i died the day you left me

Sunday, May 11, 2008

complicated

imagine ur in this clique.. mixture of guys and gals.. 1 of the guys in the clique like 1 of the gals in the same clique.. however the gal doesnt like the guy and oni treats him as a good fren.. one day she trashed things out with the guy and told him that she felt very uncomfortable with him liking her.. and that rejection made the guy very sad and heartbroken.. imagine ur in this clique.. both the gal and the guy r ur good frens.. however u cant ask the gal to simply accept the guy cuz love cannot be forced.. u look at the guy but u seem so helpless.. the oni thing u can do is let him release his emotions and cry his heart out.. u noe the exact reason y he is so sad but u cant make him feel better because it's beyond ur control..

im in this clique..

that nite i went over to accompany the guy when he's feeing down.. watching him drowning his sorrows in alcohol, watching him banging his fists on the floor, laughing and crying at the same time like a man who lost his sanity.. rolling and lying on the floor like one who has given up all hopes of life.. there's a famous saying "a drunkard's drunkness is not within the booze" well if he can get so drunk on a few bottles of heineken im sure it's not the beer.. one who chooses to remain drunk will remain drunk on water.. i suddenly realise 1 thing:

to love is painful..

i always feel that to love is better than to be loved..but now i reli have my doubts.. love is complicated.. it's never simple in the first place. yet the human mind is weak.. despite us knowing that it will hurt.. most of us fell for it nevertheless.. it's hard to confess, it's hard to deny, it's hard to abstain.. so inconclusive yet so inevitable.. *sigh*

so that nite.. the oni thing i cud advise him was "give time.. let time heal everything.. give both of u some space". such a feeble comment.. even i, at the moment i say it out to him, know that this is the most useless comment.. but i dunno wat else i can say..

F.I.R - xu yao ni de ai.. perhaps a song can complement where no words can accomplish..

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 3:55 PM

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当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋