Saturday, March 25, 2006
tree? or wind? =X
there was once when a man saw a boy staring at the trees swaying in e breeze in a park..the boy stood there motionless for such a long time juz simply staring at the peaceful trees in the gentle breeze..upon curousity..the man approached the boy and ask "may i noe y u were staring at those trees wif such attention?" the boy look at him and answer "i hear the sound cause by the breeze and the tree..but i have a problem..does the sound result from the tree or the breeze? i cant figure it out" the man smiled and answer the boy's question indirectly..actually...it does not reli matter which one cause the melodious sound..when u put those 2 objects separately..they r silent on their own..a still tree does not make any noise nor does wind alone..however..if u combine the 2 objects together..the interaction produced the peaceful and serene sound that set city-dwellers' hearts to rest in their bustling lifestyle...wat matters is not the origin of the product..but the product itself..there is no definite answer that the sound is called "tree sound" or "breeze sound"..but y must we torture ourselves wif such unrevelling mysteries?in life..we r like an object ourselves..everyone of us is a single unique object..however..each one of us made little or no impact if we were to live alone..maybe u wud disagree but thats true for me..if u put me in this world alone..den i wud rather die the second i am born..for without my frens..i wud not be who im today..without my frens..life wud be like living hell and there wud be no meaning in wateva we do..however..it is because of this interaction between pple that made our lives meaningful and purposeful..i wud dare say for me that i can live quite happily and content abt my life now all cuz of my frens..this is in fact the most important part of our lives..imagine wat ur life wud be..if ur the oni one in this earth..wud u still work hard? study? play? wif who? =) so.. im glad that i met all the pple i did..from pri sch..to sec sch..all the way 2 pioneer...ur the ones who kept me going..and made my life worthwhile..if not i wud have given up long ago.. =Du must be wondering how come this entry like so weird de suddenly talk abt this kinda life perspectives..haha..actually nothing much la..cause today common tests over le ma..den felt quite relieve..den see all my frens' faces all a bit happier and more relax..den make me even more happier also cause now i noe everyone's less tense up..i mean..wats e point when ur e oni one happy rite? all happy den good ma correct or not? so suddenly felt like telling this little story to express my feelings.. so yar...common tests finally over le wor!! it reli comes and goes fast doesnt it? haiz..although it comes fast..but now also like so fast over liao..in juz the interval of one week we can be so stress until so slack..the difference of a thousand miles..haha..kinda like a miracle eh? of cuz no1 wans it to be longer la..but come to think of it..haha..it has reli been some time since i studied so hard..haha..time to rest again! =Xi hope all of u had fun today? haha..some pple dun have physics so dun need come..got go out enjoy urself to e fullest ma? some pple like me today last paper end at 0800 also quite early can be counted as free for the day la hor..enjoy enjoy! k la i end it off here for now..take care of urself k! b4 we get back our results on mon this weekend play our head down 1st..dun think too much ^^!
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 12:42 AM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
the bulk is over! =P
well..although common tests not over yet..but den all the paper 2 all over le!! yay! this calls for an early celebration! haha..mon econs essay over le..yesterday physics paper over le and today chemistry paper over le! now all we have to wait is econs DRQ and econ chem physics MCQ to be over! haha..friday friday here we come!well..so far okok lo..but it looks like my aim to keep promo score is burst le..haiz..cause once i do the maths i very scared im gonna fail..econs and physics quite ok la but think around C or D there oni..so..i drop my aim liao..triple Cs! hope can get..this is relatively an easy aim..although i noe this kinda score for A level wont get me anywhere..but..i dun wanna be sad so kinda deceiving myself? hahak la not so much abt common tests here..to my surprise i haven plan my friday! haha wat u all gonna do the moment u all finish the tests? play ur head down rite? keke..i guess my class will probably have some class outing so i think dun plan anything 1st..but looking forward to saturday too! to go out wif mummy and my 2 daughters and our family fren..=Pstill very worried abt vion though...ok one thing is sure now is that its not stress..but in my view this makes me more worried..if its not studies..its gonna be something more serious rite? i reli hope im wrong..but i understand that maybe she juz needs some time alone? so i try not to probe her..i juz pray that she will be alrite..hey vion..everyone juz live one..must live happily k!same goes for ting ting...hey ting..now our bulk over le u not so stress le ba..gif me a smile alrite! keke..that time see u after physics paper like v stress like that..unwind unwind >.<>
woah..never new xiaoru have a blog too! haha...cool..haven link her yet but will link her once i get to see her online and ask abt her address..haha..she can reli sleep sia sleep till like noon still wanna sleep..o.^
hey june u ar run here run there..lol! haha that time at locker there see u den u remind me to ask for ur number rite? den i went to take my bag cause i put it in fren's locker den i dunno his password so i have to hurry if not he close the locker liao..den i come back..poof! juney disappear..=( sob sob..
k la..last but not least jess! hey silent blog reader..u online now ma? keke..can get A de u dun worry..i set aim for u liao..either AAC or ABC or ABB! can make it de rite?i noe u can de la..=D but most of all im glad that ur not moody..cannot be de leh..exams over le must play! dun care..haha..
k la..i think the next time i come here common tests over liao...jia youZzZ everyone! we can do it de..cause we "believe while we live we learn"...lalala
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 12:52 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
common tests..more stress?
hmm..so juz as i tot..in the twinkle of an eye march holidays nearly over le..cannot say i never play at all la..got play also..half of it..den came back malaysia on wednesday and for the other half kept myself at home to revise..wow im finally studying?! cant believe myself also..like the martial arts expert going back into the cave to "bi men jing xiu" haha =P
anyway..juz wanna make this a short entry to mark the end of the holidays and the beginning of the rest of the common tests! since it is not the kind of hour of the day whereby my mind functions normally..i juz wanna mention a few stuffs..
vion y sad again? aiyo..u ar..izzit cuz of stress? or izzit sth else ne? i dun care i think we need to chat chat again le o..haiyo u ar..tell u studying this kinda stuff cannot force urself de wor..keke..anyway i hope its only temporary? pls tell me its oni temporary it pains my heart to see vion sulk leh..=( dun sulk k must =D after all..after juz 5 days common tests over le ma..den can destress and enjoy urself rite? must look on the bright side okay!
hmm..tin also stress..also cuz of common tests..haiz..although she din appear v affected by it but i can see that she's moody..wei..must cheer up k! must be happie tin tin! all the common tests fault la make all my frens =( liao..haiz..wei..cheer up k! dun like tt la..
ok..juz reaslise that rongy started her own blog yesterday! haha..it's ok la i understands that juz start blog cannot adapt to it de..but den if u try to post sth there day by day u will slowly figure everything out how it works..when i started this blog 1yr++ ago..i also dunno anything..how to post also must pple teach me..but once u get the hang of it..it juz feels like writing a diary and it feels great cause u can get stress and woes and sorrows off ur mind and share wif pple ur joys!
speaking of joy and woes..jess ar jess..u another one..studies is important BUT health leh? no need me say le ba..MUST eat!! haha..add oil add oil! jia youZzZ!
o yar juney..i dunno y but yesterday nite i dreamt of u leh..woah~~ haha..incredible! haha the dream i tell u in my next entry or wat..keep in suspense 1st..=P alrite dun worry..i will try my best to remember to ask for ur number de >.< juney must jia you for common tests also ar..*pinch pinch* must not stress out oOo!
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:08 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
phone calls..sms..feelings
hmm..juz had a conference call wif nese..mummy..and nisha..its about our outing after the common tests..well..e details we discuss of cuz..but that's not the main point i wanna share here..it has been some while since i listen attentively to their voices..attentively as in using my emotions..using my soul to feel their voice..their feelings..everyday we converse wif pple..but wif mere words but little emotions..so tonite..cuz my surroundings r all quiet (including tv off) so im in total silence..then while listening to them talking..i realise how sweet their voices r to my ears..okay okay..i mean sweet as in both literally and emotionally..i mean..reli their voice is v cute and sweet..juz v comfortable to hear and makes u feel like u wanna juz sit there silently and listen to them talk..but den..on a more spiritual level..it has been some time since anyone's voice warmed my heart..i mean..it's reli nice..even though they may not realise it and did it unintentionally..but i felt great..appreciated it..thanks!i talked wif pei pei juz now also..juz that this call she seems quite moody..not the usual pei pei i wud noe..haiz..its about that thing again isnt it? she's always like that..trying to act strong even if she noe she is weak inside..actually pei pei is a gal who needs care and concern a lot in my view..no matter she admits it or not..it's juz that her bark is worse than her bite...reli! she's v nice de ok! =) i hope she can cheer up..though i can feel that my advices have little impact..i reli reli hope...pei pei...u can be happy..juz received a goodnite sms from vion..warmed my heart too! thanks vion..think she must be studying this holiday for e common tests so dun wanna disturb her too much this holiday..but she gave me quite a pleasant surprise by sending me this sms! keke..at least she haven 4got me rite? wei...study is study but health also important de k! =P kinda wonders..she got read my blog de ma? lol!someone (secret blog reader) juz change phone...to same model as me hor? haha..wonder if ur reading this now..but anyway...congrats! wei..u also ar..must take care of ur back k? still hurts or not? fang fang made me realise that some happiest things in life is the simplest..sometimes u dun have to spend huge amounts of money and do extraordinary things to make someone's day..sometimes..juz a simple gesture..a simple expression..can make someone v happy..fang fang did exactly wat i needed...thanks =Precently like the song shan hu hai by jay & lara a lot..find lots of meaning in it..lyrics meaningful + nice tune..duet leh! haha...k la i will end here..wan an everyone!re qing bu zai..xiao rong mian qiang bu lai..ai shang nai shan hu hai.....
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 11:07 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
march holidays..common tests
once again..time flies so fast that we took little notice of it...it's march holidays again=) although this year's march holiday was not as happy as last year's..partly because last year j1 can have all the fun..but this year march holiday is used for studying for common tests..no holiday mood at all..=( partly because last year j1 still carefree..can enjoy holiday to the fullest..den this year so much stress..haiz..=(k la enuf about it..no matter wat i hope the holiday wud drag longer..at least dun pass us by so fast..although today is juz e 2nd day..but i have a feeling that in e wink of an eye..it will all be over..nevertheless..there r some things to be happy about...1st..im sooooo glad and excited and surprised that all the rss pple came to pioneer!! haha..1st 3 months counted 4 of them...so disappointed la last year during my time we have like 30 de leh...but then after JAE they all came! a big bulk of them is from anderson come de..they say they dun like the culture there..then another big bulk of them is from innova come de...think they wanna come here? haha..PJ's not bad la reli...but it's reli v nice to see them come..made my week lo!! hmm..in particular there is bee bee..lin lin..ting ting..si si..ze...wah too many to name..haha..and how can i 4get the most important han ne? haha yay will get to see han for the whole year again le! kekeZzZ...hmm...thurs and fri had gp and maths paper respectively...gp was ok la but i think the summary and AQ quite hard...i hope i can pass? maths..o no i dun wanna talk about it...haiz..think cant make it liao..im so stupid.. i try not to be too affected by it lo and dun appear too sad..but reli inside im feeling very scared..dunno how im gonna get the results..=(! haiz disappointed..how?k la enuf about it le..they always say dun think too much cause it will affect other papers de rite? after march holidays we still have econs physics and chinese..scary sia..=( so gonna start studying le lo...but den had a great time on fri..cause it's the orientation 2 finale!! haha..although i hear from many of my juniors/og that o2 was not as fun as o1 =) but den i did have fun la..cause there r cheers...shoutings...and of cuz mass and fun dance! somemore the j2 (us) gather behind the parade square there and did our own cheers and very high! haha..hard to describe la but its juz very fun...dance around jumping around and shouting around...the best part was that after the finale og6 (pioneerock) decided to have supper together! the 10+ of us was gathering outside lot 1 mac and sit down and chat chat! wow i never realise they were so bonded sia..make me so happy..at least as an o1 OGL i have done my part =P haha..they told me that their o2 OGLs not as good lo..very xian...den a lot of pple pon..den they pon their og also and join together as og6 and danced together..haha..come to think of it that was wat happen during my o2 also..a lot pple pon then so boring den even ogl cried wor..they say some of the ogl cried this time also..=X! greek methothkus..well..i guess i try to pick myself up le ba..haiz..i hope im truly happy..i dunno myself...but i try not to talk about it..anyway the world still moves on no matter wat..=( i hope...i juz hope...one day..i will find my one.....
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 11:40 AM