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Sunday, January 11, 2009

the clown..

Have you ever been to a circus?

There are lots of attractions to watch and every one of them will satisfy your viewing pleasures at the end of the show, much less say the clown. The clown, ever so funny, always doing silly things that cracks the audience up. They put up a smile, literally with those thick make-ups, juggling balls and falling over them, make a fool of themselves in exchange for the audience's happiness. If you ever notice, the clowns always come up at the beginning of the circus show or at intervals between those daring acts to serve as an appetizer to entertain the audience, it's their purpose anyway.

But at the end of the day, it's always the flying Dutchman, the tiger that jumps over the ring of fire, the muscle hulk who can lift all weights and the cannon man who fires out of it that conjure the most applause from the audience. The circus can never do without them yet the clown is all too dispensable. The clown can never be as spectacular as any one of them even though he may yearn to be. At the end of the day he knows that his sole job in the whole show is to make a fool of himself time and again to make way for those real acts later. Then again, how many of the audience actually remember the clown at the end?

Maybe that's why the clown needs a really thick make up to draw a smile on his face. After all, who can be happy making a fool of himself? Have you ever seen a clown after shedding his make-up? Few have. The audience never know what the clown looks like, or how he feels deep beneath. Perhaps it is best that they remember the clown as the always happy guy who never fail to put on a smile.

I would suppose it takes a lot of courage and endurance for the clown to act smiling when he's not, to give it all up for the audience. We must give him some credit though, he's really good in what he's made for: making a fool and making others laugh. Even though that's nowhere near a daring act, he seems to have quite a bit of talent performing his silly stunts.

A clown that always puts on a smile: a truly ironic scene indeed.

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 2:03 PM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

a brand new year 2009..

a brand new year has come, in fact it has already been 1 week into the new year.. time flies i guess..

my bday passed too! just like that.. it fell on a wednesday and thus had school, in fact wednesday's my most tiring day: 6 hour non stop lectures plus the day starts at 0830. Hence spend most of my bday in lecture theatres with the notes and lecturer.

the people in hall did give me quite a surprise though, and I was very touched by their efforts. As you would have conjecture I didn't plan anything for my 21st, so the hall surprise was the only thing I got on my actual day. I only live once and I will never forget that day, truly touched =). To summarise it they strap me to a chair and dyed my hair (including the ones on my leg) and caked me a little. Dirty good fun I guess, now if I don't smile I look like a gangster, or should I say lion? But anyway I would have liked it even if they dyed it any colour, it's the thought that counts right?

Hence want to thank the hall peeps, ying and all who remembered my birthday! You all have made my life and I would have no regrets with friends like you all. I would also like to wish Jeanne, Wensen, Lynette and pearly who are all jan babies. Happy birthday to us!

I really hope this year would be a happy year for me. =)

ShAtTeReD mY bRoKeN hEaRt AgAiN oN » 1:56 PM

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当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去

排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)

你将那些谎言把爱给活埋