i died the day you left me

Thursday, August 25, 2005

wireless connection~~

hmm..thurs le wor..very soon fri will come le den can enjoy the good weekend again..all e tests r coming to an end cause promos coming..haha..shud i say this is good or bad ne? haiz..but den can enjoy some days without tests la for the time being..so take 1 step at a time ba..kekeZzZ..

now using the laptop that leong borrowed from the general office to blog..actually they borrow it for PW de..but den i ask them then they say they do finish written report le..so can let me use..although the wireless connection in canteen not too good..but den shud say that this is the first time i blog in the canteen!! haha..wireless quite cool la..can go online without any wires..too bad i dun even have com here..haiz..

hmm..how to describe my feeling now ne? shud say a bit confused and frustrated ba..haiz..din expect such a thing to happen to my daughter wor..haiz..tot that he is such a nice guy..who wud expect....haiz...suddenly have very little faith in guys..even though im one of them myself..i cant help but to think that guys r quite inconsiderate about relationships..how can like tt de? always hurt gals..haiz...dunno wat to say la..shall not comment too much..but i wanna tell daughter to cheer up k..i noe this is hard and no matter wat i say it is unavoidable to feel sad and cry..but i wan u to try to be happy and dun think too much la..this is e crucial period and i dun wan u to gif up k? remember that it is not ur fault and that please continue to believe that there is true love in this world..haiz..smile k? =)..everything will be alrite de la i assure u..

hmm..today quite early dismiss..1430 dismiss already..actually is until 1600..but den teacher suddenly say tutorial cancelled today den tml extend from 5 to 6..haiz..so in the end also no benefit lo..juz that move to tml oni..but kinda happy now la..cause for very long time i never see afternoon sun le..everytime dismiss so late i come out already evening liao..today can see sunshine so bright..woah!~

hmm...now sitting at the canteen table wif leong..qin qin and hui..the laptop is they borrow de...leong say " it's very boring! " haha..he wan me to blog this in..=X haha..he was juz being framed for taking eunice's phone call!! haha..

later think going CWP lo..today wanna play my heart out..so stressed recently..and also to prevent myself from thinking abt sad stuffs..haiz..reli wan daughter to be alrite wor..sorry i noe im harping too much on it..haiz..

hmm..jess ar jess..juz wats wrong wif u ne? seriously i noe there is something wrong lo..but i noe maybe u have some reasons that u dun wanna tell me..not forcing u la but i very worried leh..aiyo u dun stress hor..

vion ar vion...u very chio le la k..remember hor dun pour too much ethanol k? haha..dun think too much la..no1 will see de la..aiyo u ar..>.<..thinking too much le la..keke

k la..think i end here le..keke..everyone enjoy the weekend k? mummy u also take care ar..sick le leh..must take good care of urself wor.. dun blood boil over him la..everything will be fine de..i also very worried abt u wor..haiz..k la..stay happy alwayZzZ..smile!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:22 PM

Sunday, August 21, 2005

home sweet home..

woah..so long since i use back this com le..haha..back in malaysia now after 2 and a half months..=)..still like own com best..dun have to use at pple's mercy..pple say they wanna use u have to gif it up..pple say hurry up den u very kang cong..haha

anyway..tml have chemistry SPA on skill BD...have to memorise somethings..still haven memorise yet...later memorise..haha..relax and use com first..

hmm..friday after sch received sudden sms from mummy..she say play pool at 8..haha den ended up all of us dawned again for the whole nite..den next morning went back home 15 mins to change to sch uniform den go out again for inter-house games..wah..din feel tired sia..but when i went back home yesterday nite..feel like battery flat..cause oni when u settle down u will feel tired..haha..anyway the pool was fun..it was nice seeing mummy and daughter again..i dunno y..i miss them more and more..haha=)..anyway..they got SPA soon also rite? good luckz leh..

hmm..jess u ok or not? me recovering le leh..u also must recover ar..cannot like tt dun see doctor den keep on sucking tablets..haha..must tell me u ok ar...o and pls be happy..rest more..u look quite tired

woah...today's big thing is the 1st chat i had wif vion..cause i got little chance to touch com in singapore so finally i can get to see her online le..haha..she also in SIGMA le..in future can have more chance to see her...yay! k la..dun worry too much k? u mei mei la..;)

woah...din tot much abt it..but actually..sep holidays r coming again! yay! haha..everyone must be looking forward to it hor? but den after that promos coming le leh..haha..how ne? try not to think abt it..but still scared la...keep having the feeling that i wun make it..*sob sob*

hmm..k la..make this blog short ba..everyone out there take care k? stay happyZ always..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 5:40 PM

Friday, August 19, 2005

wah..agony>.<

woah..finally friday again le..me in library blogging again..hmm..sch was tough today especialy wif my sickness..had a very bad flu i guess wif very bad blocked nose and sore throat..even as im blogging i am having difficulty concentrating..haha..haiz..dunno wat to say la..anyway..was very tired and juz glad that weekends r coming..but tml got inter-house games!! need to come again wor..haiz..satureday eaten away le..=(

hmm..now together wif jess..i dunno wat she doing though..walking around the library haha..i think she waiting for me to blog finish la..so i will make this entry very short..dun wan her to wait long though..=)..haha..noe she very kind la but reli dun wnna make her wait..too long a entry also very boring for pple to read ma rite? =)

nth happen much today lo..tiring sch day..juz had econs test..finally the whole week of tests over le..haha..next week got SPA leh..haiz even more stress=(..juz hope that i can enjoy my weekend first..i dun wanna think too much..juz trying to be happy;)..

hmm..now both me and jess sick le o! but i tink she also never take goo care of herself..haha..she never go see doctor leh..like that how to recover? haha..hope the both of us can recover ba..but luckily today better than yesterday le..yesterday i pain until cannot slept well..den pain until i cannot tahan den go buy panadol..took an overdose of 4 tablets..den today morning took another 4 again.finish the whole box within a day..feeling much better now..haha now den i noe panadol must overdose in order to be effectve one..haha

k la...jess beside me now..juz wanna tell her to get well soon..if not i get well le she haven get well den no good le rite? kekeZzZ..anyway..let me keep this entry short ba..library too cold liao..k..everyone take care k? hmm..dina u also take care ar..wan me help u find bf or not? lolx..k la..smileZzZ and stay happy always..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 5:20 PM

Thursday, August 18, 2005

pain!!! >.<

library closing in 15mins time so quickly come here to put a simple entry first..haha

wah..this morning woke up reli pain!!! >.<>

cuz of this whole day din concentrate much in sch..was feeling dizzy>.<..haha..very sleepy and reli painful..haiz..

k la..shall not make this entry too long..tml last day le..yay! friday again..hmm..can get to enjoy weekend again..but heard got inter-house games dunno true or not that everyone must come..if true den saturday kena eaten away again..haiz..=)..got econs test tml..last stage le..these 4 days had been hard sia..perhaps im too weak?

juz look forward to hanging out wif my frens again..keke..hope ur all doing fine?

o yar..yesterday at CWP saw mummy..haha..she and daughter and qin and bernie was at CC..that was when i saw them..perhaps i was a bit impatient den so dunno wat i doing..haha ran away..kinda regret doing so..shud have sticked wif them and chat chat..after all..i wasted 1.5 hrs waiting for rong..haiz..nvm la he already say sorry le dun blame him..

how come so long never see han le ne? dunno how is she doing..i heard o level practicals over le..this year one strange strange one..haha..i hope u all did well han? o yar and pei pei..how did the practicals went? ok ma? tag on my blog to let me noe k? miss ya pei pei~~

hmm..jess sick le o..must eat medicine k? aiyo eat other pple medicine not healthy for u ar..must go see doctor urself!! haiz..dunno how to say u la..but please take care..un wan u to get worse k? hows the econs test? *tips tips*

k la..oops..librarian scolding le..closing in 5 mins time..k la i go le..everyone take care! stay happy alwayZzZ..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 5:40 PM

Friday, August 12, 2005

woah~~ bad flu day..

haha..come here again le..lucky today release very early so can come here blog..actually is release at 4 de but den hor got some staff exercising thing in the sch so release early..think it is some celebration event..not compulsory for us to attend though so can go out and play!! =P wah but this bad flu is reli killing me..nose blocked for the whole day den the mucus keep running down..so xing ku!!=X..haha..hope i will get well soon..this is reli affecting me man..hahaZzZ

haiz..but next week got so many tests..i also dunno how to cope

mon- GP and chemistry
tues- physics
thurs- maths
fri- econs

haiz..tough week next week..nvm la it dun bothers me for now..i juz wanna have fun wif mummy..she maybe have chem lecture now..but we meeting later at CWP to buy present for ying..haha..tml her bday wor..keke..later meeting mummy and daughter le lo=)

hmm..today mood still ok..but den still not very very happy that kind la..i guess need some time to recover..

last nite hear that song again..haiz..make me think of all the things that happened..sometimes i was wondering if i shud ever confess~~ love is like a gambling den? u take risks sometimes..normally it is the guys who take the first move..i dun mind tat..in fact that shud be the case ma..guys MUST take first move by rite..but the problem here now is..shud i enter the gambling den again?

haiz...the feeling of bottling up is not very pleasant..but wat else can i do? once bitten twice shy..if oni she gif me little hint or something..suan le ba..dun ask too much..i guess i not fated in this world or something..that god born me without the other half..

here in sch all my frens' priorities r studies..mostly ba i guess..but den i noe very clearly now that my priority is to live every sec of my life happily wif the person i love..haha..kinda fairy tale..but den i think that is more meaningful than studies to me lo..=)

haha..k la..dunno y i started talking abt all these stuffs all of a sudden..perhaps juz feel kinda bothered ba..hmm..well den..let this entry end here ba..everyone out there enjoy ur weekend k? happy belated national day!! hahaZzZ..o yar and thanks jess for helping wif my EOM..cudnt have done it without u...thanks ar and enjoy ur movie..han ar if u see this tag on my board to tell me how r u doing recently k? miss u wor..k la..byeZzZ

if the love has already fade..
den i wun ask u to stay..
i wud rather walk away..
and grant u and him my most sincere fate..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:23 PM

Thursday, August 11, 2005

happy national day!! =P

wah..this time reli ultra long never update blog..haiz..sorry sorry everyone..had been quite busy wif sch recently den no time come library..haha...think quite a lot of things happen ba? u all okay ma? pls tag to let me noe how r all of u doing k? kekeZzZ..

hmm..first of all let me juz write a bit on how i spent my ND holidays..haha..mon half day ma..den after sch all my classmates all separated..some went sec sch some went home..haiz so sad my class never go out together one..oni left me grace and pee jay..haha.. den 3 of us went to eat lunch lo..haha at bukit panjang plaza..haha had quite a lot of fun la wif them..quite crappy..but most of all gossipped about class matters..SHHH!! haha..ok la after that they went home le lo..den i went CWP find rong play pool..haha..den met pei pei wor..haha..wah her hair reli shiok..shuai!! haha hope ur looking at it now hor mummy..kekeZzZ..she and angela and some CCSS frens went to took neoprints..haha..chio liao lo pei pei..bet KM sure like u more de..haha..

after that rong come le lo..den we went play pool at CWP..play until very long..den play wif aaron and HR somemore..haha..play until veyr late la until never go home..haha..den mummy and daughter ask me go see fireworks..together wif fang fang and qin..haha...den i dun wanna make it too boring la..juz noe that we spent e whole nite outside at esplanade and orchard..haha

ok la..next day wif them in e morning den they went home le lo..all so tired le..like reli battery flat sia...haha..mummy u got take care ma? must take care leh..hehe..den i wnt home bathed and went out again..wif mei mei and ning and guys..haha..had fun wor..went play pool den went watch fireworks at marina south..haha..reli nice wor..=)den reach home around midnight den sleep le..damn tired never sleep 4 2 days..haha

wed was quite boring la..cause today had chem test ma..so yesterday basically was studying..haha..but got spent some time call mummy BBSS la...hmm..mummy...i will tell u when the time is ripe k? got some stuff i dunno how to say..but i juz wan u to noe that i trust u more than anyone k? keke..

haha..so long never blog must make this entry longer..still got quite a number of things happen during this period of time..=)got one thing very funny..haha..b4 national day holiday that time on saturday i think..i went out wif TL..heng..john..jonathan..yun..lip and hwee..haha..we played pool for the whole night until the pool closed...den we go "ghost walk" to kranji war memorial..somemore if i never remember wrongly that day is the first day of the chinese 7th month leh!! haha so scary..actually i also dun wanna go one but they all psycho me den in e end cannot resist lo..haha..wah the whole place so cool man..so dark wif all the tombs..haha..reli lo like so spooky..luckily we not the oni pple here..but still very scary la..after that walk all the way to kranji beach..eh very far ok not play play one hor..i think that nite in total i got walked about 10km wor..wah legs breaking..haha..but it was fun wif them la so long never meet...very crappy also..=)

den on sunday also went out wif wei wei brinjal yee YC HY CL to marina bay there to support darren..haha..he very shuai man..wu shu wor..keke..den after that went chinatown eat porridge..wah..i must say no wonder the porridge there so famous sia..not ordinary one..haha..had fun la..joked a lot too..until i nearly lost my voice..haha

ok la..tat is abt everything that happened..hmm..juz now had chem test wor...quite hard although i spent around the whole day studying for it..i hope i can pass..i noe i will be reli reli dejected if i fail..haiz..k la i tupid cannot blame anyone..juz leave it to god le lo..i juz wanna relax now..brain cells all dead..haha

hmm..jess ar jess...very sorry wor let u wait so long..u wanna go liao den still wait for me i very guilty de wor..haha..anyway i juz wanna mention here that i think i sure die long long ago le if it wasnt for u..haha.thanks for the help gal.. must take care k and pls dun cry..haha=)

hmm..vion ar..if u managed to see this..haha juz wanna apologise to u too..that day was my fault..haha..i too late already den u cannot go..haha..hmm..ur body also not feeling well must take care lots ar..=)..will continue to check out for u de..pls zao gu zhi ji!!

still got a lot of things that happened during this period but i think i din list all wor..haha sorry sory memory not good enuf..anyway..that time was watching fireworks wif dina kim fang and qin..suddenly feel very happy and sad..haiz..the firework is very nice la..perhaps cuz i very long never see fireworks le so see liao also very happy..haha..but the sad thing was the beautiful fireworks is so high up in the sky that it is out of my reach..haiz..kinda remind me of her=(..out of my reach

i wonder how many times more i can get to see the beautiful fireworks..our lives r short..sudenbly felt a huge surge of helplessness..haiz..tried very hard to control my tears on that nite...suan le ba..love is often not two-sided..i suppose im juz not goot enuf? =)...i must admit there r many good guys out there..

o well..let me end here den..will try to update soon de..take care all..

if only we can stay at that moment for eternity..
but i noe that ur heart will never be wif me..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 5:25 PM

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当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋