, your positive confidence serves as your shining armor and actually pave your success! After all no one likes someone who doesn't like himself/herself right? However the down side is also with your confidence, if it gets way over your head then you become arrogant. Also, you tend to be rather impulsive and at times act rashly. In relationships sometimes withhelding can be a good tactic too! Do think twice before you act. If you say and do the right things and keep your confidence in check you're bound to be a women's man/gentlemen's lady!

If you choose to walk away, you're more of the passive side. That can be a bad thing, especially for guys since most of the time they have to take the first step right? You overrate the emotional issue at hand and keep on thinking that you're not fit for him/her and you can't possibly get him/her, hence losing the battle before it even started! Sometimes the other party may be waiting for you to act or drop a positive hint! You never know how close you actually are! To give you your due credit, you're very devoted. Though passive, once in a relationship you will make a very good partner and you couple will be the envy of everyone around you! Actually you just need to be more bold and be dare to show the other party the colour of romance!

Here's another one i got from the radio!

Let's say your famished and it's late in the night so all the nearby shops are closed. You rummage through your house and finally found 1 cup noodle! You're just about to start cooking it when you realised that it has expired for 1 week already. What will you do?

P.S. This is to test whether you can let go and move on easily in issues of love and relationships.

1. Don't care! Hungry just go ahead and eat.
2. Go out and try to find something to eat despite the wee hour.
3. Heck it! Don't eat already. Bear until morning.

Which will you choose? I would go for the first option. Answers out on next post! =P

clubbing~

2008-07-09T15:27:00.003+08:00

back in hall! haha.. tonight got Hall FOC meeting at 2030.. after that i think the bunch of us going double O to club because it's kian lin's bday! well not today la but we're celebrating it in advance.. haha my dear roomie kian lin must be a very happy man! bday's coming and his biggest present is.. getting attached! lol.. congrats congrats! he seems to be in a reli good mood these days.. i hope he stays that way always and i wish both of them well~ still so humble bluff me say he very nerd ah zai2 nan2 ah whatever.. act pig eat tiger sia..

speaking abt clubbing.. i haven been clubbing for a very long time le.. i think im too old for vigorous dancing already.. haiz.. recalled the JC times when i use to go.. haha okok i dun go often okay dun get me wrong.. juz more often than now only.. lol.. actually im not a fan of clubbing la.. nothing spectacular about dancing and hard liquors.. and i dun reli like the smoke in the club last time before the implementation of the no-smoking law in clubs.. everytime i went last time was because of the company.. go with frens ma.. like tonight also.. if not for roomie's bday i wont go also la.. o ya.. that reminds me.. i think i haven clubbed for a year plus le.. ohhhh~

end off with a tricky psychological question here: Imagine you like roses very much. You walked into a garden of roses and come across the most beautiful rose you have ever seen so far in your life. You like it very much and you could take it back with you alive, but in the process you may be hurt by the thorns. You know that the possibility of getting pricked is not negligible. Hence you have the option of still going ahead to take the rose despite knowing that you may be hurt very badly. Or you could go against your emotions and continue walking even though you like the rose very much. Who knows? Maybe there's an even more beautiful rose further down the road. But there's risk involve both ways because if you take this rose, you may or may not be hurt also because you can't predict whether you will be pricked by the thorns. On the other hand you also can't predict whether there's an even more beautiful rose down the road or whether this rose which you see now is the right one for you. Assuming you can't turn back once you move on, what will you do?

ouch ouch!!

2008-07-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

*body aching all over* ouch ouch! haha.. when i stretch also pain, sneeze also pain. Think is because i haven't reli been exercising, or izzit a side effect of the no-longer-freshman syndrome? Oh no feeling so old and stiff =( haha.. now that the freshmen list has come out, it really feels stale here as we seniors move on.. lol.. so cao4 shung1 (hokkien meaning of the foul smell that food emits when they gone bad).. nvm nvm! we're still freshmen for 1 more month! last month! okay thats so not useful~

ya so i was saying about the freshmen list right? was i? Oh no another symptom of the syndrome *argh!* short term memory.. lol.. ya.. the Humanities & Social sciences Freshmen Orientation Camp 2008 (HSS FOC 08) freshmen list has come out already! handling 18 freshmen together with veron and cheryl as an OG.. yay! As usual, more gals than guys. If i rmb correctly there're only 6 guys in my OG.. which means, 12 gals? hmm.. juz called and emailed them in the morning about the details of the camp next monday.. Thanks veron for helping me out! keke.. sorry i can't really multitask if you haven't already realised.. lol.. yep! this year we increased the intake for the FOC because of the increased manpower ba.. 6 OGs with an average strength of 18 freshmen per OG so that would mean about 108 freshies? yeap! *excited* think it's gonna be a lot of fun!!!!

*ouch* forgot that i can't jump for joy despite being excited because of my aching body~ haha.. speaking of fun, yesterday went for the milkrun 08 with ARK and NTU peeps! yeap in charge of the baggage deposit booth for the runners when they put their belongings with us while they go run. It was not very tiring to my surprise, but the fun's no lesser! haha.. did a lot of silly stuffs like pasting stickers on one another and fooling around.. lol.. for me, our lane paired up with a PJC class there who happened to be doing their CIP.. seeing my pioneer juniors (although they dunno me la because if u calculate i graduate for 2 yrs already so there's no way they will see me in pioneer), brings back a sense of belonging and ease.. reminds me of memories of my JC days when i did my own CIP with my class for the KDF.. somemore their subject combination also same as my class last time! Physics + Chem + Econs + Maths.. *sighs* fun.. simple fun~ after that went with my frens to eat dinner and then back to hall le.. fulfilling day indeed..

yeap.. o ya.. happy for my roomie! think he's a very happy man now.. congrats kian lin! u noe wat im talking about.. haha.. glad that ur fairy tale ended with "happily ever after".. i wish everyone well o~ *pokes ellie* lol..

well wishes..

2008-07-04T15:56:00.002+08:00

went out with ellie yesterday after her meeting in sch.. it ended quite late and i guess it was a tiring day for her.. so we din do much la.. juz sat down at a spot and talked, enjoyed the breeze and serenity and juz throw everything away.. followed by dinner and that's roughly about it.. enjoyed the simple yet fulfilling day with her.. it's been long ever since i dedicated a whole day to pure simplicity.. and spending the day with her like that, it reminds me that sometimes when we slow down and take a look around us in our journey of life, we will actually discover many things and people that are as important as, if not more than, our destination. Thanks ellie~ noe you will be very busy from next week onwards and i'm not sure when we can do this again.. nonetheless i wish you well and bon voyage! take care of urself o.. =)

played badminton this morning with roomie and frens from hall.. shagged.. think my body is rusting up due to the lack of exercise.. oops! *yawns*

a lot of freshmen are coming in for medical check-ups already.. showed sharon and qian shan around in hall yesterday.. han and seng also came today! haha.. feeling very stale already.. we're no more fresh fresh le.. seniors=X

STARS war..

2008-07-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

woke up early today to register subjects for next sem.. haven woke up so early for so long le.. now feeling lethargic.. lol.. 0930 the system open then we all flock in and click at the same time to get our desired course/tutorial timing.. STARS war all over again sem after sem.. ha..

got all the modules i wanted.. juz that timing of the tutorials a bit off because there were faster fingers than mine.. lol.. nevertheless managed to squeeze in a 4 day week.. yay! fri's free~ a bit xiong though nxt sem.. gee.. 4 cores + 1 major elective.. dunno can cope not.. *prays*

have u ever experience the feeling of thinking about someone? that when u see a picture, hear a song, listen to ur fren's conversation or juz sitting there in a daze your thoughts will juz relate itself back to that someone, even though the things that u perceive has totally no link with that person ur thinking of.. u juz think of him/her nonetheless.. the thinking is constant, and it grows and grows when u dun see that person.. wow.. amazing feeling isn't it? good and bad at the same time..

and when u finally see that person the thinking doesn't stop! u think about him/her even if they're juz in front of u! they literally take ur breath away and make u choke on ur own thinking until u dunno wat to think anymore.. u feel like ur heart's beating faster and slower at the same time, like ur weaker yet stronger (sounds familiar eh), that ur on the top of mountains yet at the bottom of seas.. ur whole world is within ur sight and when that person looks at u u juz feel so significant, yet again so insignificant.. feels.. unique.. rite?

and to top it off like a cherry on top of the milkshake, u gotta pretend that you're all normal and not thinking about whatever you're thinking.. simply magnificent~

powerhouse..

2008-06-30T17:08:00.002+08:00

recently went K boxing with the chinese peeps.. o credit goes to ling shan for organising! haha we went to jun jie's dim sum stall near redhill there to have lunch first before heading down to the safra chinatown $10 KTV.. woah.. jun jie's stall's dim sum is good! must go there eat again for sure! wa mouth-watering.. the prawn big big.. the dumpling skin chewy chewy.. and the porridge very smooth and sweet.. and his zhu1 chang2 fen3 is oh.. *like the mac advertisement* u noe de la! u noe de!

lol.. the KTV v nice also.. $10 free flow drinks + 1 bowl of shark's fin soup! and the songs more updated than i tot! lol.. o ya i was constantly impressed by the melodious voices of many.. wow we reli can sing v v well! haha.. an and weili have very powerful voices and the gals like xiaoqi, min, ellie and wan qi also sang beautifully.. had fun! we shud do this again soon! keke.. heard that sharon's parents also operate a BBQ stall and yan has roasted delights too! lol..

FOC getting nearer and nearer.. juz had hall's 2nd senior camp on saturday.. tired.. i think i too long never exercised already.. wake up the next day whole body aching.. now also.. sneeze/cough den stomach will very pain.. yawn den neck will pain (probably over-exerted the muscles during pool games) lol.. and stretch the shoulders will pain.. lol.. sounds like a fei4 ren2 rite.. haha.. but the weather nowadays very good for a dip in the pool la.. so juz nice can jump in the cooling water.. it's juz that the games a bit too shaggy.. swimming plus pushing and maneuvering gals on floats to play water polo is not an easy task.. lol.. ouch juz strained my thigh muscles.. pain also.. oops!

haha.. be well everyone! dun 4get to register for ur subjects o! keke..

life..

2008-06-30T01:43:00.002+08:00

came across something very interesting..

most of you would have heard the saying "true friends leave footprints in your life" right? So, if we look at this in a formula way:

every one of us = environment + person A + person B + person C + .....

every one of us would have a different formula. This is because the people that make up the components are different for each of us and there are different number of components for each of us as well! As for environment, obviously, the place/time we are born and live in shapes us as well!

Most of us, if not all, would have our parents in the formula. It's natural since they have been nurturing us from young and would have shape us in numerous ways.

Hence the interesting question. Ask yourself this question *turns on advertising voice*: what are you made of? If you were to name 10 people to form your formula, which 10 would come to your mind first? These 10 people are probably the ones that are very important in your life and you should very well tell them about it! Show them how important they are! It never hurts to make someone happy right? For all you know, you're in a lot of people's formulas as well!

yay!

2008-06-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

Alrite..

went back home on monday to get my laptop fixed once and for all.. a little bit tired at first because it's not light and i have to carry it all the way across the straits and back =X.. but o wells i guess it was worth the trip as long as i get it back working again.. finally have technology back in hall.. no more caveman!

one very strange and uncanny thing though.. sorta too coincidental to be coincidental.. lol.. when i went back i tot i could use the desktop at home at least.. but just so happens that the desktop broke down too! omg.. when the repairman came he checked and found out that the RAM board got loose and fell out.. that's why the com couldn't respond at all.. now, how often do u encounter a board in the CPU that gets loose and falls out? this is where it gets chilly.. too strange that such an unusual event occurred at the same time my laptop's down.. unless i'm wrong and boards falling out is a common breakdown cause in CPUs??? lol.. just felt that fate is a very powerful thing.. and heaven makes a sport of man.. hehe..

yeap.. so i'm back in hall and everything's up and running.. senior camp this sat and za's flying off on sun so we need to send her off.. wish everyone well!

uh oh..

2008-06-20T19:02:00.002+08:00

okie.. danny juz informed me that my laptop cannot start up even after reformatting.. due to some system password or something.. the question is 1) i did not set any password and 2) even if i did, isn't the whole point of reformatting suppose to wipe off everything and start afresh? how come still got some password? feeling a bit fed up.. but o wells.. it's 4 years old with me and when i bought it it's 2nd hand so i cant complain much can i? maybe it's time i source for a new lappy.. o btw im home so im using home's desktop.. lol..

juz received an email in my NTU webmail.. i think everyone would have received it.. basically it's saying that you must pay to study special term from AY08-09 onwards.. meaning special sem is no longer free.. omg.. im not sure how much it costs yet but there's a link in the email for detailed charges for those who wanna noe.. juz a bit disappointed that it's no longer free.. though i heard from my NUS frens that they need to pay to study special term right from the start, it's still surprising why NTU is following suit so soon.. o wells..

yesterday went singing with stefe and serene.. wow they've improved a lot ever since we last sang and they both sing very well! *claps* it's the holidays so happy slacking/pak toh-ing/shopping! haha.. basically juz enjoy la alrite..

oh! and ellie's back.. tired i heard, but still ellie-like and all lol.. rest and recover soon! i wish everyone well..

haiz..

2008-06-16T02:24:00.002+08:00

aiya..

my laptop juz crashed.. and wat a good time to crash juz when holidays juz started.. now i cant play games when i SHOULD be playing.. sobs.. suddenly realise how important technology is to us in the modern world.. these few days haven't been easy for me.. cant reli adapt to the disaster and i feel so vegetable without a laptop.. now sit in the room stoning watch the fan turning looking at the ceiling (hey that rhymes!).. lol im going nuts.. have to wait for danny (hall fren) to fix it for me.. i think may need a reformat =(

ellie's in indo le.. 5 days.. haiz.. when will she come back bring me go gai gai leh? *sighs* =(

holidays..

2008-06-16T02:11:00.002+08:00

ahh.. holidays truly begin now. Busy with everything else but studying.. lol.. come to think of it time passes by even faster now that we're enjoying ourselves. So fast 1 week after exam already.. omg.. and my days have been fulfilling so far.. gatherings/outings/dinners/FOC stuffs.. gees.. not bad for a start

gotten news that my fren's grandfather just passed away yesterday. My condolences. It once again affirms me that life is very fragile and unpredictable. That's why live each day like your last and never procrastinate things you should say/do.. there's a saying "live like you will never die and you will die like you never lived".. some things may seem hard to start doing or seem hard to tell the other person, but if you wait till tml and tml's no more, then no amount of regret can undone the negligence.. *sighs*

I reli hope that nese can stay strong amidst everything. Take lots of care ok! we're all here for you..

looking forward..

2008-06-09T01:33:00.002+08:00

ahh.. another new week begins.. this week marks the beginning of my actual holidays because after special semester exam ends means.. yays! after 11th june no more books for 2 months! yippies! *jumps*

which would also mean that my (our) year 1 in NTU is over.. seniors always tell us that year 1 is the year where we should "play like there's no tml.. wat is GPA? Guarantee Pass Already!" steady de la.. haha.. somehow i feel like i haven reli play enough.. wanna play more! but then when i look back also never reli study leh.. so if nv study nv play the time go where? haha.. actually time juz flies la.. well we shall not go into that mushy mushy topic today..

anyway these few days the talk of the town, or rather the whole uni, is results! ever since 5th june midnight everyone's been asking the question when they see one another! well.. some did okay some did not so okay.. and i have frens from both categories.. I myself did okay la.. as the saying goes content breeds happiness.. i'm content with my results because i dun think i studied a lot *oops* haha.. so.. can already lo.. jia you jackson!

anyway can foresee that my schedule will be quite filled with 2 orientation camps' stuffs, chalets and outings.. hope i can still breathe then.. anything but books.. rawr..

anyway ellie's going overseas soon for her WSC (CCA) stuffs.. 2 trips to 2 different countries actually.. bon voyage to ellie and i wish u well okay! trust me, ur a fine leader because ur one that leads from the heart.. that is a genuine quality matched by few.. i noe u can take the job well and grow strong from the experiences yea? i have faith in u and u shud in urself too o ok! be well~

everyone take care too! until next time den.. *poof*

gotta start studying =(

2008-06-03T18:03:00.002+08:00

just as the holiday mood starts to set in, here comes exam again to spoil everything.. lol.. special semester has nearly come to an end and following which is the final exam for business law! yeap yeap, exam's on 11th june so i guess this week going to ignore all the temptations of the mortal world and proceed to the mountains to seclude myself and train.. lol.. easier said than done.. haiz..

went to ikea to eat with SBL on sunday, wow you all should know de la ikea's famous for their meatballs! and their chicken wings are not bad too! i lost count of how many i ate, just vaguely remember that me and baby soloed one whole plate.. haha.. yeap it's superlicious! remember last time went ikea was with shu and jonathan and chloe, wonder how they're doing recently? hmm..

supposed to meet ellie for lunch yesterday but she had some last min celebration with her friends so.. o wells i guess it's fate la.. =) *pokes*

heard that NUS' results came out last week right? nese, mummy and daughter did quite okay. jia you jia you o! well as for us results coming out thurs! omg~ haha.. i'm not going to check im not going to check.. relac la results wont change better if u check 1st minute rite? lol.. *ok im juz consoling myself* sobs..

wish everyone well! cares!

heartwarming..

2008-05-30T22:50:00.002+08:00

So goes the week. Oh ya haven't really talk about what happened during last week's class gathering right? it was really great! =)

i was surprised that many turned up! in fact minus those who're overseas everyone turned up! yeap, there were 21 of us, and among the 5 who didn't come maine and jor are overseas. I heard that sheryl low and grace are overseas as well. For some exchange or community service event. Colin was suppose to come but he had some last minute stuff, aiyah so close to seeing him after so long, was quite looking forward to meeting him actually. Yeah so minus these few everyone was there. Words can't really describe the scene adequately, it just feels like things haven't really changed from graduation, we're still us and we still tease and joke around, yet in fact many things have changed. The guys are almost finishing their NS and the girls are already year 2 already! omg talking about just entering uni as a freshman not so long ago and now seniors-going-to-be already. Time flies, but what's heartwarming is that we still stick together and we still meet up from time to time like this. I was once again assured that JC times are way better than uni, and I never regret going PJ and entering S18.

So for the first time we actually ate steamboat outside the house at the lift area because there were too many of us and the tables are too long. Yeap that's right the lift area of the HDB block. People who came up the floor got a shock too to see a table of 20 people right outside the lift, but they were mostly hao's neighbour and so no one really had any objections. The guys would chatter about NS and the girls about academic and uni activities such as modules and CCA, after that we mingle around the steamboat and later around games like monopoly, cards and mahjong! woah! Bing Qin and Hansen can drive already! *excited* it was an unforgettable night indeed.

Other than that I also attended the Humanities and Social Science Freshmen Orientation Camp (HSS FOC) senior camp before going straight to hao's place. The camp's good too! We GLs bonded and had quite a lot of crazy fun. Now it really starts to feel like holidays! *laughs* Attended fright night, beach games and night games trial. This year intake for the camp going to double to 200! *looking forward excitedly* We dark side are really fun aren't we? Dark side~

Well so goes the week, lecturer's back from holiday and so business law lectures and tutorials resumed this week. Rushing through it now. Wow business seems fun and interesting but seems like hard to score. Certainly would be tough if I take it up as a second major right? hmm.. should relax life more right? Why stress yourself? *heave a sigh of relief* take care everyone!

fulfilling week..

2008-05-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

this week has been fulfilling so far.. i wont say busy la because the events distribute themselves nicely across the week, furthermore it's not studying so i sort of enjoy doing them also (well at least most of them)..

to summarise them all so far i have been to a movie at vivo with JC frens, accuracy of death to be exact.. a japanese movie and a very meaningful one.. not bad.. and then there's the hearty meal at esther's (hall fren) house.. boy her dad's culinary skills are superb! haha.. eating around with hall frens and going down to Kids United for peer tutoring to the kids there as the weekly visit of hall charity CCA resumes..

there's more coming.. HSS FOC (orientation) senior camp starts tml! 2 days 1 night of fun as we seniors bond and enjoy while trying out the programmes! very excited and very very looking forward to it.. did i mention i was very excited? lol.. then on saturday there's a JC class gathering at hao's humble abode.. heard there's steamboat and movie watching session! woah.. yum yum..

o wells.. among the fun there's a tinge of disappointment though.. hall application came out and this year's cut off weight is 15 for both genders! that's very high and difficult to achieve.. seen a lot of pple gotten the rejection email and wont be staying next year already.. omg.. i think a lot of pple will leave.. haiz..

nevertheless, let the holiday season sink in and enjoy ur holidays for those in uni! all e best and dun think too much for those applying for uni!

blogs..

2008-05-12T18:11:00.002+08:00

spent my day at home today.. finally have some time to do some leisure surfing on the net and more importantly, blog hopping to see how everyone's doing recently.. i realise i haven reli blog hop a lot due to exams and hall activities..

blog hopping also brings back fond memories.. when u see the things that ur frens blogged and the things that are happening around them now.. u tend to think back "last time JC we used to.." or "last time O levels period we used to.." and things start flowing back.. guess that's 1 of the most magical things about blogs..

yiting wrote on her blog that looking at ur own archives bring back fond memories too! i went to try it and it's true.. u will laugh at urself looking at those posts.. things u blogged last time.. i realise, contrary to my belief, that i did change a lot these 3 years.. not necessarily for the better but most certainly i did change.. o my..

talking about changes, i look at the pictures that my friends post together with their entries.. o they certainly grow up le.. even if it's just 3 years.. o! which means i too grow up le right? haiz.. time flies.. people grow up and people change.. no1 can deny that i guess..

but what's heartwarming is that i still remember all of my friends.. i wonder if they still rmb me? hmm.. kinda miss them.. the footsteps that they left in my heart.. i haven been able to contact some of them recently.. suddenly have the urge to call every one of them and "hey how u doing recently? nothing much la just call to chat chat lo.." but scare later frighten them.. haha.. o wells.. my Qihua frens, especially the 6L peeps. my Riverside frens, especially 2/10 and 4/7 peeps. my PJC frens, especially my 05S18 peeps. NTU chinese peeps. ur never forgotten..

and i realise 1 more thing.. compared to last time now i have been going out lesser.. izzit cuz i have less frens now? haiz.. maybe im thinking too much, maybe im forgotten, maybe i shud end here..

malaysia..

2008-05-11T16:36:00.002+08:00

yesterday the bunch of us from hall came to malaysia to play! haha.. because we have no cars thus we oni go city square walk walk oni.. nv reli go far la..

we went to some restaurant called sizzling stonegrill for lunch.. they give u a slab of hot stone and u place whatever u wanna grill on top of it.. be it meat or seafood.. they have a lot of variety to choose from from chicken chop to chicken kebab to salmon! the food comes raw and u can choose whether u wanna grill it urself or ask the staff to grill for u in front of ur eyes! gosh i never knew that stone can be so hot! once the fish is placed it immediately sizzles and gets cook reli fast! and the stone stays hot for very long! we chatted while we ate and we chatted some more after we finished eating.. and when we left the stone's still warm! overall not bad.. quite delicious and because it's in RM not it's not reli ex la rite? lol

we watched iron man after that.. nice show, cool effect, funny jokes and excellent acting.. those who haven watch yet shud go watch! not bad not bad.. not that i wanna be a spoiler, but is the original marvel comic storyline of iron man base on the afganistan thing too? they changed the storyline in the movie rite? rite? lol..

after that did some walking around followed by more eating at the ye4 si4 (street market) and desserts at Kim Gary (the HK actor who acted as ah wang's brother in ah wang xin zhuan HK serial drama) restaurant! their desserts are superb with the apple pulp ice kachang! no worries because they have an outlet in vivo also! i oni noe that yesterday.. lol probably cuz stay in NTU too long nv town already.. yeap yeap so can go try.. price is in S$ though.. the outlet we tried yesterday in city square their prices are the same as the singapore outlet but everything in RM so to us it's like 50% discount already.. plus got student discount of 10%.. haha i dunno y but they accept NTU matric card.. lol.. so to singaporeans it's like a 60% discount??? shiok la..

yeap.. think i shud be going back hall on tues or sth.. feels good to be home.. o and to all mothers out there.. happy happy mother's day!! cares everyone!

complicated

2008-05-11T15:55:00.002+08:00

imagine ur in this clique.. mixture of guys and gals.. 1 of the guys in the clique like 1 of the gals in the same clique.. however the gal doesnt like the guy and oni treats him as a good fren.. one day she trashed things out with the guy and told him that she felt very uncomfortable with him liking her.. and that rejection made the guy very sad and heartbroken.. imagine ur in this clique.. both the gal and the guy r ur good frens.. however u cant ask the gal to simply accept the guy cuz love cannot be forced.. u look at the guy but u seem so helpless.. the oni thing u can do is let him release his emotions and cry his heart out.. u noe the exact reason y he is so sad but u cant make him feel better because it's beyond ur control..

im in this clique..

that nite i went over to accompany the guy when he's feeing down.. watching him drowning his sorrows in alcohol, watching him banging his fists on the floor, laughing and crying at the same time like a man who lost his sanity.. rolling and lying on the floor like one who has given up all hopes of life.. there's a famous saying "a drunkard's drunkness is not within the booze" well if he can get so drunk on a few bottles of heineken im sure it's not the beer.. one who chooses to remain drunk will remain drunk on water.. i suddenly realise 1 thing:

to love is painful..

i always feel that to love is better than to be loved..but now i reli have my doubts.. love is complicated.. it's never simple in the first place. yet the human mind is weak.. despite us knowing that it will hurt.. most of us fell for it nevertheless.. it's hard to confess, it's hard to deny, it's hard to abstain.. so inconclusive yet so inevitable.. *sigh*

so that nite.. the oni thing i cud advise him was "give time.. let time heal everything.. give both of u some space". such a feeble comment.. even i, at the moment i say it out to him, know that this is the most useless comment.. but i dunno wat else i can say..

F.I.R - xu yao ni de ai.. perhaps a song can complement where no words can accomplish..

FOC senior camp..

2008-05-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

phew.. wat a busy week.. busy with everything else but study.. oops.. k la k la i admit.. busy playing.. lol.. special term 1 starts this week.. and after 2 lectures and tuts of business law i start to realise that biz law is interesting because there is no definite right and wrong answers.. as long as u can justify wat u say u can argue anything.. wow.. looks quite fun.. but this kinda modules usually hard to score one.. lol.. we'll see how.. but 1 thing that's certain is that special sem is very intense.. 2nd lecture already form groups and give group assignments le.. so for those who take special sem try your best not to pon ok? *sayang sayang* lol..

last saturday was hall's freshmen orientation camp(FOC) senior camp.. held at sentosa.. tiring and fun day it was! we tried out the beach games and the legendary fright night which took place in the dragon trail.. the beach games was shag with the scorching sun draining our energy and burning our delicate skins on top of all the running.. they're fun though with all the stupid ball games with no balls.. haha u shud noe la FOC games wont be normal de.. always have the weird touch in the rules of those games.. wont say too much about those here.. those who joined FOC shud noe.. those who din, experience it!

oooO fright night.. i must say the trail is very very dark.. they oni use light sticks to guide our way.. green light sticks for the path and red light sticks for dangerous terrain.. and each pair was oni given a blue light stick to navigate around.. yeah blue.. it's not even a bright yellow or green light stick.. it's a dark blue light stick.. something like the UV light u use to validate if the currency is real.. yeah and my partner was reli scared.. i feel that the atmosphere is such that even without "ghosts" to scare u u will be scared already.. needless to say with "ghosts" lo.. some more im the last pair to go in.. so it's scariest for me because the programmers inside who acted as ghosts improvise from the first pair slowly become scarier and scarier until the last pair is zai zai one.. lol.. it's fun and memorable la.. my heart was thumping fast, although i think michelle's(my partner) faster =X.. it's quite scary at some stations and improvements needed at others.. haha.. now that we have given our feedbacks i think the actual fright nite's going to be a blast! lets hope nth goes wrong yeah.. keke..

alright.. so goes this week den.. tml meeting stefe for lunch! *pokes* cares everyone! for those in NUS who's undergoing exams.. jia you jia you!

alrite.. again!

2008-04-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

ok sorry for the interruption juz now.. was travelling back to hall so gotta stop blogging halfway.. back in hall!

so anyway.. i was gonna blog about this interesting restaurant that Judy (our hall exchange student all the way from mexico) introed us on Sunday.. it's somewhere in kampong glam.. at arab street.. got big mosque in the area so shudn't be too hard to find.. around concourse that area ba.. sorry i forgot the name =X they serve muslim cuisine at affordable prices.. i quite like their chicken.. nicely flavoured with rich spices.. but the main catch is yet to come..

the main thing im amazed by is this thing called "shi sheh", i dunno the exact spelling but the pronunciation is there la.. first u choose the flavour u desire, they have a lot.. cherry, mint, strawberry etc. (u get the idea), after that the person will bring over an equipment which stands about 50cm tall.. the bottom of the equipment contains the flavoured liquid, and at the top they will put a few pieces of charcoal to provide heat.. there is a pipe coming from the equipment and u smoke the flavoured smoke! wait wait i noe wat ur thinking.. its not addictive and its not drugs.. totally safe and harmless.. somehow the charcoal manage to evaporate the liquid underneath and enable u to smoke the mint flavoured smoke! cool rite? they will constantly come to refill the charcoal so that the thing remains hot enuf to evaporate the liquid.. so u put ur mouth to the pipe and suck in the smoke and taste it as u breathe it out.. from the nose or mouth as u desire.. very nice~

it's strange that we've never heard of such things before.. none of us tried it before despite the fact that we've roam singapore for 10+ years.. haha.. thanks to judy we discovered something interesting.. hehe.. maybe u all heard of it before already? hmm...

alrite!

2008-04-30T16:28:00.002+08:00

okie so my "A" was spoiled.. and i brought my lappy home for repair.. the man did it in a jiffy! in fact i tot i cud do the repairs myself.. cause he juz pressed the keyboard a bit and asked "juz the A? no other keys spoiled?" after that he remove the outer acrylic key to reveal the electric board underneath and asked for a pen knife.. he poked the board a bit with the knife and looked at me, "it's done.." i was like "huh?!" i brought it all the way back for him to poke a bit wif pen knife den done already?! i should have known better and poke it myself! lol.. but later he explained to me (dun worry in layman's term not chim chim techno-terms) that probably due to wear and tear that the electric board underneath has shifted out of place so when i press the acrylic key above it din press the board correctly and so no "A" came out.. he merely shifted the board back to its place! -.-"

ok i pause here a bit first.. continue blogging when i return to hall! lol.. take care!

aiya..

2008-04-28T17:26:00.002+08:00

o no~ the "A" key on my lappy's keyboard is kinda spoiled.. need to press very hard den can type the letter.. so now blogging very slowly.. and of all the keys on the keyboard it has to be the most important letter =(.. y can't it be the "print screen" or "home" key that's spoiled.. haiz.. looks like gotta bring lappy home for repairs alr.. heavy heavy..

actually wanted to blog about the happenings over the weekend ever since exams ended, which includes k boxing with ellie, bin, laytin and yan (serene y nv take care of throat huh? feeling better yet?), supper hop with judy and the hall gang and ying's bday dinner which i'm gonna attend in 2 hrs time.. but the "A" key is reli giving me a hard time.. somemore i dun dare press too hard lest it gets worse and not respond at all.. thus i think i will blog it later ba.. argh..

take care everyone! wa now i realise the importance of "A".. juz a short para press until i pek cek..

finally.. O V E R

2008-04-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

o wells.. yeap, the long awaited, the highly demanded, the hotly sought after day has finally arrived.. exams are officially~ OVER!!! yeah.. feel so relaxed and relax even more relaxed than ever! haha..

after exams ended finally get to go out.. as in out of NTU compound.. i think my ez link has gotten very rusty.. last time tapped before today was on good friday.. and before that was chinese new year! lol.. very rusty indeed.. ate out at marina square with the econs gang and walked around there for quite a bit before coming back to NTU.. after which met ellie and ate dinner with her before continuing to relax the nite away and to capture her last few hilarious behaviours before she moves out of hall.. think will be harder to meet once she move out.. *sighs*

din reli feel tired after exams ended.. i mean it's never tiring when it comes to playing rite? but now bathed and settled down to blog.. suddenly feel very lethargic.. i think cuz these days have been burning midnight oils.. which seriously oppose my regular sleeping hours.. shagged.. it's reli not good to sleep late.. and by late i mean after 12.. all of u out there.. try to sleep before 12 ya! lol..

omg.. speaking of which.. wats the time now? oops.. haha.. o ya i actually blogged over the day! if u noe wat i mean (i started blogging at 2345 of 24/4 and now's 0030 25/4) ok so exams ended yesterday for me.. note: u juz crossed over a day by the time u read finish this entry from the time u started reading.. lol.. alrite dun lame already.. take care everyone! nitez! ellie tml meet ar! dun lai4 chuang2!

1 down! argh!

2008-04-19T01:55:00.002+08:00

today first paper.. 1 down 3 to go!!! *add lots of oil* wa cannot add already.. i think im going to burn out.. haiz..

1 good thing: NTU finally have some mercy on us and din on the air-con in the exam halls like there is no tml.. remember last semester is like wine chiller sia.. wear shoes go in feet still feel cold beneath the socks.. very steady..

i wish i can blog something about the paper today under "good thing" section to make it "2 good things" but i dun think there is anything good about the paper.. well it's disgusting.. i used up the whole answer booklet for the answers (those in NTU u will noe how thick is 1 answer booklet) and i used up my pilot G2 ink and worst of all my hand is still shaking now from non-stop essay writing for 2.5 hrs.. hoping everything comes out fine.. *prays*

next exam date is monday A.K.A. big showdown.. 2 papers on same day with 1 in morning and 1 in evening until 1900.. super nice la steady already.. hey that rhymes! lol.. after that chiong thurs.. den.. argh yeah!!!

alrite gg slp now.. i realise another good thing: new canteen A food court (the one i blogged about in my previous entry) is very nice.. cheap and delicious food! gonna pamper urself after some studying rite? cant go too shabby on ur stomach.. hehe.. jia1 you2 jia1 fan4 jia1 cai4!!

as the new canteen unveils..

2008-04-10T15:00:00.002+08:00

whee~ after years of surviving on boring canteen food and macdonalds (being the oni fast food franchise in the campus), NTU students can finally enjoy more choices starting from this week as the new canteen A opens! haha.. twice as much seating capacity and new great fast food outlets! now everyone crowding there everyday sia.. every time i walk pass sure got long long queue.. lol

last time always use to envy NUS.. they have cheers convenient store, subway, mac and more.. while we oni have mac and our seven eleven is not even 24 hrs =X haha.. but now quite ok le.. cause new canteen has mac and food court(as usual), subway, canadian pizza, old chang kee and sakae sushi! yes all these rite in the campus! i think i can throw away my ez link and be a pulau NTU guy already.. say hi to nerdy! haha.. o and there's a palette restaurant which serves western food too.. haven get the chance to try though.. looks good from the outside and the prices are very affordable.. yeap..

went to try subway with hall pple last nite.. the subway ar reli is very the hot sia.. during the day u go sure got queue one.. sometimes u gotta queue for as long as 45mins to get the sandwich.. lol.. that's y we purposely choose nite and choose later timing to avoid the queue.. in the end still got queue lo.. and the most amazing thing is the guy from subway came and calculate the amount of bread they have versus the amount of sandwich orders from us (the customers) and he told us "starting from u all ar after this we have no more bread already.. oni left wraps" wa very lucky sia we r the last ones in the queue that will have sandwich (assuming no one in front leaves the queue la) lol.. even with oni wraps there were pple queuing behind us! this has been happening since the canteen opened.. i think their profit sure a lot de.. lol..

haven tried old chang kee yet.. but will go and try soon haha.. plus sakae opening soon! will have new after-exams activities already.. hehe.. ok must study first.. wat am i doing here blogging?! kk gtg.. jia you jia you everyone!

april fool..

2008-04-01T21:57:00.002+08:00

1st of april.. seems like any other normal tiring day.. i din even realise that it's april fool's day until yen nee told me 10 mins ago.. and it's already going to be over soon.. ha..

din receive any pranks la.. shud it be good or bad? lol.. e oni prank that i (we) receive is that test next week is cancelled but replaced with 4 tutorials to be done + in good quality for the 20% graded for HE104A.. it shud be good news.. but not so good for the ever-so-lost me.. i din buy the textbook and thus is like a little lost sheep.. had to quickly zap and start doing them since the questions are all in the text.. must thank veron for zapping a copy for me.. xie xie! and sorry that i always bother u with questions today.. i reli feel very bad to always fan pple.. haiz..

sometimes i juz feel so lost and wanted so much to ask someone and clear my doubts.. but den i remember that i always ask too many questions and irritate pple.. haiz.. wat shud i do? zhuo ren hao nan hao nan..

dun think i will have the affinity to star gaze at ADM anytime soon ba.. life is a tiring and terrible race..

2 down!

2008-03-27T12:38:00.002+08:00

2 down! today handing up HE208 report.. which marks the end of another project! thanks lulu and thanks mei yee! we were reli great eh! jia you jia you o! last stretch!

aiyah but den now got 2 more quizzes popping up.. statistics and mastering communication have quizzes 2 weeks from now.. haiz they r not even giving us a free week to study! tsk tsk.. gotta start studying already.. 3 more weeks to exams! they r so NOT surreal..

ok yesterday spent my day in room playing games with roomie.. haha.. another day wasted.. so contradicting with the previous paragraph.. lol.. so much for my determination to study.. sobs..

so.. as usual.. now im at free access lab blogging juz before the HE208 lecture.. there is a 2 hour break every thurs and i usually spend them by having lunch + wandering around in the lab.. hehe.. ooO heard that lai yan's grp did quite ok for their HW111 presentation.. congrats o! 1 more down for u all too!

lastly.. wanna thank jie ying for fixing the song on the blog.. think now can hear le rite? very sweet of her to help me fix the html codes.. xie xie o! jia you in work too! and take good care of urself in the erratic weather ya.. cheers..

one down!

2008-03-20T12:58:00.002+08:00

yay! juz had HW111 presentation in the morning! that's 1 project down with 3 more to go! jia you jackson!

well e tutor din reli give a lot of comments cuz there are still groups presenting next week so she dun wanna spoil the market lol.. but i think i have done my best la.. let fate decide ba.. keke.. rite now im juz very relaxed, having let down a heavy burden in my heart.. it feels lighter already! haha.. since morning i switched to holiday mood in preparation for the long weekend.. think will take a day off for myself tml and enjoy good fri to the fullest.. in fact i dun even have mood for lecture later already.. juz wanna relax.. lol

think i shud be returning home ba.. quite sure i will this time.. though mas selamat is still at large but i think if i wait till he's caught it will be too long already.. lol.. jam den jam lo.. sobs..

alrite shall not ramble on.. yay! feeling good now.. take care everyone!

back on track..

2008-03-18T22:10:00.002+08:00

ahh.. feeling better today.. though projects are still on-going but o wells.. i figured that sometimes u juz have to put everything down, enjoy a hearty dinner and perhaps a warm bath and juz go to bed early.. after all work is never ending rite? =)

therefore i had a nice and rather simple but happy dinner with ellie at hall 9 new canteen.. heard that it opened after renovation some time ago but never got the chance to try it out.. e western not bad sia.. i think i can eat 2 sets.. lol.. ok la maybe i was hungry.. i realise i haven seen ellie and gang for a long time already wor.. even her hair grew long and her apparels all changed.. guess lots of things can happen in juz 1 month huh? hmm..

had a warm bath and now blogging.. after that think will slp early.. gonna blog my troubles here so i wont have to bring them over to tml.. leave them here now and 4get about them!

1. studies.. aiyah nvm one la.. i also figured this one out already.. if we know wat every lecture and every tutorial is talking about den wats the purpose of coming uni? we can be profs already lo rite? so lets juz learn and take one step at a time.. no1 noes everything ma.. start from scratch..

2. people.. i realise that it can be tiring to live ur life pleasing everyone around u.. like wat xian hui told me some time ago about e theory of zao1 cai2 mao1.. ellie also said that everyone has the right to be sad ar.. u owe no one a constantly smiling face.. i realise also that as much as i tried i din manage to please everyone.. though i will try my best to improve.. so i guess i have to live with that.. it's reli simple.. juz be myself.. life is too short to be anyone else.. =)

3. fate.. things are yours will be yours.. things that aren't yours no matter how hard u persist it's no use.. though pple keep telling me that i make my own fate.. i guess i will take it one step at a time for now.. shud be contented rite? jia you jackson!

anyone noe how to put songs in blogs? not those player type but juz 1 song den keep on repeating de.. lol.. i have probs wif the song on my blog.. can hear not? lol..

tired..

2008-03-14T21:59:00.002+08:00

tired.. this week was juz plain tired..

4 projects squeezing the energy out of me.. all at once.. each due one after another on consecutive days..

next week got presentation too.. resulting in emergency group meeting tml.. looks like wont be going back home.. again..

haven reflect on myself for quite a while now, and i think that has resulted in me not being a very nice person.. being over-enthu and talking too much.. especially talking at the wrong time and asking stupid/unnecessary questions.. sorry for those who's unhappy with my behaviours.. will try to improve de.. sincere apologies

rainy week.. tired week.. serene told me that weather can affect a person's mood unknowingly.. wonder if that's true?

still have not got the chance to star gaze.. haiz.. *pokes ellie*

good old times..

2008-03-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

today's NTU openhouse! haha.. heard from roomie that many came over to take a look.. be it in the academic buildings or in hall..

for academic side the buzz is around nanyang audi and school of biological sciences that side rite? very happening sia.. heard got 933DJ come emcee, live band performances, goodie bags, booths and brochures, campus tours, freebies and lots more! i saw a crowd when i was heading out of campus in the morning.. and it's very early lo! wa so early got crowd.. power..

as for hall's side i dunno about other halls.. but for hall 16 they reli did some busy work today.. they prepared about 350 pamphlets to give away to visitors.. but according to the JCRC after the pamphlets ran out there were a few more hundred visitors! woah~ chee heng's room was the openhouse room.. so visitors can come in and have a look.. haha.. apart from that other special rooms and facilities were also opened to public, like the jam band room, computer room, music room, seminar room and multi purpose hall.. busy busy!

well but i gotta say i was away from all the buzz cause i went out and only came back in the evening.. went out wif pri sch classmates to visit mrs chee's (pri 5&6 form teacher) house! haha juz a small group though with za, ping, joyce, me, siah, cheng, jonathan.. but the whole event was fun, laughter and more fun.. chatted from studies to relationships to philosophy to juz small random and senseless jokes.. ahh somehow "good old times" juz dun do it justice.. it's reli heartwarming and sweet to meet up and still keep in contact after so many years.. yeah and we're reli close.. mrs chee showed us the photos we took and scrapbooks we made for her when we were graduating.. omg.. 8 long years have passed in the snap of a finger.. 8 long years.. when she first taught us she's single.. now.. woah.. time flies.. we grown and changed so much but somehow she din grow old.. *wats ur secret? dom?* haha.. and hey.. im a listener ok.. lol

hmm.. A levels came out le.. but i din reli hear any news from those who gotten it leh.. apart from mummy and han and jonathan.. i hope everything's ok? *worries*

star gazing.. huh star gazing!?!

2008-03-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

ahh.. another friday.. yet another week.. 4 projects concurrently in progress sure is taxing to the mind and soul.. i juz hope everything's gonna be alright.. *crosses fingers*

ellie suddenly msned me on wed (was it wed? =X) haha.. wa got mu4 di4 one huh.. lol.. but wat she said reli made my day.. i mean.. she's busy and all so i really dun wanna rake up the past.. it's not reli polite to keep bugging her with all the CCA stuffs and school reports/quizzes.. but she actually remembered! woah~ although it's from blog but it means a lot! haha that rhymes! i believe we shud be contented, and im contented =) thx ellie.. that's reli sweet of u.. hope the 3000 years quiz was alrite? take care alrite.. eat more & slp well o

one more thing.. A levels came out today! a few hours ago around 1430.. so sad for us.. now we're officially old.. no longer the latest batch of fresh A level graduates.. =( haha.. as the chinese idiom goes "each wave of the ocean will push their preceding wave towards the shore, and each of these waves will eventually die at the beach" well i guess we're one step closer to the shore den.. lol.. good luck to all! share wif me ur results ya! let me share ur happiness.. keke.. be well!

sch reopening..

2008-03-01T21:35:00.002+08:00

o wells.. in e blink of an eye sch's starting again.. and we r halfway thru the sem.. more quizzes and projects on e way! gonna recharge and chiong soon..

wanted to return home yesterday but there was a heavy jam at the customs due to the terrorist escape.. now they scrutinising every bus and lorry and it was on the news that it took 3hrs to move along the vehicle queue for 500 metres rite? thus in e end gave up and went back hall.. think wait until he is caught den things will get better ba.. haiz.. hall's very quiet these 2 days.. everyone went back le.. but tml everyone's coming back i think.. after all sch's starting..

the FOC bbq on wed was great! haha there was 20+ pple present at least.. but they all went clubbing after that so left early.. lol.. mambo nite huh.. we chatted until we 4gt about the time and before long it was very late already.. luckily got esther's dad to sent us back to hall.. thanks esther! nonetheless it was very fun and we were full of craps.. fishy fish and blue blood joke from evan and sam reli made me laugh my head off with the zouk joke.. lol!

chatted wif tin tin on msn a couple of nites ago.. i hope ur feeling better now tin! ur a strong yet gentle gal.. and i believe that as long as u can live up to ur own conscience, u dun need to think wat others think.. smiles aplenty! i wish u well..

feel like going ADM see stars.. hmm..

parties n airports..

2008-02-24T18:17:00.002+08:00

think a lot of pple are flying overseas recently huh.. juz sent charmaine off yesterday and joanne juz flew for china last week.. le le flying now as i type for korea.. woah.. bon voyage to all! take extra care of urselves over there and dun forget to keep in contact o.. Sorry le le i cant make it for today cuz i was reli drained.. have an enjoyable and fruitful exchange and i see u back in july ok! yi2 lu4 sun4 feng1!

thus i have juz been to airport on sat.. and if i have gone today i would have been at airport again.. not to say it's bad or anything.. in fact it was good! 1st time stepping foot on terminal 3.. v nice.. think it's for SIA de.. haha.. they used a lot of metal sheets for the decor.. if u been there u will noe wat i mean.. haha..o ya which reminds me.. maine u settle down and unpack finish le ma? keep urself warm over there ok! u got change ur aussie number? or izzit the same? keep in contact o! jia you jia you and i look forward to seeing u again on nov!

ah.. and went to weili's bday party on fri nite.. haha.. it was nothing short of grand and happening! there was a lot of chinese peeps.. eh no actually there was a lot of pple altogether haha! and we all catch up wid one another.. i went to the seaside to enjoy the breeze and moon as well.. great way to start out our recess week eh.. good food good company and good fun.. thanks for inviting weili and happy bday! 22nd le eh.. we all agree that u shud get a gf soon ar.. *hint hint*

anyway.. recess week seems reli packed for me out of some reason.. dunno y leh but i dun even have time to go home! haha.. maybe next week will try to be back for one or two days.. o and we ought to start our studying engine soon! u noe wat it means when recess week comes rite? *sighs* jia you everyone!

recess week!

2008-02-21T13:09:00.002+08:00

woohoo! today hand up assignment le.. finally no more work for the moment! looking reli forward to recess week.. and it's thurs! so means tml is the last day of sch! well at least for another week lol.. haha..

been a bit busy this week.. had statistics class test on tues and it's totally goooonnnee~ haiz.. the stats part is simple but the software part is hard.. click here click there.. some more i so techno gravy.. the komputer skills very powderful one.. so.. yeap crossing fingers lo.. lol.. o lets not brood over it rite?

den juz now in morning juz handed up resume (assignment).. phew!~ i hope everything goes ok? not sure if it was well done also.. u noe ar english this kinda thing is like writing essay like that.. if the marker is on ur side u win.. so i hope she likes my work! haha..

think i a bit too stressed le la.. everything shud be okay de rite? yes jackson everything is gonna be fine.. i hope.. nvm recess week coming.. and wat better time to relax and play my head down!

later got hall olympiad closing ceremony! dance competition coming up! if u all still rmb earlier in e semester the HO opening got cheer leading.. den now got dance! yeah gonna go support.. think it wud be quite re nao ba.. keke.. happy new year everyone! gonna end soon le o..

the rat year..

2008-02-09T12:20:00.000+08:00

so.. the new year that everyone's anticipating so eagerly finally came! it's my second rat year since birth.. omg second rat year alr? this means im getting old.. lol..

of cuz there is good food like abalone and goodies and red packets.. however this year somehow the atmosphere dwindled.. izzit cuz the economy in malaysia's not so good? some of my aunts never even come and visit and even if they did they din stay as long as the previous years.. maybe due to work ba.. thats y they have to leave hastily.. some of my cousins start work on 2nd day of lunar new year! compare to previous years, this year very few pple came.. and grandma's house is relatively more quiet.. even gambling has decreased.. well we kids play but the adults din reli engage.. lol.. and u noe ur relatives will always exclaim how tall u've grown and how u've changed rite? haha yeah the usual lines.. but seriously my cousins did change much.. well it's inevitable when u see them oni once a year rite? cuz they're all in malaysia and all.. haha

its the 3rd day of the new year alr.. another 2 days gonna return back to sch.. *dreads* haha.. resting time always pass very quickly huh.. haiz.. den it's back to the semester already.. but o! another 2 weeks after this and it's recess week! yippies! haha.. o btw before i continue.. im still in grandma's house now but apparently they have internet connection so i dun have to be quarantined from the rest of the world for 4-5 days like wat i experienced in the previous years.. lol

so yeap.. feast urselves on the goodies but do remember to drink more water and less of sugary drinks ya.. though i noe most of us will still fall sick after the new year.. lol cheers and happy new year!

chalet & hall production..

2008-02-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

ahh a very happlicious bday to sandy and nat!! fun and hyper bunch of pple we r.. went to chalet at pasir ris on friday nite and spent the nite there.. haha i literally book e whole green line.. after sch rushed from boon lay all e way to pasir ris.. worse of all its peak hour so the train is fully packed and had no place to sit.. so stood all e way there wif ying.. nonetheless the trip was worth it for the fun! haha.. good frens, good food, cake smashing fun! lol.. and so i wish both of u a smooth-sailing and peaceful year ahead wif no troubles! may u enjoy life to the fullest as u spend the last year of ur teenagehood and move on to a new chapter in life! sandy hope u like our present o! haha..

yesterday went to NUS to see king edward (izzit king edward?) ya shud be.. haha.. to see king edward hall's very own play! haha dun belittle them okay.. the scale was very big and formal and it was nothing short of professional.. they make all the props themselves and it was reli neat! haha e actors/actresses were reli good wif the slang and all and there was even ballet dancing! haha.. see quite a few familiar faces too.. lol including hiromi and shu yi besides dina and kim.. nice play! love it! great job guys.. haha.. romeo & juliet was quite nice too huh.. lol.. so sweet~ awww..

this week CNY le! yay! haha.. tuesday go sch den wed go sch den after sch go back home! haha.. time for fun laughter and games in this jubiliant occasion! haha.. aiya too bad wed the cyber security lecturer say lessons will continue.. if not tuesday can go back wif nee.. haiz.. y dun cancel sia.. anyway time reli flies.. tot sch juz started but now nearly at the halfway mark.. will final exams come soon too?! omg~

CNY..

2008-01-26T15:17:00.000+08:00

ahh.. new year's around the corner o! the year of the mouse is coming.. and that means the year of the dragon is around the corner also! since the zodiac cycle has restarted from the 1st (mouse) haha.. and that means we're all getting old.. sobs..

but nevertheless it's still good to be in the festive season.. haha.. o! finally going back home.. i haven gone home since the semester started cause of sch and admin and hall stuffs.. but now finally much of the stuffs have settled down and im ready to start concentrating and settle down as well! haha.. have been in hall these few weeks most of the time so din reli feel the new year atmosphere yet cause no CNY goodies around + never go those re4 nao4 places like chinatown.. i guess i will feel it when i go back home ba.. keke..

as for sch.. everything is on-going and well i suppose.. i noe i have to stay strong and i hate whining too.. so wont talk much abt it.. i think it will get better! yay! haha.. well sch is sch after all.. and work is always a chore.. Chinese this sem got lots of readings.. very different from last sem lo.. think last sem was like a intro to the course and they dun wanna scare u away.. but this sem is the real stuffs.. den again.. which course is easy? lol..

and i definitely have to talk abt the hall olympiad opening ceremony in Students Recreational Centre (SRC) this wed.. there was the mascot and cheerleading competition! omg! first time seeing pple cheerlead live! so cool and enthu man! there was the tossing, flipping, stacking, dancing and cool self-made costumes for the mascots! maybe im mountain tortoise la first time see so super exclaimed.. haha.. but u will feel quite nervous for the performers because got a lot of mistakes! got 1 hall their cheerlead finale was a 3 human towers formation.. but when they stack up 2 fell and oni 1 tower left standing! haiz.. very frequent falls.. and got 1 gal she fell forward and the base cant catch her! ouch! pain lo.. haha.. in e end hall 1 got 3rd, hall 15 2nd and 1st goes to hall 8! haha.. great eye-opener man..

weather's quite nice recently.. sunny.. i like sunny days.. though can get a bit hot at times when ur outside but when im in my room and looking outside the window it juz makes me happy to see the sunshine! haha.. i hope everyone is doing fine nowadays? keke.. happy new year! remember to do some new year shopping soon o!

busy busy..

2008-01-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

woah.. these 2 weeks xiong.. lots of academic stuffs rushing in now that semester has started.. for those of u who's not in NTU, now is the so called add/drop period.. it's the period where u can add and drop ur modules after trying out 1 or 2 lectures.. maybe u dun like u can drop those modules.. and maybe other pple drop got vacancies u can snatch it up too! remember fastest finger first works in NTU.. lol.. thats y i was so busy cause everything was messed up.. maybe after 1st 2 weeks things will settle down..

still cant reli get use to the new environment.. in a way i got wat i wanted.. so i shud be contented wif wat i have now rite? but the question keeps popping in my head: y am i not feeling happy? i dunno leh.. maybe ellie's rite.. now is the transition period.. maybe things will get better? after settling down in uni life for 1 sem suddenly everything starts from scratch again.. plus now that pple in there has cliques already its very hard for me to break in.. met serene in cyber security lecture today.. think wat she said is v true.. starting of the sem 1st few days v impt.. must try and find pple and cliques.. after that pple form cliques le its v hard for u to break in.. very weird.. haiz.. i like the things im studying now.. but somehow deep down inside i miss those frens back there.. hmm.. i hope time can help.. i hope..

think this semester quite xiong.. had a rough look at the workload.. yeap.. got a gut feeling that i cant reli blog that often anymore.. keke.. o! happy bday to mei mei & wei qi! happy bday to u.. happy bday to u.. happy bday to wei qi and mei mei.. happy bday to u! join e 20 gang! big 2 le o! i wish u happiness and smooth-sailing in e year ahead! keke..

happy bday to me! losing my teenagehood >.<

2008-01-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

7/1/1988.. wat a day! haha.. 7/1/2008.. omg! so fast im turning 20 le!! sobs.. nineTEEN.. twenTY! no more a teen! haiz.. guess im reli reli getting on my age now.. luckily happiness doesnt decrease wif age.. this year bday's still a very happy one and though im getting old i think im a happy old man.. lol.. must still wish myself a very happy bday.. happy bday to me jackson! must be a good boy this year and keep the happiness going.. and my wish goes out to everyone around me.. to all my dearest frens who made my bday a happy one.. i wish u all happiness and a smooth-sailing year ahead as my bday wish! in my view.. a bday is nothing more than an ordinary day with no one to celebrate wif.. it is oni when there r frens and loved ones around that bday becomes a very very special occasion.. a day which u thought everyone has forgotten.. when u find that u lost the feeling so innocent and naive.. when u forgot how to blow out a candle and when those frens taught u how to all over again.. and when u look in their eyes and see that they're happy for u.. it is this day that's reli very very special.. and im certain i wud never never forget this very day when im born and when i found back this very special and magical feeling.. hence i must thank a few groups of pple here for spending effort in making me feel very very happy and very special today.. they are:

SBL.. how can i forget? the very first group to celebrate my bday and to gif me a cake.. haha.. o man these pple r my family! to eveyone in SBL.. i sincerely thank u for making my day and and im sure our frenship and family ties shall nv end! haha now im 20 but dun forget everyone of us is turning 20 this year too! muahaha! *evil* frens always!

ying.. haha thanks for the present! in ur busy schedule u still can find time to buy me a present wor.. very sweet and thoughtful of u keke.. thanks thanks.. i haven got the chance to open it yet but i noe im gonna love it.. thanks yeah and take good care of urself! dun fall prey to stomach flu again alrite! haha..

my JC peeps! which include kheng, bin, maine, xin, mimi! haha.. wow the voucher u all got me! lol its wif mimi haha.. but anyway i wont shop alone also so its fine rite? thanks thanks.. u all be happy ya? i wish u well.. meet up soon o! rice plus dough plus water.. lol

my coursemates! haha too many to name.. to everyone who wished me happy bday.. and to everyone who sang bday song to me outside lt4 today! haha i will never forget the scene at the spot outside lt4 where so many pple sang bday song to me! so far in my previous 19 years no group this size has ever sang to me bday song b4! haha.. o and thanks to tin tin and yan for getting me the very cute cake! i love it! and to those in my clique.. joyce, serene, ellie, wan ting, wei li, bin bin..thanks o! ellie pls get well soon ya.. how come suddenly so serious? must not be stubborn and must rest early k? i wish u well and quick recovery in this new year.. i wish u well =)

my hall peeps! haha they bluffed me say wanna meet go bugis shopping.. so cheeky huh whoever thought of this excuse to bluff me.. den in e end it was shopping.. FOR ME! lol.. they say that "if you're ever going to find a gf u gonna repackage urself.. and base on ur dress sense now.. tsk tsk tsk" lol.. so yeap.. first time i feel like a mannequin, changing into various clothings in a short duration with 5 gals and 5 guys judging and choosing clothes for me.. lol.. well.. it made me felt a bit awkward.. but special.. thanks.. and to my roomie.. kian lin if u ever see this.. i hope if i did offend u in any way in the past.. let bygones be bygones ya.. all e best and thanks!

last but not least my sec sch gang! haha wif mummy dina and daughter kim and their other halves.. tgt wif nese nisha hao feng ying drew.. thanks for the chocolate cake and the clothes! wow both hall and sec sch peeps gave me clothes huh.. is my dress sense reli that CMI? lol.. alrite alrite i will improve i guess.. lol.. it's juz that there is no purpose in dressing up so nicely nowadays.. haiz sch oni ma lol.. and thanks for the surprise.. the so called "bill" huh nese.. very ingenious.. calling the "bill" which made me stand on the chair with the whole fish & co staff and customers singing bday song to me wif the chicken hat.. lol.. and blowing off the candles from up there in the chair at such long distance.. lol.. thanks.. it made me feel reli special.. well i guess everyone's oni 20 once and if im gonna turn 20 i gonna turn 20 wif a bang! haha thanks for the effort guys..

and thanks to all those who wished me thru smses, calls, hand-shaking and any and every other way.. i reli reli hope i covered everyone? no words can do my feeling justice.. im truly grateful to all in making me a very very happy jackson on this day 7/1/2008.. and as time trickle away and i officially turn 20.. i wish myself happiness too! like xian said.. dun be a zhao1 cai2 mao1 all e time.. live life for urself! and i will.. i wish myself happiness and fate shine upon me soon.. happily ever after? *chuckles* happily ever after..

new year.. new beginning..

2008-01-03T14:07:00.000+08:00

happy 2008 everyone! a whole new year.. a whole new slate.. a new page of our lives for us to write and strive.. o well sch is starting soon.. so a whole new semester *grumbles* haha..

i remember i started this blog on dec of 2004 if im not wrong.. so its the 4th year i have been blogging already! wow time reli flies.. still recall that blog juz came out den and i was curious to try it out.. at the same time to release some emotions in me.. o ya! that time O levels juz over and i was playing my head off.. yeah yeah.. *smiling to myself* time flies.. no man can deny that.. somehow i feel myself growing old already.. can start to feel wrinkles appearing on the edge of my eyes and physical strength diminishing.. youth trickling away from my frail body.. lol

o well.. so be it.. spent my count down at east coast with SBL.. great bunch of frens there.. know them since sec sch times and still counting.. it was indeed heartwarming and cosy to welcome the new year with pple u treasure.. "family rite?" haha.. that never fails to make me laugh.. and how can i forget the silly games that we played? though we always say that those games r silly but i noe deep down we all love those games that always bond ourselves tgt.. games like polar bear which tests our verbal skills to the edge, idiot game which is simply a game of mindless saboing.. haha.. dun think i will ever forget that.. *laughs* and 1 thing worth mentioning is that everyone in SBL turned up! for the last time in yr 2007 everyone was there and we took a full family photo! awesome man! darren send over the pics quick! there were me, cherfu, baby, xian, yee, andrew, han yong, darren, wei, xian's cousin, alison (i hope i din miss out anyone?) haha.. it was simply the best.. so hard to find a time where everyone's free.. and we finally get full attendance on the last day of the year.. o and 1 last thing.. it is once again proven that SBL is not very well trained for overnight outings.. towards morning of 1st jan we were like zombies.. with the sole purpose of returning home to our beds! haha.. and congrats for wei and yee for their good results in the 1st sem! keep it up! jia you!

some time ago in dec we also visited kids united for ARK 16 (my hall's special project event).. wow din noe that kids nowadays can be so er.. *ahem* active.. well they r a bit different from other kids their age (7-13) but den they can be quite hard to handle in groups of 20.. very noisy and mischievous.. got us quite worn out that day.. i had 3 pple's share of nasi lemak! haha wow hunger and tastiness of the food drove me to breaking that record.. lol and to think that we will be seeing them every fortnight real soon.. if its that hard to get them to play.. its even harder to get them to study.. lol

sch officially starts next week 7th jan.. i wonder if it will succeed? still crossing my fingers and praying hard.. this is a big turning point of my life and i would gif anything for it to be approved.. pls get me thru!

well dun reli have resolutions this year.. think im about 80% content wif my life now.. let fate take its course ba.. realise a lot of pple r getting attach recently.. enjoying the bliss of companionship.. looks like season of love is near? haha.. all e best! all e best.. happy new year!

some things are worth it..

2007-12-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

been going out these few days.. mon went out wif stef and gang to vivo to walk walk cum celebrate her bday! happy 19th birthday stef! last year of teenagehood o! enjoy! haha.. she looks happy wif all the gifts.. lol of cuz la presents leh haha.. o moreover she got her signed poster from her favourite group 5566 rite i suppose? must be over the moon.. dun fret abt the mio wireless thingy ya.. slowly slowly configure..

today went out wif han and seng.. been long since i met them.. either han busy or i busy or seng at KL for sch.. went marina square for the yuki yaki buffet wif D.I.Y. ice cream! haha played with the machine.. very awesome can turn hot for bbq and turn cold for making ice cream lol.. after that went bugis to get han's art paint.. wow she started designing shirts huh.. talented sia.. body~ it's been a while since i felt so happy.. its e kinda happiness that's without fancy garnishes and loud celebrations.. juz simple contented happiness.. reminds me that simplicity is beautiful.. i suppose some things are worth it ba.. thanks han and seng.. keke..

received sms from tin juz now abt thurs' dinner.. somehow it has been shifted to fri? wat happened? and tin dun sound too happy.. i hope she's alrite? breathe in.. breathe out.. lol.. it's festive season so dun frown!

next week results coming out.. haiz.. excited but worried.. i hope everything goes thru smoothly.. it reli means a lot to me this time round.. i need it to succeed!!

during journey back tonight scenery was black and blurry again.. haiz..

queen of queens!

2007-12-16T14:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite went down to st. james power station wif yan and tin to support yiting in e seventeen magazine's event queen of queens! she's one of the pageants in it! haha.. 2nd time going down to st. james.. great club =)

the queue was very long.. we thought the event wud start late so we went vivo to eat dinner first.. when we reach the entrance we cud not see the entrance at all! firstly being we cudnt find the entrance which was actually at the back of the power station.. secondly being e queue was so long until we cud not see it from where we're queuing.. lol.. along the way saw quite a number of familiar faces.. pioneers and sec sch frens like adeline, sook ching, june, melydia, ming jie, edward, dorene and marie are all there! cause the pageants come from various tertiary institutes like NUS NTU SMU and SIM.. moreover pageants sarah and ting were both pioneers! so guess quite a lot of pioneers present yesterday.. vion and shan was there last nite too but the place was simply too crowded to spot them.. gotta meet up soon k! i hope vion's not all busy again? hm..

we managed to get inside around 9pm.. juz nice to see ting in the pageant Q&A session! haha.. OMG! ting looked simply great and gorgeous! i cudnt recognise her if she wasnt holding her number board Q7! haha her fren said the boards look like price tags and they r like auctioning themselves away.. lol.. her hair was sassy and she juz looked extraordinary.. she did the catwalk wif confidence and that reli impressed me.. very different from the usual crappy and lame ting.. she looked a bit nervous at e start but i can feel that she's very happy yesterday nite.. after all every pageant present yesterday is already a winner of a pageant before they come tgt at this event.. i think ting did a great job yesterday by juz being herself and presenting her best to e audience there.. proud to have u as my fren ting! her replies to the interview questions in e mag was very funny: three years ago i was.. "making frens" wif integration by parts and income distribution theory.. lol.. another question followed: three years from now i want to be.. a better person than the one answering this question.. wow! stunning answer.. left a deep impression in me.. good job!

i din noe y but during the ride back to hall last nite i suddenly felt so lonely despite the bus being quite crowded.. i suddenly realise that im also human and i also have emotions.. maybe im not as strong as i tot.. maybe ellie's rite.. jackson has e right to be depressed also? i pondered if wearing a mask all e time can be tiring.. it can be rite? i din noe y i have this thought too.. guess they juz came.. the scenery outside was black and blurry and as the bus journeyed back to NTU my thoughts journeyed down memory lane.. ting's happy, tin's happy, yan's happy, vion and shan are also happy, same goes for ellie.. and im happy for them too *smiles*.. so shudnt i be happy for myself? am i happy for myself? i suddenly question my own theories.. is the world reli simple? are things reli simple? am i simple? am i happy? is this all juz a facade? is this all self-consolation? the person sitting beside me in e bus was playing F.I.R. - xu yao ni de ai.. it seems so chang1 sang1, so qi1 mei3.. haiz.. it felt like i travelled through my 19 years of life and back in that journey.. everything juz collapse in e bus that nite.. and i have to put it back together before i reach my room.. so no1 noes abt it..

maybe its juz the music.. maybe..

STARS war..

2007-12-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

its raining again.. pouring.. these few days not so bad.. Mr. sun take half day leave oni instead of whole day.. in the morning and early afternoon will have sunshine.. den later in e afternoon is downpour.. so at least can hang clothes in first half of the day.. at least will dry a bit.. sometimes if Mr. sun is good he comes back after downpour.. lol.. den u can rehang ur clothes again.. haha..

juz registered my modules for next semester on 13th dec.. in NTU, every course has their own personalised date and time for registering their modules for next semester.. it can be as early as 4th dec and as late as 18th dec.. we dun register all at once.. and everyone of us register via STudent Automated Registration System (STARS) in which i reli find is very very x1000 sucky.. so fed up wif it..

our STARS is something like NUS's bidding system for modules.. juz that ours is not bid.. but is fastest finger first.. the faster u click.. the better timings u get.. it can be as bad as when u click slower by 30 secs and u get all the "holy" timings like 1830-1930 for tutorials.. lol..screw up ur whole timetable..

i will not go into rigorous details of the modules and everything but wat happen to me was for my course the personalised time and date was 13th dec 0930, in that the server will open at that specific time for all of my course's pple to register their modules (meaning ur actually fighting wif ur own coursemates for the good timing tutorials) i went to register in the library wif tin.. ok so at 0925 onwards we r at the screen of registration already all ready to press the button.. and at 0929 i was like clicking non-stop (something like how u click on the server of maple story during peak hours when the server is full) lol.. den 0930! alas! no vacancy! somehow i was slower than others by 0.05 milliseconds or something and the pop up window says "no more vacancy" o my !$^*^#@.. because one tutorial vacancy is oni like 13 places.. and the module i want is very popular i suppose so the 13 places was snatch up exactly at 0930 when everyone click at the same time (yeah its THAT bad).. well i quickly change to plan B and choosed a less desirable timing for the tutorial.. luckily that was fast enuf and i got that.. because if u cant get any tutorial timing that means u cant register that module because its all full.. and that means u may have to choose another less popular module.. and y izzit unpopular? its harder and boring bla bla bla.. u get the picture rite? lol.. tin's click was godlike and she got the timing she wanted.. have to gif her credits for her yi4 yang2 zhi3! haha.. congrats gal.. but sry i cant be in same tut wif u le cause i cant get that timing.. lol..

later that evening i was chatting if hui ying (coursemate) on msn and she experienced the same prob too! juz that she is a bit more unlucky than me in that she cant even get the "holy" timings.. guess her module was so popular until pple even snatch all e bad timings.. so she cant take that module this sem le.. hmm.. thats y its called STARS war.. we're practically fighting.. gone r the days where timetable is something u dun need to care abt and its juz a piece of paper where u highlight in various colours (especially the breaks) lol..

and she told me a very big mismanagement wif the system.. she said she went to check the vacancies for the unpopular modules and there were aplenty of spaces! so its like the unpopular modules r over-allocated and the hot modules are under-allocated in terms of spaces.. they shud open more spaces for the hot ones and less for those unpopular ones ma.. aiyo.. thats y u feel so fed up.. i heard from NUS frens that their bidding system has flaws too.. guess everyone has something to complain huh.. im not sure abt their details but i noe its something abt unfair bidding because different pple r given different points to start wif depending on their course and their study year.. the more senior the more points i guess? so from the start they have more "chips" and can outbid others already to get the hot modules.. moreover u dunno wats the no. of points needed to outbid and get that module.. for example lets say a module is quite hot and needs 250 points to get.. but u think its so popular until u spam ur 600 points on the module.. sure u get that module but wont u be wasting 350 points for nothing when u can juz use 250 and get that module all the same? therefore its like finding the allocative efficiency point and animal spirits (predicting wat others will do)

ok i have a feeling that this post is getting too long and dry.. yeah so all in all this whole fighting-for-wat-ur-studying stuff is reli sucky.. and for those who will be coming uni.. u will empathise wif me when its ur turn.. while its good to have freedom to plan ur own timetable and feel the adulthood.. i guess i reli must say: with more power comes more responsibility..

raining..

2007-12-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

ooO these few days keep raining.. think monsoon season is coming le ba.. pple do keep urselves warm and dry k! festive season is around the corner so gotta stay well to enjoy the merry merry xmas! haha..

well luckily it din rained when we went to sentosa on tues.. well in fact tues's weather was good.. a bit way too good.. humid and sunny.. haha.. gotta put on the sunblocks.. well think i haven been to sentosa for quite a while now.. actually i haven been to sentosa for the whole semester.. the last time i been here was in FOC before sch starts.. haha.. time flies eh.. e place hasnt change much though.. still sandy and still populated.. haha.. ahhh the life of holidays.. it feels good to do everything else but studying.. u can never get too tired of playing.. lol.. o and did i mention sweedy and xiang r good cooks? wow the food they brought there was delicious! thx thx! haha.. yeah and sweedy's dog is very cute! very lazy and juz lying around all day.. but thats the cute part.. precisely cause it doesnt jump around and overly active.. it juz lies there quietly.. even when she is feeding it it seems too lazy to eat.. haha slack life.. lol

well gotta register my subjects to be taking next semester soon.. around next week 13th.. i think i will go back malaysia next week and come back den.. last time was too much of a rush.. went back oni 2 days.. haha.. speaking of which.. my roommate (kian) is back in malaysia already.. coming back oni on next monday.. he gg KL wif family lo.. shuang! shopping spree! haha.. speaking of which i haven been to KL for quite a few years now.. always stayed around JB oni.. lol.. alrite.. so i shud go back also since i dun have anything much here these few days.. keke..

alrite dinnertime! haha eat well everyone and enjoy ur holidays o! live ur lives to the fullest! haha..

holidays..

2007-12-03T18:02:00.000+08:00

o! haha guess was too busy playing until i forgot to update.. anyway exams r over! haha ok they r over for a week now.. lol.. did the usual stuffs that i planned to do after exams.. go k box, go back Malaysia, played a bit of com and juz listen to music and relax (rot) haha..

went back pioneer wif joyce and the gang last fri nite to sat morning for the alumni movie marathon! haha the response was quite good! a lot of old frens came back and i see those familiar faces once again.. so familiar yet so distant, for they have changed much since they move on to uni/army.. nevertheless it was a fun-filled nite and i din sleep at all! *tired* haha.. the movies r nice too! LT1 and LT2 each showcased horror and non-horror films.. i dun reli like horror films u noe.. weak hearted lol.. but music and lyrics.. omg good! "way back into love" very melodious and sweet duet.. and the jokes r good too! not lame ones but reli funny ones.. lol.. and saw dennis yeo.. he changed quite a bit too! but den still as cranky..

it brings back countless memories as u stepped back into the compound where u once spend most of ur time in.. the grand stand.. the basketball court good for viewing stars.. the hall where u been thru one of the best times (orientation) and e worst (A-levels) within one same spot.. lol the canteen where the food u always complained and everything abt it.. they painted the buildings red now.. looks more.. er... trendy? haha.. but i noe i wud never forget pj.. my frens.. my class.. time flies i guess.. well for one thing the toilets r still very very clean.. always proud of pj's hygiene standards.. lol..

tin asked me whether i remembered those times where we used to spend eating outside lot one beside the Giordano window.. haha.. yeah it was unforgettable.. words wun do it justice.. unforgettable..

if there is a company in this world that sells information about when ur gonna die at $1 will u buy it? i wun.. i wan death to come swift and sudden.. i dun wanna have any preparation or any worries when death nears and take me away.. knowing too much is not good sometimes.. moreover i will worry and worry if i know my end is coming.. i wan to live my life wif no regrets and head towards my last page of my story gracefully.. wud u buy it? wun u wanna noe when ur gonna die? however if there is a company that wud shorten my life at $1 i wud consider buying.. long life is tiring.. i wud rather it be a firework blast.. gone at the next moment but great while it lasted..

last but the most..

2007-11-23T18:00:00.000+08:00

they always say that once exams come they zoom by reli fast huh.. yeap i guess its true.. once the first paper starts the rest will follow and before u noe it its holidays already, which will pass by even faster lol.. well im left wif one last paper on tuesday and that wud be it for the sem.. but i guess the paper on tues is the hardest.. woah they reli put their best shot as the last shot huh i guess..

so far ok ok la.. my frens all advise me not to think too much lest it affects my performance for the future papers.. i think i lower my expectations already.. if every paper can get around a B range den i wud have a GPA of about 3.5? though not the perfect score one wud expect for 1st sem but i guess if u aim low ur disappointment also low huh.. better be pessimistic here.. lol.. i dun like to be disappointed.. actually who likes to be? but sometimes its beyond our control ba i guess..

but y wud i say the last paper is the hardest? cause the previous papers all either can crap or study before in JC.. HE191 economics study before in JC.. though i still screwed it up somewhat but im more worried about the tues paper.. den i had HC101 and HC201 which are both literature papers.. meaning they ask u how u feel about the poems and how u wud analyse the characters and the hidden meaning between the lines etc etc.. so those u can go in and let ur emotions flow and "crap" because there is no rite or wrong answer as long as ur arguments are persuasive.. but the upcoming HC102 is introduction to chinese language.. meaning u analyse the language itself.. wat do i mean? meaning y do we pronounce the way we do now? the evolution of chinese from ancient to modern.. meaning u have to memorise all those articulation symbols and tongue placings to produce the different sounds.. thats juz a small part and to prevent boring everyone else i wun go into details.. juz noe that 102 is a memorise and theory paper.. if u dunno u dunno.. cant reli crap.. lol.. thats y its hard.. i hate memorising.. haiz.. *brain bursting*

well.. i noe the A level peeps are free le ba? mostly.. the more popular subjects all finish le.. *envious envious* haha.. they must be slacking/rotting at home now or everyday go out ar orchard ar go play play already.. haha.. wat can i say? i had my turn already so shudnt be greedy.. *sobs* well happy playing to those JC peeps! u deserve the 9 mths break!

eh.. humans are hard to please eh? when u have long break u nth to do also complain.. when u too stress pull hair also complain.. so contradicting.. haiz.. arent we making life hard for ourselves?! lol.. i heard on radio e DJ reading out smses of pple.. one sms said sth about a JC A level student finish exams already slacking at home everyday very boring!! haha den straight after that sms another sms from someone in uni say that he is very stress from all the exams.. e stark contrast left a very deep impression in me.. funny how we can never be reli happy.. the bored pple wish they had sth to do and the stressed pple wish they had none.. haiz.. life..

9 mths break can be very shuang i guess.. cause im now in the stressed position so im bias myself.. i longed for a break!!! haha.. well den.. think next tues after my paper will go crazy wif all e playing.. K box!! lol.. jia you everyone! all e best in whatever u do! happy slacking/studying!

uni exams..

2007-11-15T16:28:00.000+08:00

alrite.. exams officially start yesterday for me.. and a lot others who took HE191 principles of economics.. first time being in a uni exam.. i tot it would feel like a levels.. in fact it felt worse.. a levels u would juz have the whole hall dedicated to the whole level taking exams.. but this woah.. the whole nanyang auditorium is filled with rows and rows of tables and chairs.. the hall outside the audi (where we use to dance during the inter-hall bash in aug) was now replaced by tables and chairs.. ironic how the same exact spot can be once so filled with music, clubbing peeps and fun but now so dreaded, quiet, formal and rigid.. and thats only one exam venue.. there r dunno how many exam halls utilised during the exam period.. so u can imagine a levels' scale multiply by 100 den that would be about it..

alrite everything is similar to a levels.. u have to place ur matric card on ur desk and switch off all devices bla bla bla.. the air con is cold though.. cause the halls they use for exams are all air-conditioned and they on it like there is no tomorrow.. though that is how i felt after the paper.. i dun think they need to rub salt into my wounds ba lol? ya u din see wrongly.. i felt like there is no tml.. haiz the econs paper is hard.. it involves some mathematical calculations apart from the a level style of writing and writing and arguing.. in fact there r no long questions where u argue for 3 pages that constitute 25 marks.. the whole question is 25 marks but they r broken down into parts of like 6 6 6 7 marks each.. since my maths is CMI standard.. i got stuck at the first question and everything after that was pure demoralising.. though i dun think i will fail.. i dun think i can do well.. and if i dun do well in electives (somemore is sth i studied before in a levels).. how can i do well in my core modules?!

o well enuf whining.. suan le.. like my roomie said.. over is over le.. nth can be done.. next mon is chinese core modules HC201 and HC101.. how am i going to cope that? i read half of 201 i was like X.X fan2 ti3 plus they wrote it in poetry style not the bai2 hua4 style.. *prays*

okay so i came here to blog to relieve a bit of stress.. i guess i have to pop back into books and chinese words ya.. wishing everyone all e best.. jia you! look forward to 27th.. haiz.. uni is like taking 8 a levels.. each sem got once.. so sianz..

k box cravings..

2007-11-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

o haha exams r juz around the corner yet i have k box cravings especially under the influence of so many nice new songs! haha.. F.I.R.'s new album is quite good.. love their duets.. last time got the classical tian tian ye ye following which they got xu yao ni de ai (need your love).. very nice and heart-touching song which depicts 2 star-crossed lovers.. and its very hard to sing too! very high notes.. even higher than tian tian ye ye lo.. that time i tried it in my room den it was pretty tough to go up on the chorus.. *oops i hope i din create much noise pollution to my neighbours* actually got la i noe i sing very awfully.. lol.. ellie said she like the song also! haha and i noe she sings very good lo! especially duets.. must sing wif her soon..

got another duet also by F.I.R. also.. 3 ge xing yuan (3 wishes).. this one is sweet and loving de cause sang by faye and ah qin.. difficulty not as hard but very sweet.. something like liang shan po and zhu li ye kinda category ba.. keke.. very nice also.. depends on which category u like lo.. the sweet kind or the sad kind..

recently got many other new albums also! jay got his new album "on the run!" featuring a cowboy theme.. well i got no comments on this.. his songs follow his past trends and r generally okay.. got one very catchy "che" which means pull.. haha.. makes u wanna dance.. got some very nice slow songs also like qing hua ci.. good display of oriental style.. as for his main hit niu zai hen mang well the melody is okay la.. but i wonder whether he is trying to act cute? hm..

got other new albums out too like jolin, luo zhi xiang and cyndi.. but i haven reli got them yet.. keke.. nevertheless craving to go k soon! lol.. but first i guess will have to pass the hurdles of exams.. lol

anyway think now A levels halfway there le rite? those jc peeps hang in there! almost over almost over! jia you jia you o! o juz remembered tml got s18 lunch gathering! looking forward to seeing them again! very long never meet up le.. and happy belated bday to nisha! tml go eat dinner wif them o! haha.. have some fun before my head is in books again.. sobs.. smiles everyone!

assignments..

2007-11-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

before the frightful exams come in mid nov there r the assignments due this week.. haiz but luckily i manage to finish them by yesterday.. 2 big end of term report: 1 max 2000 words and another 1000 words min. haiz.. the prob is not wif the numbers reli but rather 2000 + 1000 CHINESE words.. omg thats hard to squeeze out.. last nite when i was writing the conclusion i simply zonk out and juz stare blankly at my paper for abt 15 mins dunno doing wat.. reli very taxing wor.. but luckily can write out.. cause if must type out those chinese words think even harder and slower.. lol think the thought of changing course grows stronger and stronger in me.. yet unlike when i first came at the starting of the sem.. now there r things keeping me back.. intangible things.. though its not academic.. it matters a lot to me.. how? the struggle in me grows as i approaches the delimma.. and as the deadline for change course application draws near decisions become harder and harder..

the jc peeps r in e midst of a levels rite now ba? jia you jia you! GP should be alrite this year? gender equality rite? keke.. and for the maths and chinese papers so far heard from pple is okay.. doable.. remember to balance study and rest o! no point studying through the nite only to zonk out in the paper itself.. keke.. dun worry 2 more weeks and everything will be over! last time when i was in JC seniors also use to tell me that.. but i still felt very stress.. even so i agree that its once-in-a-lifetime thingy.. and trust me.. one day u will look back at the times when u use to stay in sch library until late to mug and mug.. u will look back at the times when u felt the frenship and bonds so close when u all study in groups and consult each other.. u will look back at the times when ur head is so satuated wif information and u felt so smart that u can recite every formula backwards lol.. and most of all u will remember the times when u were studying.. because it gets less fun when u grow up.. to go thru the bitterness den u will feel the sweetness of reward.. so jia you! all e best!

haha ok talk abt more casual matters.. dunno y my hall got this tradition of throwing pple into NIE pond during their bday.. so cruel sia.. i almost kena on karen's bday.. and yet its her bday and i kena.. dunno y also guess it juz makes them very high to see me go down eh? super lousy excuse to throw me down sia.. but in e end din go down la.. guess they still leave some mercy for me lol.. but den again next year when its my bday i noe the last place i wanna be at is hall lol.. think this time is rehearsal next time is for real already.. the water looks milky.. yucks.. no matter wat happy belated bday to karen! o yan xin's bday is coming.. oops!

yeap i guess thats it for now ba.. remember life is abt choices and making the rite ones.. so everyone live ur life wif no regrets! be well my frens.. smiles!

no question is the biggest question..

2007-10-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

well think im moving on too slowly.. the deadlines are drawing nearer and nearer yet i still too unmotivated.. keke.. i realise i always finish my elective's assignments very fast but when it comes to my chinese core assignments i always dread doing it.. still adapting i guess.. keke.. got 2 long reports due in early nov.. one is 1000 words at least and the other 2000 words at most.. both analysing literature text.. haiz..

analysing literature text can be good or bad.. okay lets gif them some credit and say the good things first.. unlike those science and engineering modules, analysing literature text means that there is no correct or wrong answer.. it is base on ur interpretation.. it's something like GP.. depending on how u argue lo.. to put it simply.. they juz gif u a text or poem den ask u how u "feel" after reading it and voice ur emotion in 2000 words.. hard eh.. the better u crap the easier.. i wont go into details lest they bore all of u out there but basically thats wat i have to do.. while i look at my roommate (mechanical engineering) solving mathematical integration and differentiation and sorting out the vectors i am relieved that i wont have to go through that again after JC.. *phew*

but den the bad thing.. words.. if u dun like writing den i reli think this is *ahemx* lets not be vulgar here but u noe roughly wat i mean.. keke.. u noe there are pple in JC that get sth like AAAA C6 for GP.. ya.. dun think they will like writing 2000 words report.. keke..

i realise i like writing a 2000 words english report but i dunno y i struggle wif a chinese one.. haiz.. somemore the text is in "fan2 ti3" which means traditional chinese and is very hard to read.. plus u have to read them vertically.. and for me that is something new after reading simplified chinese from left to right for 12 years.. no for 19 years.. lol

k la enuf about it.. next week got econs quiz also.. 20% of final score.. whee! lol that one still okay la but must revise.. all rusty already plus lecture always doze off.. lol.. o and 1 more thing.. i got a hamster in my room! haha.. our hall fren ain has this hamster called mafia (i dunno y called this name also) haha and she has to go back home on weekends so she left it in our room to feed her.. keke.. very cute and adorable! haha.. sleeps and eats and sleeps again.. lol.. she doesnt bite.. very gentle.. unlike those male hamster that i use to see.. keke.. okay she is sleeping now.. later in e nite will be very active.. lol

okay must sleep early today.. well now.. everyone take care! jia you for a levels! keke.. and jia you for end of term exams! keke take care of health ya.. keke..

complicated..

2007-10-17T13:24:00.000+08:00

ah! exams are getting closer and closer once again.. but after twelve years of studying i sort of gotten desensitise already.. ya study lo what else can i do? haiz.. but before i can do that i still have some assignments to complete.. quite annoying huh.. but den again work is never ending de la..

yesterday nite had a casual chat with hall friends about relationship and people.. why is it that we become more and more unhappy as we grow up? and why is it that we tend to be more complicated and tend to try to harm others more when we grow up? cant we just be simpler? it has always been my principle to see the world through a simplified angle and to view things as plain as they are.. sometimes we dont need to think too much to be happy.. like i always said.. simplicity is beautiful.. keke.. but obviously nowadays few people think that way anymore.. there are some who are out there to harm others.. and thats why while we try to be simple we need to guard against those people.. which is somehow why i like being together with hall friends in the hall.. its like a small world of our own which has this artificial peacefulness and serenity.. which protects us from the outside world.. okay la hall peeps are fun and they don't wear masks.. just happy little people.. so i wish everyone out there the best! try not to complicate things and smile each day ya.. because life is too short to be unhappy and to hate others don't you think? but at the same time to guard against those who are out to hurt.. live every moment happily..

and last week is hui's and han's bday! here wishing them a very happy belated bday! haha very happy that we're having a 2/10 gathering! though its just a small one but hey small group means we have more time to talk to one another right? keke.. friday ah dun forget! keke.. and han ar han.. good luck for the upcoming a levels! you don't worry too much okay? i know the stress is intense but then you know you can do it.. i know you can do it!

o and just receive news that tml economics lecture is postpone to saturday! o noooo!! that means saturday is burnt already.. still have to go school.. sobs.. suppose to be five day week de ma but don't know why lecturer lost voice.. sing k box too much because of promotion period? lol..

and to ellie.. hey in case you see this hor *bleahx* haha.. surprise! keke.. do take care and rest well k i know these few days you have not been sleeping well.. moreover lectures early in the morning.. content so dry somemore.. must drink more water -.-" haha.. k be happy o!

k la i end here le.. everyone take care okay! jia you for exams and balance your studies! remember mugging is not the way okay =)

busy week..

2007-10-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

phew! such a busy week.. this week a bit busier cause next week got 2 consecutive assignments due.. the craft of writing essay and the harder chinese 1000 words report plus recording.. but i juz done both within the weekend.. so now relaxing a bit.. burnt my sat and sun sia.. keke.. in hall room whole day chiong..

but okay la.. kinda gotten settled already.. very use to this simple and regimental lifestyle.. simplicity is good.. keke.. anyway the FOC (freshmen orientation camp) recruitment for hall and my HSS has come! gotta go try out for GL.. i hope i can cope? hmm.. but i had fun this year joining the camps.. so wanna join again.. actually i think i will join every year la.. cause orientations are always full of fun and memories dun u think? kinda make you leave a little piece of yourself behind each time.. den when u look back at it.. you noe u have no regrets cuz its a once in a lifetime thing.. keke..

as for now.. think everything is in its place ba? more or less.. keke.. still miss life in jc though.. keke.. for those studying for a levels.. jia you for the last lap! for those in uni.. jia you for mid terms! keke.. be well =)

recess week..

2007-09-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

ooO recess week comes and goes.. juz like that 10 days gone le.. when they say happy moments pass fast they mean it huh? keke.. o well sch restarts again.. anyway the little break however little it was was fun.. had movies, bbqs and super supper! haha.. hard to list them all down la.. since i so long nv blog den they accumulate lol.. ok its my fault that i din blog regularly.. maybe one of the reason being i dun have much com access in sch.. haven get a lappy yet.. getting one soon! keke

anyway recess week over means half e semester gone le o! which means end of term exams r drawing nearer and nearer.. shirks at the thought of it.. lol.. anyway dun wanna mention that now.. i realise a lot of pple very busy recently huh.. those in business busy wif projects like vion and jess lol.. den those going for a levels also stress up now already.. haiz.. life is never ending i suppose.. jia you jia you jia jia you o!

o and speaking abt never ending.. surprises r never ending as well! i din noe laraza has so many pro singers! that time go k box find out wa! so pro sia all head voice chest voice use like no one's business lol.. good good.. so this means we can have frequent k box outings already.. amazingly i also found out that my frens at hall r singers not clubbers.. good.. all very guai guai de.. haha.. we can have overnight supper and overnight singing but not overnight clubbing.. lol..

my course peeps r good singers too! that time went wif tin tin and bin bin and the joyce group.. wa strong sia.. and duets r nice! guy and gal dui4 chang4! superb! it was indeed an eye opener for me when i suddenly realise all the frens around me very pro at singing.. how come no1 go join project superstar? aiya mai2 mo4 ren2 cai2.. make me feel so inferior.. haiz.. lolz tin tin especially.. u shud hear her high notes.. zai!

and lastly.. for all those who have a little child in them (including me lol) tml is children's day! happy children's day to all! be young at heart yeah.. age is juz a number keke.. be well everyone and take care!

dinner and dance..

2007-09-11T13:22:00.000+08:00

yet another week.. haha.. kinda happy actually that time is passing so fast.. cuz this means mid term recess is coming! yay holidays! haha.. only one week though and i think that week is meant for us to study not to play cause its "mid term" lol.. but den again who reli cares rite? in e end also will play a bit de.. and i think the hall peeps have some events lined up already.. wow when it comes to play they sure are efficient eh?

went to NUS last friday to celebrate mummy's bday to suprise her in her hall.. her hall is very ulu (secluded) from the rest of the school! i din believe it when she told me.. maybe she's exaggerating.. but when i go there i kinda get wat she meant.. u have to take 96 from clementi mrt to go into NUS.. ok thats not too bad.. den at central library bus stop u alight and take a shuttle bus till the very last stop.. and its reli quite far.. not reli walkable.. so this means when the shuttle bus closes for service u cant get to her hall anymore even though u can get into NUS.. i think the shuttle bus closes quite early.. like maybe 11 last bus? so it is reli inconvenient cause many a times u return after 11 rite? dun say uni la.. even in jc or sec sch also got return later than 11 de ma.. keke.. but anyway to be fair the hall is quite nice.. very serene and quiet.. good for studying.. and facilities not bad either.. anyway happy 19th bday mummy! i wish u a smooth sailing and fruitful year ahead! do smile and stay happy ya!

this thurs got k box outing wif hall peeps and sat got dinner and dance! woah busy busy.. haha.. dinner and dance is something like prom nite but its hall de.. dunno wats the purpose of it la but its fun! woohoo! no wonder they say hall life is happening..

hmm.. nese must take care ya.. i dunno wat else i can say and i noe it hurts.. but juz gif it some time okay? i believe everything will be fine in e end.. pls take good care of ur health ya.. if u need anything im here.. we all very worried to see u like this..pls pls do get well soon.. i noe some things u must figure out for urself de.. but in any case.. i wish u well and happiness.. =)

rest n recreational..

2007-08-29T18:39:00.000+08:00

okay this week has been relatively smooth and ordinary.. hope rest of the weeks also like that.. as the title suggests this week is more RnR la.. keke.. been to some dance concerts within the campus to support yiming (hallmate) keke.. man when he's dancing he simply is hot! haha.. well the concert is nice.. keke been to some chalets also over the weekend with mummy and daughters and nisha.. keke.. and their other halves too.. RnR as well.. did some graded assignments and handed them up.. starting to like the orderly pattern of life.. wake up sch den bath eat study slp.. quite nice actually.. trying hard to go for simple things nowadays..

got back my passport yesterday.. so means now i can travel back home again! think i running out of supplies.. must go home and get some more this weekend.. keke.. o and gotten my ez link too! wow orange tertiary card with sch logo.. chio sia lol.. k la not that chio actually and its also adult fare but i dunno y i juz love the card.. sense of belonging perhaps.. keke

eh.. life is ordinary so far.. at least up to the mid week point.. keke.. k shall keep this entry short.. o ya.. went to the uni pageant yesterday nite as well (as audience) keke.. well.. lets put it this way.. i think there r a lot of other capable hunks and babes who were not showcased yesterday and have gone off unseen.. shud have more talents up there ba.. keke..

alrite den.. my frens pls be well.. for those chionging for A lvls final period.. trust me i noe how it feels like.. jia you jia you!

adapting..

2007-08-21T18:34:00.000+08:00

ok.. 3rd week wasnt so bad.. i guess everyone was a freshie once and everyone was blur once so this is inevitable huh.. but the fog is starting to clear up.. at least now i understand the lectures (some of it i guess).. haha.. but den again no worries im not dejected at all! in fact i think im quite contented wif my life because i have lots of fellow hall mates to support and assist me when i need anything.. boy are they super enthu man.. every nite also got activities.. even on weekday nites! lol.. and how can i forget my chinese mates.. they're very helpful too! chinese faculty is relatively small compare to facs like engineering (120 compare to 1000? 2000?) but den small is good in a way because we all noe each other and we're all reli helpful! like 1 person print notes he or she will print copies for all of us.. not the impression i had in mind of uni where it is everyone for themselves.. i guess other than academic everything else shud be quite in place.. keke..

speaking of academic.. juz now in lecture lecturer sprung a surprise quiz for us.. its graded la! omg.. haiz den we all so shocked.. "juz 2 questions about chinese literature" she said.. but den its not the number of the questions but e difficulty! okay la its not too hard but for pple like me i dunno how to answer la.. 1st question is ask u which dynasty's chinese literature do u like best and why.. the 2nd question is ask u whether u would agree that poems is the mainstream in chinese culture and literature and why.. haha see not hard rite? at least u all wud understand the question.. but if i reli wan u to write out an answer how wud u write? now does it seem harder already? moreover i dun have poets and poems to quote to substantiate my answer lo so it seems shallow.. haiz.. suan le its over..

okay so the term goes on.. still considering whether to switch course not.. cause switching course within sch of HSS means got transfer of AU (credits we need to graduate) so in other words the modules i study wont go to waste.. but who noes? maybe i will come to like chinese? we shall see.. keke..

uni life..

2007-08-09T19:39:00.000+08:00

ooook so the 1st week of sch begins.. of cuz u all noe uni gives a whole load of freedom and ur no longer wearing uniform and all that.. but who wud have tot that u wud have to fight for modules and go to web to see all the announcements and queue up for 1 hr juz to print ur notes? i guess even though i was mentally prepared not to be spoon fed anymore.. im still shock by the drastic change in my life.. but like my roommate says.. this is all part of growing up.. and when i noe i can sleep until 1430 and go for one lecture and thats it for the whole day.. i noe i have flipped open a very different chapter of my life..

not to say uni is "slack".. i wud rather say uni is all base on independence.. everything u will have to do for urself.. go website check for announcements and check for lecture notes and final emergency stuffs like sudden change of lecture time or make up lectures.. and there is this "add-drop period" that i have to mention.. it's super crazy man.. to put it simply across to those who r not yet in uni.. its a period where the uni open their system to let u take up the subjects that u wanna study.. yeah sure its simple juz go online and select and add those subs into ur acc.. but the prob is there is limited spaces and so many applicants! so the uni opens the system at 0930 on 7th august and we r all camping in front of the com all ready to press the add button.. the moment the server opens within 30 secs every good module is gone.. only left those modules either very hard to score or in those unholy timings like 1730 to 1730 which is crazy.. im totally stupefied.. i mean.. we r here to study but yet we have to fight for our modules? wow so this is uni huh.. haiz..

the lectures r okay.. i heard from my fren engine is totally speedy man they juz touch and go and u dunno wat they r talking abt cause everything is so fast like squeeze 2 years jc stuff into 2 hrs kinda stuff.. for my literature thingy its still ok.. but still not use to the fact that lecture is conducted in chinese and im actually not very cina.. im cina i listen to cina songs but ever since young all lessons r conducted in english rite? not very use to it yet.. very weird.. and everyone speaks proper chinese.. very few singlish.. not use to that too.. lots of pple ask me y im in this faculty.. i guess i dun need to elaborate again.. haiz.. too late to regret now.. sobs.. moreover i dun have a strong chinese background so when they talk abt poems and poets and phrases den i totally blank out.. wat exactly is chinese literature? li bai.. oni noe the famous moonlight poem.. haha oops

but above academic of cuz uni is fun.. i have outings like everyday! og outing and hall outings and stuff.. everything is so on la.. pple juz sms u and everyone say they can make it.. totally happening man.. its super nice and u feel very cosy to noe u can count on someone.. haha.. when i ask them if can print for me notes or help me wif stuff they agreed without hesitation! it makes u feel very heart warming.. keke.. now have k box movies dinner supper everything la.. super zai man..

well.. wat i plan to do now is to chiong double major.. i wonder if i can do it.. pple tell me its stress la but i noe i have to do it.. bo bian lo.. who tell me go wrong course.. now have to double up to make it up.. if possible i wanna double major in chinese and economics.. but have to do sufficiently well la.. haiz.. see how 1st..

o ya.. think dun talk to much abt stressful stuff la.. anyway today is national day so happy 42th bday to singapore! haha.. marina got pretty fireworks but den i noe is squeeze like sardines one so its quite useless to go and even if u go there early to camp there den how u come back? by the time u come back mrt buses and everywhere wud be so crowded lo.. keke.. nvm la later we gathering in hall again to talk talk..

its ok la i noe i have my frens around.. i juz hope i will be alrite.. *pray pray* well sch finally start le.. so from now onwards u all jia you k! i think thats it for now.. wish me luck! all the best to all my frens and loved ones!