Tuesday, August 29, 2006
prelims..relationships..
hmm.. recently feeling much better le.. i guess i have learnt to stabilise my moods.. after all like i said.. in life enjoy happiness for 5 mins.. dwell on sadness for 5 mins.. den move on.. shud be happy each day de ma!haiz.. prelims arriving in 2 weeks time le.. this sep holiday not like a holiday at all lo.. i rather not have it.. feeling so stressed up.. not that im not studying la but the work that teacher give juz seems too much to every catch up finishing them.. haiz.. dun wanna think too much abt it le.. kekeanyway my focus today is not gonna be on studies.. of cuz not la! aiyo.. there r so many other things more important than studies! u noe.. relationships.. be it frenships.. bgr.. or any kinda relationships.. takes a long time 2 nurture and grow but oni takes a brief moment to be destroyed..there was once a farmer that slogged his life in the fields all day long.. he worked hard and dilligently to reap wat he sow.. true enuf.. he has good harvests every year.. in his field there was a very old and huge tree which he love the most.. this was because the tree grew from a little seed he planted when he was young.. and it grew for years from his father's time to his to become the big and strong tree that he wud take shelter from the sun whenever he was resting from the farming..and so.. all along.. be it rain or shine.. he wud water the huge tree everyday without fail.. even if its raining whole day that day.. he wud still do it as it symbolises the care he give for the tree..this went on every day of the years..one nite.. a huge terrible storm hit the land.. the farmer juz managed to got home after watering his favourite tree when hell broke loose.. lightning struck and winds were strong.. the farmer was worried for his tree.. but yet he could not step out of his house due to the bad weather.. the next morning.. to his susprise.. his favourite tree was struck to death by lightning.. its trunk and wats left of it have been strip off its bark.. and it was all black like charcoal from the lightning.. of cuz.. the farmer was extremely sad.. he hug the trunk and broke into tears.. alas! all e years of care.. of watering and fertilising could not prevent the ordeal from happening! y?! the farmer cant help but to ask.. all his hard work has gone down e drain wif juz that swift miliseconds of the lightning.. all those years were nothing..im not very sure whether u understand e story.. but i think i got its meaning.. its pretty simple.. relationships between humans r already very fragile as it is.. so.. i think we shud all think very very carefully before scolding harsh words on other pple and starting a quarrel or anything bad.. i mean.. think about e consequence.. izzit worth the impulse???haha.. must thank little papaya here.. had i not studied wif her i dun think i will study at all! haha.. sorry la i think i pretty lazy also.. oops.. i think library closing soon le.. haha.. sorry for the slow update! but i will try to come back asap! take care!
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 5:21 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
monday..
this has been a busy week for jackson.. and i think its gonna get even more busier with each passing day.. after all As is drawing nearer.. and all around u can see everyone gearing up already..anyway.. i once heard someone said before that " in life.. one shud enjoy success for 5 mins.. dwell on failures for 5 mins.. den move on " i suppose u all noe wat it means.. but its quite hard to implement it sometimes.. takes a lot of determination to let go wat u cant control.. frankly speaking.. this week has not gone too smoothly for me.. mainly cause i think i had a bad start on monday.. nothing much la.. juz some interpersonal relationships.. o ya.. for those who noe wat exactly happened.. its not about school work la.. its juz that i get kinda tired and weary about e stuffs i had to endure.. so like a pressurised container.. i let to had off steam eventually rite? haiz.. but im ok.. i guess i shud not be too moody for too long.. heard from sheryl yesterday that many of the S18 peeps all v worried about me.. haha.. its kinda happy that at times like this u noe u have support.. so i try 2 recover as fast as possible lo.. haha.. can de la.. me jackson leh.. =) dun worry ya!i think ying has CO until v late today.. yesterday she studying for geog test today.. dunno how she fared.. hoped she slept well last nite.. she had been complaining that she v tired.. but must study finish ma.. keke..o ya.. one important lesson i learn this week is as long as ur contented wif wat u have.. u will be happy.. here's a story:on valentines' day.. a middle-aged couple went out into the city to celebrate their 10th anniversary.. after the celebrations.. they boarded the MRT and headed for home..the MRT was very crowded.. squeezy! the wife and husband managed to get onto the train but they r separated from each other.. juz as the train started to move.. the husband felt a woman's hand grabbed his hand.. he wondered to himself: whose hand could this be? so tender.. so smooth.. so warm.. surely this could not be my wife's.. she's in her mid 40s already.. i wonder y a woman would take notice of me? which aspect of me attracted her? thus.. amidst the crowd in the train..the husband managed to take out a namecard and place it in the woman's hand.. after the train reached the stop.. the husband got down and look at his wife.. she did not notice everything that happened on board the trip.. phew~later on.. they crossed a road.. at this point of time.. a car suddenly lost control and headed for the husband.. the wife immediately pushed her husband away and instead went head on wif the car...in the hospital.. doctors tried their best but the wife's life could not be saved.. the doctors tell the husband to go in and see his spouse for the final time.. he stayed by her side till she catch her last breath.. and when she finally departed.. her hand loosen.. and in it.. the husband's namecard dropped onto the floor...many a times we took wat we had for granted and always wanted more.. maybe thats y we r often unhappy.. perhaps if we learn to let go wat we cant control.. perhaps if we learn to cherish more wat we now possess.. den.. maybe.. happiness wud come naturally..
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 3:24 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
shu han..pearly..jun hong..PEILING!!! (=
yay! finally friday le! now i using pearly's com to blog.. she borrowed it for PW i think.. den juz nice im here so can save me the hassle of standing in e window (library) for 2 hours.. keke.. o and e cute cute jun hong sitting beside me now also.. dunno y he din go play bball today sia.. peiling is cute!!!! haha she type de ar...JACKSON BULLY ME!!! haiz.. she always say i bully her i also dunno i where got bully her.. haha.. i think now hong jealous le la cause pei pei say she cuter than him.. IM OBVIOUSLY CUTER THAN JUN HONG... ok.. everyone cutest except me k.. no debates about it~now i have the whole weekend and next week got lots of holidays so i think i can enjoy myself le.. but hor i notice every teacher use the excuse to give us a lot of homework.. sometimes i rather no holiday than a long holiday lo.. haiz.. every teacher say long holiday therefore shud do more work.. den in e end e work like mountain lo..haiz ok la.. think today not a very nice day to blog cause very distracted.. better let pei pei reply her tags le.. take care!
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:20 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
sandy..
im sure that everyone of u have been unhappy before rite? the reason is not important.. either studies.. frens.. parents.. bgr.. no matter wat.. when ur unhappy den of cuz everyone around u will be very concerned and come to comfort ya.. the question i wanna ask all of u out there is.. dun u feel that sometimes when too many pple come and ask u " hey r u ok? ke yi ma? " although they shower u wif comforting words and consolence.. but u came to wonder to urself.. how many of them reli understand how ur feeling rite now? im not implying anything bad so dun misunderstand.. im juz saying that sometimes pple say too much comforting words until u become desensitise to them.. so.. who r those who reli care?yesterday sms fang to ask about her.. den found out that shes quite moody recently.. e reason i wun say y.. but i juz wan her to noe plain and simple that im here no matter wat and she can count on me de.. she sound pretty tired.. i figured its from studies ba.. anyway.. who isnt? =) hey gal.. a smile a day wud drive e frown away!sandy also say she feeling down yesterday.. i dunno y but she din reply my sms.. hmm.. sometimes when ur feeling down u juz feel like being alone rite? so i respect her decision la.. keke dun disturb her 1st..but 1 thing i cant figure y.. how come little papaya is so energetic all e time? haha u can almost hear her voice bouncing up and down when u listen to her thru e phone.. omg! haha.. she's reli a kai xing guo.. real destresser.. haha thanks little papaya..nonetheless today is wed le.. middle of the week again.. sometimes when ur too busy wif life time juz seems to fly pass by.. next week got long long holiday.. yay! o and i wanna apologise to jess.. she seems quite irritated wif me sometimes for being so noisy.. haha.. ok rest assure i wun disturb her when shes studying again de.. haha.. =) have a nice day everyone!!
ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:16 PM
