i died the day you left me

Friday, May 30, 2008

heartwarming..

So goes the week. Oh ya haven't really talk about what happened during last week's class gathering right? it was really great! =)

i was surprised that many turned up! in fact minus those who're overseas everyone turned up! yeap, there were 21 of us, and among the 5 who didn't come maine and jor are overseas. I heard that sheryl low and grace are overseas as well. For some exchange or community service event. Colin was suppose to come but he had some last minute stuff, aiyah so close to seeing him after so long, was quite looking forward to meeting him actually. Yeah so minus these few everyone was there. Words can't really describe the scene adequately, it just feels like things haven't really changed from graduation, we're still us and we still tease and joke around, yet in fact many things have changed. The guys are almost finishing their NS and the girls are already year 2 already! omg talking about just entering uni as a freshman not so long ago and now seniors-going-to-be already. Time flies, but what's heartwarming is that we still stick together and we still meet up from time to time like this. I was once again assured that JC times are way better than uni, and I never regret going PJ and entering S18.

So for the first time we actually ate steamboat outside the house at the lift area because there were too many of us and the tables are too long. Yeap that's right the lift area of the HDB block. People who came up the floor got a shock too to see a table of 20 people right outside the lift, but they were mostly hao's neighbour and so no one really had any objections. The guys would chatter about NS and the girls about academic and uni activities such as modules and CCA, after that we mingle around the steamboat and later around games like monopoly, cards and mahjong! woah! Bing Qin and Hansen can drive already! *excited* it was an unforgettable night indeed.

Other than that I also attended the Humanities and Social Science Freshmen Orientation Camp (HSS FOC) senior camp before going straight to hao's place. The camp's good too! We GLs bonded and had quite a lot of crazy fun. Now it really starts to feel like holidays! *laughs* Attended fright night, beach games and night games trial. This year intake for the camp going to double to 200! *looking forward excitedly* We dark side are really fun aren't we? Dark side~

Well so goes the week, lecturer's back from holiday and so business law lectures and tutorials resumed this week. Rushing through it now. Wow business seems fun and interesting but seems like hard to score. Certainly would be tough if I take it up as a second major right? hmm.. should relax life more right? Why stress yourself? *heave a sigh of relief* take care everyone!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 10:50 PM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

fulfilling week..

this week has been fulfilling so far.. i wont say busy la because the events distribute themselves nicely across the week, furthermore it's not studying so i sort of enjoy doing them also (well at least most of them)..

to summarise them all so far i have been to a movie at vivo with JC frens, accuracy of death to be exact.. a japanese movie and a very meaningful one.. not bad.. and then there's the hearty meal at esther's (hall fren) house.. boy her dad's culinary skills are superb! haha.. eating around with hall frens and going down to Kids United for peer tutoring to the kids there as the weekly visit of hall charity CCA resumes..

there's more coming.. HSS FOC (orientation) senior camp starts tml! 2 days 1 night of fun as we seniors bond and enjoy while trying out the programmes! very excited and very very looking forward to it.. did i mention i was very excited? lol.. then on saturday there's a JC class gathering at hao's humble abode.. heard there's steamboat and movie watching session! woah.. yum yum..

o wells.. among the fun there's a tinge of disappointment though.. hall application came out and this year's cut off weight is 15 for both genders! that's very high and difficult to achieve.. seen a lot of pple gotten the rejection email and wont be staying next year already.. omg.. i think a lot of pple will leave.. haiz..

nevertheless, let the holiday season sink in and enjoy ur holidays for those in uni! all e best and dun think too much for those applying for uni!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 11:36 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

blogs..

spent my day at home today.. finally have some time to do some leisure surfing on the net and more importantly, blog hopping to see how everyone's doing recently.. i realise i haven reli blog hop a lot due to exams and hall activities..

blog hopping also brings back fond memories.. when u see the things that ur frens blogged and the things that are happening around them now.. u tend to think back "last time JC we used to.." or "last time O levels period we used to.." and things start flowing back.. guess that's 1 of the most magical things about blogs..

yiting wrote on her blog that looking at ur own archives bring back fond memories too! i went to try it and it's true.. u will laugh at urself looking at those posts.. things u blogged last time.. i realise, contrary to my belief, that i did change a lot these 3 years.. not necessarily for the better but most certainly i did change.. o my..

talking about changes, i look at the pictures that my friends post together with their entries.. o they certainly grow up le.. even if it's just 3 years.. o! which means i too grow up le right? haiz.. time flies.. people grow up and people change.. no1 can deny that i guess..

but what's heartwarming is that i still remember all of my friends.. i wonder if they still rmb me? hmm.. kinda miss them.. the footsteps that they left in my heart.. i haven been able to contact some of them recently.. suddenly have the urge to call every one of them and "hey how u doing recently? nothing much la just call to chat chat lo.." but scare later frighten them.. haha.. o wells.. my Qihua frens, especially the 6L peeps. my Riverside frens, especially 2/10 and 4/7 peeps. my PJC frens, especially my 05S18 peeps. NTU chinese peeps. ur never forgotten..

and i realise 1 more thing.. compared to last time now i have been going out lesser.. izzit cuz i have less frens now? haiz.. maybe im thinking too much, maybe im forgotten, maybe i shud end here..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 6:11 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

malaysia..

yesterday the bunch of us from hall came to malaysia to play! haha.. because we have no cars thus we oni go city square walk walk oni.. nv reli go far la..

we went to some restaurant called sizzling stonegrill for lunch.. they give u a slab of hot stone and u place whatever u wanna grill on top of it.. be it meat or seafood.. they have a lot of variety to choose from from chicken chop to chicken kebab to salmon! the food comes raw and u can choose whether u wanna grill it urself or ask the staff to grill for u in front of ur eyes! gosh i never knew that stone can be so hot! once the fish is placed it immediately sizzles and gets cook reli fast! and the stone stays hot for very long! we chatted while we ate and we chatted some more after we finished eating.. and when we left the stone's still warm! overall not bad.. quite delicious and because it's in RM not it's not reli ex la rite? lol

we watched iron man after that.. nice show, cool effect, funny jokes and excellent acting.. those who haven watch yet shud go watch! not bad not bad.. not that i wanna be a spoiler, but is the original marvel comic storyline of iron man base on the afganistan thing too? they changed the storyline in the movie rite? rite? lol..

after that did some walking around followed by more eating at the ye4 si4 (street market) and desserts at Kim Gary (the HK actor who acted as ah wang's brother in ah wang xin zhuan HK serial drama) restaurant! their desserts are superb with the apple pulp ice kachang! no worries because they have an outlet in vivo also! i oni noe that yesterday.. lol probably cuz stay in NTU too long nv town already.. yeap yeap so can go try.. price is in S$ though.. the outlet we tried yesterday in city square their prices are the same as the singapore outlet but everything in RM so to us it's like 50% discount already.. plus got student discount of 10%.. haha i dunno y but they accept NTU matric card.. lol.. so to singaporeans it's like a 60% discount??? shiok la..

yeap.. think i shud be going back hall on tues or sth.. feels good to be home.. o and to all mothers out there.. happy happy mother's day!! cares everyone!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 4:36 PM

complicated

imagine ur in this clique.. mixture of guys and gals.. 1 of the guys in the clique like 1 of the gals in the same clique.. however the gal doesnt like the guy and oni treats him as a good fren.. one day she trashed things out with the guy and told him that she felt very uncomfortable with him liking her.. and that rejection made the guy very sad and heartbroken.. imagine ur in this clique.. both the gal and the guy r ur good frens.. however u cant ask the gal to simply accept the guy cuz love cannot be forced.. u look at the guy but u seem so helpless.. the oni thing u can do is let him release his emotions and cry his heart out.. u noe the exact reason y he is so sad but u cant make him feel better because it's beyond ur control..

im in this clique..

that nite i went over to accompany the guy when he's feeing down.. watching him drowning his sorrows in alcohol, watching him banging his fists on the floor, laughing and crying at the same time like a man who lost his sanity.. rolling and lying on the floor like one who has given up all hopes of life.. there's a famous saying "a drunkard's drunkness is not within the booze" well if he can get so drunk on a few bottles of heineken im sure it's not the beer.. one who chooses to remain drunk will remain drunk on water.. i suddenly realise 1 thing:

to love is painful..

i always feel that to love is better than to be loved..but now i reli have my doubts.. love is complicated.. it's never simple in the first place. yet the human mind is weak.. despite us knowing that it will hurt.. most of us fell for it nevertheless.. it's hard to confess, it's hard to deny, it's hard to abstain.. so inconclusive yet so inevitable.. *sigh*

so that nite.. the oni thing i cud advise him was "give time.. let time heal everything.. give both of u some space". such a feeble comment.. even i, at the moment i say it out to him, know that this is the most useless comment.. but i dunno wat else i can say..

F.I.R - xu yao ni de ai.. perhaps a song can complement where no words can accomplish..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 3:55 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

FOC senior camp..

phew.. wat a busy week.. busy with everything else but study.. oops.. k la k la i admit.. busy playing.. lol.. special term 1 starts this week.. and after 2 lectures and tuts of business law i start to realise that biz law is interesting because there is no definite right and wrong answers.. as long as u can justify wat u say u can argue anything.. wow.. looks quite fun.. but this kinda modules usually hard to score one.. lol.. we'll see how.. but 1 thing that's certain is that special sem is very intense.. 2nd lecture already form groups and give group assignments le.. so for those who take special sem try your best not to pon ok? *sayang sayang* lol..

last saturday was hall's freshmen orientation camp(FOC) senior camp.. held at sentosa.. tiring and fun day it was! we tried out the beach games and the legendary fright night which took place in the dragon trail.. the beach games was shag with the scorching sun draining our energy and burning our delicate skins on top of all the running.. they're fun though with all the stupid ball games with no balls.. haha u shud noe la FOC games wont be normal de.. always have the weird touch in the rules of those games.. wont say too much about those here.. those who joined FOC shud noe.. those who din, experience it!

oooO fright night.. i must say the trail is very very dark.. they oni use light sticks to guide our way.. green light sticks for the path and red light sticks for dangerous terrain.. and each pair was oni given a blue light stick to navigate around.. yeah blue.. it's not even a bright yellow or green light stick.. it's a dark blue light stick.. something like the UV light u use to validate if the currency is real.. yeah and my partner was reli scared.. i feel that the atmosphere is such that even without "ghosts" to scare u u will be scared already.. needless to say with "ghosts" lo.. some more im the last pair to go in.. so it's scariest for me because the programmers inside who acted as ghosts improvise from the first pair slowly become scarier and scarier until the last pair is zai zai one.. lol.. it's fun and memorable la.. my heart was thumping fast, although i think michelle's(my partner) faster =X.. it's quite scary at some stations and improvements needed at others.. haha.. now that we have given our feedbacks i think the actual fright nite's going to be a blast! lets hope nth goes wrong yeah.. keke..

alright.. so goes this week den.. tml meeting stefe for lunch! *pokes* cares everyone! for those in NUS who's undergoing exams.. jia you jia you!

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 8:58 PM

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当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋