i died the day you left me

Sunday, December 16, 2007

queen of queens!

yesterday nite went down to st. james power station wif yan and tin to support yiting in e seventeen magazine's event queen of queens! she's one of the pageants in it! haha.. 2nd time going down to st. james.. great club =)

the queue was very long.. we thought the event wud start late so we went vivo to eat dinner first.. when we reach the entrance we cud not see the entrance at all! firstly being we cudnt find the entrance which was actually at the back of the power station.. secondly being e queue was so long until we cud not see it from where we're queuing.. lol.. along the way saw quite a number of familiar faces.. pioneers and sec sch frens like adeline, sook ching, june, melydia, ming jie, edward, dorene and marie are all there! cause the pageants come from various tertiary institutes like NUS NTU SMU and SIM.. moreover pageants sarah and ting were both pioneers! so guess quite a lot of pioneers present yesterday.. vion and shan was there last nite too but the place was simply too crowded to spot them.. gotta meet up soon k! i hope vion's not all busy again? hm..

we managed to get inside around 9pm.. juz nice to see ting in the pageant Q&A session! haha.. OMG! ting looked simply great and gorgeous! i cudnt recognise her if she wasnt holding her number board Q7! haha her fren said the boards look like price tags and they r like auctioning themselves away.. lol.. her hair was sassy and she juz looked extraordinary.. she did the catwalk wif confidence and that reli impressed me.. very different from the usual crappy and lame ting.. she looked a bit nervous at e start but i can feel that she's very happy yesterday nite.. after all every pageant present yesterday is already a winner of a pageant before they come tgt at this event.. i think ting did a great job yesterday by juz being herself and presenting her best to e audience there.. proud to have u as my fren ting! her replies to the interview questions in e mag was very funny: three years ago i was.. "making frens" wif integration by parts and income distribution theory.. lol.. another question followed: three years from now i want to be.. a better person than the one answering this question.. wow! stunning answer.. left a deep impression in me.. good job!

i din noe y but during the ride back to hall last nite i suddenly felt so lonely despite the bus being quite crowded.. i suddenly realise that im also human and i also have emotions.. maybe im not as strong as i tot.. maybe ellie's rite.. jackson has e right to be depressed also? i pondered if wearing a mask all e time can be tiring.. it can be rite? i din noe y i have this thought too.. guess they juz came.. the scenery outside was black and blurry and as the bus journeyed back to NTU my thoughts journeyed down memory lane.. ting's happy, tin's happy, yan's happy, vion and shan are also happy, same goes for ellie.. and im happy for them too *smiles*.. so shudnt i be happy for myself? am i happy for myself? i suddenly question my own theories.. is the world reli simple? are things reli simple? am i simple? am i happy? is this all juz a facade? is this all self-consolation? the person sitting beside me in e bus was playing F.I.R. - xu yao ni de ai.. it seems so chang1 sang1, so qi1 mei3.. haiz.. it felt like i travelled through my 19 years of life and back in that journey.. everything juz collapse in e bus that nite.. and i have to put it back together before i reach my room.. so no1 noes abt it..

maybe its juz the music.. maybe..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:20 PM

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.:[sChOoLs]:.
QiHuA pRi 1995 - 2000
RiVeRsiDe SeC 2001 - 2004
PiOnEeR JuNiOr CoLLeGe 2005 - 2006
NtU HsS 2007 - cUrReNt

.:[LiKeS]:.
SuNnY dAyS
MoViEs (ExCePt HoRrOr & GoRy OnEs)
StAr GaZiNg
SiNgInG
F.I.R. - Xu YaO Ni De Ai

.:[HaTeS]:.
bAcKsTaBbErS
ChAnGiNg Of pLaN LaSt MiN
EgOiStiC PpLe

.:[HoPeS]:.
AcCePtAbLe ReSuLtS
NoT 2 MuCh StReSs
cLoSe FrEnS WhO uNdErStAnDs Me
SiMpLiCiTy N hApPiNeSs
tRuE lOvE

WiLL u EvEr CoMe BaCk...

当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋