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Friday, May 26, 2006

wah low gp..

hmm..wah low gp so hard lo.. haiz..i new it..they sure set hard hard one..purposely de ma cause mid yr is going to gear us towards a level liao..but e prob is.. now gp already so hard..den after the holidays the rest of the subjects sure all standards increase de lo..haiz..dunno how i gonna face them..think now also must start studying liao..cant believe im actually saying that..haha.. =)

nothing much lo..today sch ended early..oni mid yr oni ma no lessons..so release at 1130 den i ate at canteen den come here blog blog lo..but den later got class outing to x-men 3 at plaza sing! haha.. think around 1630 so now still early nvm...

actually nothing much to blog abt la..juz that since now got time den come here update if not v long nv update again..u all dun think gp paper hard meh? i cudnt even finish e compre AQ lo..aiyo..haha..anyway relax 1st ya! today can go play 1st den we have 1 month of studying to do..haiz..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 1:20 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

feeling better.. exams!!

hmm..u all dun worry la..especially vion..she saw my previous entry and came to me and asked wat happened..although i was reli guilty that i made her worry quite a bit..i must say im reli touched..zhen de..at the verge of crying lo..lucky i hold back..=D thanks vion..its nice to noe u all r still there..u..jing jing..nese~ all of u..xie le!

haha jess...me using this colour..can see not? not straining to the eyes le rite? dun worry..xie xie 4 ur concern and im feeling lots better le..

i guess the world's still turning no matter wat and no1's life is all smooth sailing rite? hmm..it's like that de la.. although i cant say for sure im totally over it now..but at least i noe i will hold myself together..let nature take its course lo..actually vion and mei mei told me e same thing..quite coincidence but they both told me that actually being attached is not as happy as u think..i suppose there r moments that pple in a relationship will wanna break free and be single for a while..but den pple who r single tend to be so sad that they wanna be attached..ironic isnt it? love is like a fortress..those who r outside wanna get in and those inside wanna get out..hmmm..meaningful..

tml mid year starts le..haiz..1st on the list is gp..although its not a paper that requires much studying..but still its an important subject and it still indicates that mid year is around the corner and that we have oni 4 more weeks to prepare! sad thing is..i think all of the us holiday go down to drain liao..1st week of hols 5 days 4 days have to come back..wat kinda holidays is this? haiz..its like that one la i guess every jc also like that ma..it does pay to get that A A A.. juz 3 alphabets cost us so much..another irony..haha think im obsessed wif gp..keep mentioning about irony..

juz nice got the chance to blog..so i juz wanna wish everyone good lucks and jia you! dun worry..i believe u reap wat u sow..and all my frens i noe they got study de lo when the time comes..jess..bao bao..han..vion..lynn..mei mei..S18 peeps..jia you jia you jia jia you!!!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:27 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

gotten over it?

hmm..it has been quite hectic recently once again and i suddenly realise that i have not updated in a while..haiz..tired physically but more importantly..tired mentally ba..

well..dun wanna make this entry too long and fancy..but recently had a talk wif one of my fren..sorta one to one talk and confiding stuff u noe? haiz..he was e kind of guy who could have "wanted any gal he desire" quoting from wat he said.. no gal was too tough for him and since he was born he has had 7 galfrens! i kinda envied him when he told me about all e sweet memories that he use to share wif them and how he has the ability to make gals tick..not that i wanna get 7 galfrens for myself.. in fact i dun quite like the fact of having so many gfs.. not my kinda life..i juz wan 1 which i cud love and be loved back.. he also told me how he could so easily dump them cuz he has no lack of suitors! i remembered him telling me that he broke up wif one of them wif the reason of "new year change new clothes".. haha.. kinda unbelievable for a person like me but i guess a charming guy like him cud easily do that..

while listening to his stories..memories of mysself drifted back to me..i tot i had let go and live on..have i? i dunno..haiz..i use to think that it wud be so happy and simple wif juz me and her gazing at the stars at nite on a grassy field..haiz..after everything that had happened..i came to realise that maybe i was destined to be a failure in relationships..sure i had frens and i love all of them..but.. i juz cant help but to compare myself wif all those successful cases out there.. everyone seems to be attached nowadays..they look so sweet and loving..no matter or not whether their relationships will last 4ever..it matters that they r enjoying happiness at the very moment.. and everytime i could juz envy them..kinda jealous i guess? i dunno..haiz..not that i wanna be attached for the sake of getting attached and following the trend la..but..the prob is in the topic of love..i feel..unwanted

i use to hope for love.. i dunno wat im living for now..tired..very tired..my heart is very weary..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 12:56 PM

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当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋