i died the day you left me

Sunday, February 26, 2006

xing fu shi she me?

xing fu shi she me ne? hmm...

yet another sunday..guess im feeling better today le ba? anyway..wat else can i say? i dun wanna make myself sound reli sad and hopeless and make all the pple around me worry..so i noe on the outside i will appear fine..but who can reli feel my pain?

like a lonely soul walking among the crowd..im lost..trying to find a direction to go..but there is nowhere suitable..i feel like hiding in a corner of loneliness..at least no1 can see me when i cry

i wish im a shooting star..so i can shoot across the sky and fly away..never to be seen again..i wish im a grain of sand on the beach..so insignificant..washed away by the waves to the depths of the ocean and never to surface again..i wish im a fluffy cloud in the clear blue sky..floating by carefreely..but most of all..i wish i can tell u how i reli feel and hold u tight in the eternity of time..

but i noe i cant do that..so all i can do is to be alrite..im alrite...im alrite..........im alrite..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:56 PM

Saturday, February 25, 2006

haiz..

hmm..so much happened in e week..i dunno where to begin...

its amazing wat courage can make us do..it can make us do things that we normally dun..it can make us do wat we tot we cant...still very confused over wat went wrong...but i guess it din matter anymore...hmm..

i noe i must be alrite..i must not be sad..yet i try..try so hard not to cry..to hold back my tears..and everytime it gets harder and harder..e feeling juz wont go away..i feel like i have lost everything in a nite...it feels so empty inside..and all of a sudden..i 4gt how to smile anymore...i guess i will be arite eventually...at least that is wat i must tell myself..the world still moves on doesnt it? it's ok..it reli is..i guess i shall juz learn to accept it and let it be..i told myself b4 that i dun wan e feeling of last year to come back anymore..but..i guess it did..haiz...it's ok..nothing reli matters anymore =)

perhaps someday..i shall disappear..disappear admist the crowd..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 12:22 PM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

common tests..

hmm.. ok so after the JAE and everything..heard lots of stories from many juniors and frens and of cuz many r going away after 1st 3 months..but it is not that they dun like pioneer leh..in fact most of them say they like the culture here very much..although it is rumoured that pioneer is "slack de la =X " but they tell me actually not so..yay! but they also say pioneer is not mugger school either! they say the pple here r very frenly and they had fun and like it here..but den again when it comes to putting it as 1st choice half of them din put pj as 1st choice..some told me their parents dun allow..haiz..it like that one la..who want their child to waste their L1R5 rite? 11 go pj..many pple will be like = lo..dunno y i feel that if i had felt that way..i wun come here and my life wud be totally different now..

another reason they gif is distance..some of the students here 1st 3 months live as far as bishan..bishan to cck..u noe how far? belinda ( my og ) live near harbourfront...even worse lo..so u can see y they dun wanna come back..not cuz here is not fun..well..it's their decision ma i also cant influence them..haiz..juz that a bit sad la not going to see them le..

hmm..ok so these 2 weeks nothing much happened..merely studying and relaxing during the weekends lo..recently not too tired..luckily..i wondered izzit the sushi meal last friday wif jess candy and wen wen that made me so energetic? scallops..haha..anyway..common tests coming in a week...hope i can maintain..im a person who is easily contented..unlike others who aim high..i aim to maintain den enuf le.. BBC! haha..k la will try and study hard de..those who noe me u noe la hor...i is the nite b4 one..=)

dun wanna stress too much talking about studies..got a few good movies recently..particularly i not stupid 2 and fearless..watched them and tot they were quite nice movies...the fearless very action-packed..liked it...fighting jet lee..haha..watched it wif dear dear jess..haha..i not stupid 2 watched it wif mummy daughter and kenneth...i cried lo..haiz..flowing in the sg education system for 11 years..watching it i feel like im watching at myself..lots of emotions..

well..dun wanna make this entry too long..anyway will start and try to study to pick up the momentum..hmm..one more thing...S11 having chemistry test tml...good luck k! miss ya vion=)

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 8:36 PM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

happy valentine's day!

woah..haha..it's valentine's day again! haha..welcome to the season of love~~ =P

haha..these few days the sch quieter by a lot since there r oni j2s..the jc1s r having their jae ma so they dun need to come..kinda envy them since now they have 6 calendar days free and they can go out and have fun and no need wake up early in the morning like we have to..haiz..but of cuz la they will be making their important decision that will probably affect them for a lifetime..well i can oni say we had our turn..during jae2005 we had 5 working days instead of 6 calendar days..this is somewat better cause if u calculate..our o level results release on friday too..den weekends dun count..so starting from mon to fri we whole week no need come..den got another weekend again..so altogether we have 9 days straight holidays! like march holidays like that play until no tml..haha..well but i still miss holidays though..who will say that they have too much of holidays rite? haha =P

well..despite the fact that oni the jc2s r in sch..the valentine atmosphere din decrease much..it was totally...romantic! haha..our student councillors had a service that will deliver balloons..bouquets of chocolate..roses etc to the person that u wanna send..of cuz u need to pay la but the price is v reasonable..like i think $3 oni..cheap rite where can u find such service outside? haha so today we had lots of pple sending lots of stuff around..mostly guys send gals la of cuz..we had physics practical period juz now..den halfway through the councillor was knocking our door and saying "special delivery to eunice from...." and he handed her around 5 balloons..cool lo! haha..wah 5 secret admirers..gotta bug my daughter for the identity liao..haha..joking la..anyway lots of pple receive stuff today la..flowers..chocolate..cards..sweets..all kinds of stuff..after all..who says valentine's day oni for lovers rite?

haha..as for me..i will be having dinner wif daughters and mummy later..i think at cwp..haha..they sa eating something good so im quite delighted at the tot of it..it as been so long since i ate anything outside sch..anything..haha=) eh..so got time den blog blog a bit lo..keke

err..gave jess something today..hope u like it! haha..o yar..vion also..haha secret admirer wor? =P wah go bugis so far..enjoy liao la..keke..anyway..another thing not very related to valentine's day but worth to be happy about is that i pass my maths test! this means no extra remedial for me! wah heng ar..double happiness..

o yar..pei pei how's ur jae so far? last time u say i never write about u so now i write about u le hor! have ya decided on where to go yet? still think u shud stay in SA though if not very wasted leh ur points..haha..

k la..i think i end here..=) happy valentine's day everyone! must enjoy the precious time wif ya lovers/frens/family/close ones k! good times r meant to be treasure..cheers!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:32 PM

Friday, February 10, 2006

o levels..again!!

got a little free time now since sch is over for me early today..hmm..den waiting for the jc1 mass bbq later..so juz nice come library to blog lo..today is a big day of many..in fact..all the jc1s..it is the release of the o level results!!

on mon nite saw from the news that results will be release on today..and time will be 1430..so if im not wrong..in other words as im typing now the results r being release!! i wonder how my juniors and og r doing..hope they all get the results that they deserved and go to the jcs they wanna go k!! i cant force them to stay in pioneer la..of cuz it is undeniable that i would like to see them again here though..been quite emotional yesterday nite and smsed all of them wishing them best of luck for today..but cant help it la..the feeling was juz very jumbled up..wanting them to get good results at one side but den cant bear to see them go to other jcs after the bond that we built in the last 5 weeks..and plus a tinge of sadness as i recalled my own results release day in 2005..

looking at them now reminds me of the day of my release of o level results..i remembered it as if it happened yesterday..as me and my frens walked into the sch wif so much excitement..and then we got even more excited when we saw reporters as we have the top 5NA in whole sg..den DM catch us wif dye hair and ask us to spray it black b4 entering sch..den all of us were having such fun using the hair spray and spraying our hair and passing the can around..haix..so much memories..and den in e hall the principal talk so much b4 giving us our results...so naggy..and the juniors cheering us on..and our feeling when we open that little piece of paper..haiz..so much and so much..one year le..so much memories..cant help but feel a bit sad..

so enuf abt me and more about them le ba..i hope they r having smiles on their faces now lo..haha all my frens r watching me blogging now lo!! i noe that they also wan their juniors to do well la..haha..ting smiling dunno for wat there..haha "instant blog reading" she said..

anyway..i hope that everyone of the snake babies can do well! all e pple in my og..xia..cui cui..han..keruri..mel..inn..joanne..my mei mei..my mummy and sister..u allmust score below 10 k!!

k la..ting laughing crazily again..dunno wat she thinking of..i think i better end off here le..hey vion..must take care k! happy valentine's day in advance juz in case i dun get a chance to blog b4 that..=)

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:44 PM

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当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

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无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋