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Friday, November 23, 2007

last but the most..

they always say that once exams come they zoom by reli fast huh.. yeap i guess its true.. once the first paper starts the rest will follow and before u noe it its holidays already, which will pass by even faster lol.. well im left wif one last paper on tuesday and that wud be it for the sem.. but i guess the paper on tues is the hardest.. woah they reli put their best shot as the last shot huh i guess..

so far ok ok la.. my frens all advise me not to think too much lest it affects my performance for the future papers.. i think i lower my expectations already.. if every paper can get around a B range den i wud have a GPA of about 3.5? though not the perfect score one wud expect for 1st sem but i guess if u aim low ur disappointment also low huh.. better be pessimistic here.. lol.. i dun like to be disappointed.. actually who likes to be? but sometimes its beyond our control ba i guess..

but y wud i say the last paper is the hardest? cause the previous papers all either can crap or study before in JC.. HE191 economics study before in JC.. though i still screwed it up somewhat but im more worried about the tues paper.. den i had HC101 and HC201 which are both literature papers.. meaning they ask u how u feel about the poems and how u wud analyse the characters and the hidden meaning between the lines etc etc.. so those u can go in and let ur emotions flow and "crap" because there is no rite or wrong answer as long as ur arguments are persuasive.. but the upcoming HC102 is introduction to chinese language.. meaning u analyse the language itself.. wat do i mean? meaning y do we pronounce the way we do now? the evolution of chinese from ancient to modern.. meaning u have to memorise all those articulation symbols and tongue placings to produce the different sounds.. thats juz a small part and to prevent boring everyone else i wun go into details.. juz noe that 102 is a memorise and theory paper.. if u dunno u dunno.. cant reli crap.. lol.. thats y its hard.. i hate memorising.. haiz.. *brain bursting*

well.. i noe the A level peeps are free le ba? mostly.. the more popular subjects all finish le.. *envious envious* haha.. they must be slacking/rotting at home now or everyday go out ar orchard ar go play play already.. haha.. wat can i say? i had my turn already so shudnt be greedy.. *sobs* well happy playing to those JC peeps! u deserve the 9 mths break!

eh.. humans are hard to please eh? when u have long break u nth to do also complain.. when u too stress pull hair also complain.. so contradicting.. haiz.. arent we making life hard for ourselves?! lol.. i heard on radio e DJ reading out smses of pple.. one sms said sth about a JC A level student finish exams already slacking at home everyday very boring!! haha den straight after that sms another sms from someone in uni say that he is very stress from all the exams.. e stark contrast left a very deep impression in me.. funny how we can never be reli happy.. the bored pple wish they had sth to do and the stressed pple wish they had none.. haiz.. life..

9 mths break can be very shuang i guess.. cause im now in the stressed position so im bias myself.. i longed for a break!!! haha.. well den.. think next tues after my paper will go crazy wif all e playing.. K box!! lol.. jia you everyone! all e best in whatever u do! happy slacking/studying!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 6:00 PM

Thursday, November 15, 2007

uni exams..

alrite.. exams officially start yesterday for me.. and a lot others who took HE191 principles of economics.. first time being in a uni exam.. i tot it would feel like a levels.. in fact it felt worse.. a levels u would juz have the whole hall dedicated to the whole level taking exams.. but this woah.. the whole nanyang auditorium is filled with rows and rows of tables and chairs.. the hall outside the audi (where we use to dance during the inter-hall bash in aug) was now replaced by tables and chairs.. ironic how the same exact spot can be once so filled with music, clubbing peeps and fun but now so dreaded, quiet, formal and rigid.. and thats only one exam venue.. there r dunno how many exam halls utilised during the exam period.. so u can imagine a levels' scale multiply by 100 den that would be about it..

alrite everything is similar to a levels.. u have to place ur matric card on ur desk and switch off all devices bla bla bla.. the air con is cold though.. cause the halls they use for exams are all air-conditioned and they on it like there is no tomorrow.. though that is how i felt after the paper.. i dun think they need to rub salt into my wounds ba lol? ya u din see wrongly.. i felt like there is no tml.. haiz the econs paper is hard.. it involves some mathematical calculations apart from the a level style of writing and writing and arguing.. in fact there r no long questions where u argue for 3 pages that constitute 25 marks.. the whole question is 25 marks but they r broken down into parts of like 6 6 6 7 marks each.. since my maths is CMI standard.. i got stuck at the first question and everything after that was pure demoralising.. though i dun think i will fail.. i dun think i can do well.. and if i dun do well in electives (somemore is sth i studied before in a levels).. how can i do well in my core modules?!

o well enuf whining.. suan le.. like my roomie said.. over is over le.. nth can be done.. next mon is chinese core modules HC201 and HC101.. how am i going to cope that? i read half of 201 i was like X.X fan2 ti3 plus they wrote it in poetry style not the bai2 hua4 style.. *prays*

okay so i came here to blog to relieve a bit of stress.. i guess i have to pop back into books and chinese words ya.. wishing everyone all e best.. jia you! look forward to 27th.. haiz.. uni is like taking 8 a levels.. each sem got once.. so sianz..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:28 PM

Thursday, November 08, 2007

k box cravings..

o haha exams r juz around the corner yet i have k box cravings especially under the influence of so many nice new songs! haha.. F.I.R.'s new album is quite good.. love their duets.. last time got the classical tian tian ye ye following which they got xu yao ni de ai (need your love).. very nice and heart-touching song which depicts 2 star-crossed lovers.. and its very hard to sing too! very high notes.. even higher than tian tian ye ye lo.. that time i tried it in my room den it was pretty tough to go up on the chorus.. *oops i hope i din create much noise pollution to my neighbours* actually got la i noe i sing very awfully.. lol.. ellie said she like the song also! haha and i noe she sings very good lo! especially duets.. must sing wif her soon..

got another duet also by F.I.R. also.. 3 ge xing yuan (3 wishes).. this one is sweet and loving de cause sang by faye and ah qin.. difficulty not as hard but very sweet.. something like liang shan po and zhu li ye kinda category ba.. keke.. very nice also.. depends on which category u like lo.. the sweet kind or the sad kind..

recently got many other new albums also! jay got his new album "on the run!" featuring a cowboy theme.. well i got no comments on this.. his songs follow his past trends and r generally okay.. got one very catchy "che" which means pull.. haha.. makes u wanna dance.. got some very nice slow songs also like qing hua ci.. good display of oriental style.. as for his main hit niu zai hen mang well the melody is okay la.. but i wonder whether he is trying to act cute? hm..

got other new albums out too like jolin, luo zhi xiang and cyndi.. but i haven reli got them yet.. keke.. nevertheless craving to go k soon! lol.. but first i guess will have to pass the hurdles of exams.. lol

anyway think now A levels halfway there le rite? those jc peeps hang in there! almost over almost over! jia you jia you o! o juz remembered tml got s18 lunch gathering! looking forward to seeing them again! very long never meet up le.. and happy belated bday to nisha! tml go eat dinner wif them o! haha.. have some fun before my head is in books again.. sobs.. smiles everyone!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 8:38 PM

Sunday, November 04, 2007

assignments..

before the frightful exams come in mid nov there r the assignments due this week.. haiz but luckily i manage to finish them by yesterday.. 2 big end of term report: 1 max 2000 words and another 1000 words min. haiz.. the prob is not wif the numbers reli but rather 2000 + 1000 CHINESE words.. omg thats hard to squeeze out.. last nite when i was writing the conclusion i simply zonk out and juz stare blankly at my paper for abt 15 mins dunno doing wat.. reli very taxing wor.. but luckily can write out.. cause if must type out those chinese words think even harder and slower.. lol think the thought of changing course grows stronger and stronger in me.. yet unlike when i first came at the starting of the sem.. now there r things keeping me back.. intangible things.. though its not academic.. it matters a lot to me.. how? the struggle in me grows as i approaches the delimma.. and as the deadline for change course application draws near decisions become harder and harder..

the jc peeps r in e midst of a levels rite now ba? jia you jia you! GP should be alrite this year? gender equality rite? keke.. and for the maths and chinese papers so far heard from pple is okay.. doable.. remember to balance study and rest o! no point studying through the nite only to zonk out in the paper itself.. keke.. dun worry 2 more weeks and everything will be over! last time when i was in JC seniors also use to tell me that.. but i still felt very stress.. even so i agree that its once-in-a-lifetime thingy.. and trust me.. one day u will look back at the times when u use to stay in sch library until late to mug and mug.. u will look back at the times when u felt the frenship and bonds so close when u all study in groups and consult each other.. u will look back at the times when ur head is so satuated wif information and u felt so smart that u can recite every formula backwards lol.. and most of all u will remember the times when u were studying.. because it gets less fun when u grow up.. to go thru the bitterness den u will feel the sweetness of reward.. so jia you! all e best!

haha ok talk abt more casual matters.. dunno y my hall got this tradition of throwing pple into NIE pond during their bday.. so cruel sia.. i almost kena on karen's bday.. and yet its her bday and i kena.. dunno y also guess it juz makes them very high to see me go down eh? super lousy excuse to throw me down sia.. but in e end din go down la.. guess they still leave some mercy for me lol.. but den again next year when its my bday i noe the last place i wanna be at is hall lol.. think this time is rehearsal next time is for real already.. the water looks milky.. yucks.. no matter wat happy belated bday to karen! o yan xin's bday is coming.. oops!

yeap i guess thats it for now ba.. remember life is abt choices and making the rite ones.. so everyone live ur life wif no regrets! be well my frens.. smiles!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:15 PM

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